Bristling With Antagonism

Morning, Shan.

Good morning, yeah.

Morning.

Look every people,

anywhere,

no language,

no God,

no souls,

no families

be very bad.

It is marsh the second

hope everyone is well

for opening doors for them.

You cannot hope to create peace

and harmony in the world

until you have found peace

and harmony within.

You have to start with

yourself.

You have to start in a

small way and let it grow and expand. The multi oak tree has its beginnings in a tiny oak

pond and yet within that tiny oak pond it contains everything. You contain the piece of the world

within you so why not let it grow and expand within until it no longer can be contained and

bursts forth bringing peace and harmony into the world. It starts within you so be consciously

aware of the vitally important parts which you have to play to help bring peace and harmony

into the world. Never stand back and blame anyone else for the state of the world

but get into action and do something about it yourself. Now be at perfect peace as you do my

will and walk in my ways glorified me. We're talking about harmony yes. There's quite a bit

of harmony and there's harmony into the world. It's a nice road isn't it? Harmony.

It's a musical word isn't it? Harmony is something pleasant. It's when things are

things are good and that piece that we can find peace and harmony I couldn't find any when I

wasn't doing the right thing that made me very conflicted inside so there was conflict inside

me so I couldn't radiate out any harmony when I was thinking because it was all I was so conflicted

with not doing the right thing with harming people but with my alcoholic head saying you're okay

you know you know you deserve a drink because everyone's done this to you blaming everyone else.

Well it was like a ticket drink to find some harmony you know that's the idea isn't it?

To quiet and down there. I've got all this anxiety I can't cope you know it's a mess it's

just a lot of the noise quite the noise you know a two-junk and always well with the world and you

know that works so well until it makes everything worse and actually then you start thinking well

actually all my problems have been because of the drink and what I've said and what I've done

and actually I've made things ten times worse. The harmony is creating the conflict

so it can't do that anymore so you know the steps are a way of clearing that wreckage you know

what we should have done in the first place was you know trying to clear what was coming at us

but we didn't have the tools I didn't know how to set boundaries so I didn't know how to

find my voice you know I was a people pleaser you know I had terrible defects that weren't working

too well for me that I didn't really understand but I do know I have compassion for that girl that

didn't understand you know I didn't know any any different but the thing is that I do now

and I know that I can use tools to do not get rid of and go for a straight shoot and fear but

live with them yeah be aware and not be overwhelmed and know that I'm not in control of a lot of

things you know as soon as I get a serenity cry I don't have to worry about the things I can't

change I can't change them don't worry about them but the things that I can change myself right

now I can get into summation that was so practical immediately on day one I thought

so I had to control everything it was so free and I never said that to me don't I have to

worry about everything I can't control or change so you know it was pretty quick to change

you know with certain things and then that whole conflict started turning more harmonious

as I did my steps did my men's you know changed my ways made living your men's and eventually

people had confidence that I was going to stay sober this time and I went to it so that conflict went

here it's pretty amazing you can't quite imagine that you know I've I've got my children phoning

the app saying you know what are you you know when when you're going to answer us about

Mother's Day where are we going I'm booking it okay lovely you know that that's

I had a very you know sort of interesting card for the first few years

with that you're not drinking we hope that you continue to stay sober you know and to

compare to now yeah well done keep going yeah because they were hurt you know I get that I get

that I have changed from being a loving mother into an alcoholic that was very selfish and lying

and dishonest and deceitful and near death at points so I can't blame at all for that

that the main process has brought harmony back

the answer really amazing you get an acorn you get an uptie out of an acorn I mean it's like

you know other seeds you get you know like some strawberries or potatoes or wheat or whatever

but a fucking old pig you know it's really mental something so huge

something so tiny all the chords in there and that you know that seed of recovery you can plant

that and then what happens you know you feed it with the right stuff and it will grow it can

stay dormant for a long time and then suddenly germinate if it gets to like the difference

nice where are we in the book

you know is that two um it's worth to fit of the seven so

yeah it's been repeated improving among us upon the simple corn store and a wonderful

effort to spiritual structure tell me about CFNH2 that was great news to us for we had a

student we could not make use of spiritual principles unless we accepted many things on faith

which seemed difficult to believe when people presented us with spiritual approaches

how frequently did we all say I wish that hard what that man has I'm sure it would work if I could

only believe as he believes I cannot accept to truly true the many articles of faith which

are so plain to him so it was comforting to learn that we could commence at a simpler level

besides assuming inability to accept much on faith we often found ourselves

handicapped by an obstinacy, sensitivity and unreasoning prejudice many authors have been so

touchy that even casual reference to spiritual things made as a bristle with antagonism

