Colin Kaepernick Joins Higher Learning

0:00Yeah, yeah, I thought Warriors. What is a high learning is on his eye band, Lathen Jeannie. And it's me, Rachel and Lathen. Rachel and Lathen, so what I'm talking about. It's Halloween with us, we're going to talk about it. Colin Kaap and Nick is on the show today. So we aren't talking about it anymore. We're having the conversation. We're having a conversation with Kaap. Yeah. And we're having the conversation with him. And we're having the conversation with him. And we're having the conversation with him. And we're having the conversation with him. With Kaap. Yeah. I'm with Kaap. Kaap is with us. It is a while-ranging conversation about an hour and a half about the life and times of Colin Kaap and Nick. Yeah, he's got a new book coming out. It really is. I mean, he's done a lot, but this is his memoir. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. The book is called The Peralace Fight. It is available September 15th. And it is a much different peak into his life than anything he's put up before. He's put up things that had to do with his childhood. Things that had to do with the protests itself.

1:00But nothing that was all encapsulated. Yeah. And for those of you, I think this conversation is really interesting before. All in composing. A variety of reasons. But obviously Van and I have different relationships with Colin Kaap and Nick. I don't have one you do. Yeah. And I think that it gives you a different perspective from both sides. And if you think you know everything, believe me, there's a lot that hasn't been said. And it happens in this interview and in the book. We're going to get to it in a second. But before we do, I want to do one thing. I want to recognize somebody that we haven't recognized in a long time. And that's Hooten Annie. So we haven't really talked about Hooten Annie in a while. And we haven't talked about Mount Lion in a while. A lot of my animal friends and things have gone on with them. We haven't really discussed it. But Hooten Annie is, he's healed up, right? And he- I'll take it off. No. He's healed up. Why can't you- You said he's healed. Cash, a question. Why are you against them? That's literally, I don't like birds. But why- But he likes you.

2:00But he likes you. But he likes you. Look at his looking at me. He likes you. This is Hooten Annie and Hooten Annie is here for us. And he guards the set. Which is very important because sometimes other people will use this room. Sometimes I'll be doing the midnight boys. And I'll see- Go close on Hooten Annie. Sometimes I'll- And I'll see him peeking over. Or what you are right now. What the fuck is going on? Nigga, what you doing? When it's time to learn and coming back. Because this is when he flies. So shout out to Hooten Annie. Shout out to all the owls around. Shout out to owls, man. You know what I'm saying? Shout out to birds. No, come on, come on. But we need birds in the ecology. Fine, I guess whatever. But I don't have to like associate myself with them. Speaking of birds, Eagles are birds. They're in Philadelphia. That's an NFL franchise. They should assign Colin Kaepernick. He'll talk to you about him. The other side is break. Whole interview with Colin Kaepernick. The perilous fight comes out September 15th. FanDool is now available everywhere in the U.S.

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5:03I feel like this book is a way for you to talk to people. Is that the reason why you wrote it? Yeah, that's part of it. And also to try to help give guidance and someone blueprint of experiences I had to navigate. Well, he had to go through and ultimately, what's on the other side of it? How do we collectively move forward? How do we build stronger movements? How do we build stronger communities? All of that becomes incredibly important, but a lot of the lessons learned through this process show up in the book. And there are also lessons that we've seen historically show up. I think a lot of people are going to have a misconception about it. And maybe I've seen some chatter around it because you've written other books, but you have not told this story before. What, and even the timing of the book, it was that intentional that you wanted it to come out this month, 10 years later, and take a look back at what the last decade has been. Did you always kind of plan this?

6:03That's right. It was a little bit of coincidence process wise and timing wise, because it's been working on this for some years now. It landing on the 10 year or around the 10 year anniversary. Obviously, I've taken in me in protesting. I mean, there's significance there. I think also significance in relation to the perilous fight. The perilous fight right there. People just flew into the goddamn. Oh, here. You can't cover it. Share space right there. Same color. Great choice, y'all. But the other part is also looking at where we're at as a society today. I am important that we continue the work and make that prominent because we have a lot of forces that are working counter to that right now. Let's start there. Well, before we get into some of those topics, let's talk directly about the book.

7:06What for you was either the most important thing to share in the book to get across to people or the most difficult? There's a few different things that I think became important. And we're centered around a lot of questions that I got over the last 10 years. A good portion of that was, well, what led to the protest and what got you there? Oftentimes I heard it talked about similar to my playing career where it was like, oh, you came out of nowhere. It's like, no, that's not the case. This is years in a lifetime in the making that ultimately led to that moment. The other part is, well, what were all the things that happened behind the scenes? And why were you taking the actions you were taking? And what was happening? And being able to lay some of that out as far as situations that we were trying to navigate, implications of what that was for meat personally versus what I thought was best for the movement.

