
About this episode
"We are mosaics. Pieces of light, love, history, stars. Glued together with magic and music and words." - Anna Kritzen
There’s a quiet grief that lives inside a lot of people.
Because we’ve learned how to contain ourselves.
Creativity was once somewhere we all went to feel alive, and became something we use to prove who we are.
We learn to identify with a medium, a label, an aesthetic, a version of ourselves to be understood, admired, approved of. And without realizing it - these identities shrink us.
This episode is about how identifying too tightly with a creative medium - or with being good at something - can quietly disconnect us from our true nature, which is plural, fluid, and undefinable. When creativity becomes performance, identity, or ego, it stops being an expression of our aliveness and starts feeding validation instead.
Today, I’m talking about creative repression, the “shadow artist,” and what it really means to be a starving artist - not financially, but spiritually. We’ll explore how boxing ourselves into one identity limits our expression, why losing passion is often a sign of creative deprivation, and how curiosity, play, and permission to be bad can reopen the door.
As Julia Cameron once said: ""You're either losing your mind or gaining your soul."
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