the sort of thinking had to be abandoned but some of us resisted we found no great difficulty

in casting aside such feelings faced with alcoholic destruction we soon became as open-minded

in spiritual matters as we had tried to be another question in this respect alcohol was a great

persuader it finally beaters into a state of regionalness sometimes this was a tedious process

we hope no one else will be prejudiced for as long as some of us were

so well written

yeah that idea you know you see people of faith you know they've got these convictions and

in their lives easier they have a simple outlook on life and they're not so worried about life

because they've got this belief in God and the afterlife and all the rest of it and I think

not states are like I mean you know you're quite lucky actually but you know it's just

some of the stuff they believe in seems a bit unlikely and that's

a common perception so

we're handicapped

friend of show's handicapped by obstinacy sense stiffness and unreasoning prejudice

that's a good line isn't it unreasoning prejudice

unreasoning and that we're trying to get from unreasoning to reasonableness

faced with alcohol like a destruction

well everything pursued us it says didn't that you know we were sensitive

from everything casual reference to spiritual things me there's a bit of sort of antagonism

good and bristling

the sort of thinking had to be abandoned I like that like you know it's just abandoned

and you know you're prejudiced you're all thinking just fucking abandoned

you know you know put it to one side or you know hold on to it abandoned

I think you know just happening around willingness you know come on your life isn't going so well

you know two or one will have are you willing are you willing

you faced with alcohol or destruction and it's such a great phrase we see all the time you know

I saw Jordan read the the destruction of a life as a result of alcoholism and

you know it's kind of like you your life is being destroyed we have a solution to this problem

you know and it involves you abandoning you certain ways of thinking and look at your life

yeah look where you are right so why the fuck do you want to hold on to

is that going well how you're thinking yeah it's not it's not going well so you need to change

how you think right that's clear so you've got to consider new ideas

but I think it makes no sense to hold on to you know where it says sometimes you know it's

quite a difficult choice the alcoholic death or you know the spatial life and you know I can see

that this person's choosing the latter to be doomed to an alcoholic death or to live in a

spiritual basis I'm not always easy for sanitary species yeah well this is the thing isn't it

you know it's like abandoning your power your your belief you do it's a bit like I've been wrong

on my life and you know I don't want to accept that I don't want to accept that I've been wrong

it's the ego you know you just forget the pride and then hold your hands and say okay

actually this life isn't working for me yeah okay I throw in the towel I mean what's the problem

with changing with deciding even don't even look at it as I've been wrong on my life just

look at it as you know as time for change I'm going to try something different and you know maybe

it will help me you know to see as a way of it as an improvement rather than you know a judgment

hmm you know it's just it's just that it hasn't worked it's just time for change you know now

it was diagnosis no alcohol destructive it's my reality and these people have been where I

where I am now and they've got they've got to be right need to get to sort of about just just

doing what it says in this really good yeah you know and these and these things are quite sensible

for Justin you know that you know I'm being I'm being obstinate I'm being sensitive and I'm being

you know prejudicial why won't get desired doing something pulled to open remain

and get willing okay I'll get that go because you know I don't you know I don't want to be destroyed

I've been beaten into still a reasonable and sometimes this was a tedious process

you tell me I mean I've been at sound room for six months

we've been obstinate prejudiced and sensitive for sitting with antagonism yeah yeah pretty much

and you know decided to give out a goal with the old town chemical harmony business and

you know just cause a lot of trouble because a lot of trouble and you know it's heading for

destruction and it was beaten into a state of reasonableness it's like it says there you know and

and and came in and just the meatmyer came to it was reading them some pretty sure you know I'm

in the main place to show you but it suddenly the big book that you'd looked at before suddenly

became true and you started paying attention to it because you'd realized that you know that's

that's a rather to come didn't you know and also I thought I didn't really give this book a proper

study you know I didn't you know I just read through it once you know and thought it's a bit weird

and then you know it does warm study and you know I mean what we're doing I'm finding great

because there's so many gems in here you know that you know sometimes this was a tedious process

you know we know no one knows we've created this for as long as someone was very you know

I just think that this this kind of suddenly I'm looking at myself thinking oh I'm prejudiced

you know I'm prejudiced again for just people I'm prejudiced again from you know prejudiced

against spirituality you know prejudiced against this and the other you know I'm very very

dogmatic and my thinking and what was brought me you know and you know my faith in alcohol and

drugs is gone I've got to stop that I know that you know that it's like those things are just

trying to so I've got to find something else and I I'm going to study this book and you found it

yeah yeah and I mean chaksa for does not get studied a law in the rooms so it's good to be going

through carefully yeah thanks son

we've seen the came as open-minded on special matters as we had tried to be another question

and

and I've got much