8:13And then also a little bit of personal life and that aspect and the implications around that and how you have to navigate it. Define the movement. The movement, so think about movement more broadly, I would position that as collectively as black folks and as a society. How are we building towards a better society? In this instance, we're specifically talking police brutality, but we're also talking systemic oppression, systems in place. Policing as a system, mass incarceration as a system, are political environments and political systems. How do we actually change those to create better outcomes for us collectively? One more. So what do you feel like your protest taking a knee was attempting to affect as far as systemic change? Awareness to systemic change, what did you see that bridge be? Yeah, so the protest became one we have to take action in some form or fashion to be able to get people moving, to be able to get people aware.

9:20And that was a lot of conversations that we saw going into 2016. My aim was we know there's major issues. What are we going to do? And for me, I look as we may not have the perfect action, but we have to do something to move us forward. And that became a way that we can bring this to national stage. It ultimately was able to accomplish that. And then on the back of that, we were able to see collective movements building across the country around policy change, around addressing policing, around allocating resources and dollars to be able to solve the issues that we're seeing. So I think that became important as part of that process. You've described the book as equal parts memoir and manifesto. What's the manifesto? Manifesto is how we actually move forward from here. I think the part that I think about in relation to that is similar looking back to 2016. There was a lot of conversation of we know the issues, but how do we actually move forward?

10:23And this becomes a space of here's how I think we should be moving forward. And some of the insights come through the stories and narrative within. But also more broadly, I think we have to be very clear and very definitive in our approaches as far as how we are going to affect change. Because thinking about it as far as the ends justifying the means, the means is important. How we get there is important. And we can't lose ourselves along the way as part of that. I think that's one of the core pieces. I think it's important for me. And I want people to be able to take away from this. I love when people take control of the narrative. And you've, I mean, people think because if people talk about you and like develop their own narrative, but you're now telling your story. And I love that you've taken your time to do it. And then people see like this big moment, but as you talk about in the book,

11:23they don't see the years that made it possible for you to be prepared for the moment. What are some one or two moments within this book or stories that you tell that made you ready for the moment that happened in 2016? There's a couple of moments that immediately come to mind. One is the story that we opened the book with where neighborhood kids tie me to a rose tree. I'm black adopted to a white family, predominantly white community. Kids that I thought were my friends throughout the neighborhood ultimately did this. And in that moment and in the moments after that was the realization of, oh, you have to navigate this by yourself. And no one is going to look out for you and protect you in this. And having that awareness and being able to navigate society in that way became really important.

12:23Not something that ideally you want to go through, but it does build a resilience in you and a skill set to be able to allow you to move forward in a different way. Now on the flip side of that, thinking about this later in my life, I mean, being with, being with my partner, Nessa, her giving me the autobiography of Malcolm X was another major turning point. And it wasn't just the autobiography itself. It's what it opened the door to. And it really was questioning everything that I was taught growing up, questioning all the narratives that have been told. Like Malcolm, the Panthers were demonized in the community where I came from. So for me, it opened the door to one validating and giving context to the experiences I had growing up, but also opening the door to a larger conversation of what are all of the other piece of literature and insight

13:25that I should be gathering and learning from that will help broaden my perspective and also better understand how to be able to move forward. The power of a woman. Did you feel like you truly knew yourself before you met Nessa? Yes, I feel like I knew myself. But the part that I didn't have is the broader context to be able to put that within. So I get a lot of questions. And this is always interesting to me. Being black adopted to a white family, growing up, predominantly white community. It's always like, well, when did you know you were black? And it's like, from the earliest days possible because even if you didn't want to acknowledge it, everybody's going to tell you. So like, that's not, that wasn't a thing for me. It was more so how do I navigate society as part of that? So that part I knew myself, or I felt like I knew myself, what I didn't have is the broader structural insights, the broader political insights

14:29to be able to put it in that context and be able to say, oh, these actually aren't one-off moments or one-off situations. There's actually a whole history and lineage that has built to this moment. And that became really important for me to be able to understand society better, be able to understand black struggle better, and then be able to think about how do we collectively move forward from that? At that same time, at your younger age, you're also becoming a sports star. So you start playing football and baseball at like what age? Organized football at eight years old. So then, once you start to excel in that, is there ever in your mind a confusion of why people love you? And what I'm saying is that I know athletes from Baton Rouge, where we are harvested, right? And they don't realize that it's their 40-time that people love and not them.

15:29You're becoming, you're a part of the community, did it ever feel like looking back on it now, that you were actually less accepted than you felt like you were as Colin and more as the quarterback? Really interesting. One of the things that my parents did, and I don't know if they intentionally knew they were doing this or setting me up for this, is they always talk to me about football being something you're passionate about, but not who I was. And laying that foundation and making that distinction, that everybody has their skill sets that they're good at, whether that's football, whether that's science, whether that's as a musician, as a teacher, or a doctor, whatever that is. But that doesn't define who you are. That's part of what you do. And for me, that gave me a good sense of,

16:29yeah, people can love me for going out, and scoring a touchdown, and helping a team win the game. But how they treat me outside of that also becomes an indicator of where I actually fit within this larger picture. And I got to see some really interesting ways. In part because my parents were white, I got to see how people interacted with me as an individual, and I got to see how they interacted with me once my parents walked in the room. So I also got to see a lot of the racism in a lot more blatant ways than I think people normally do, because I got to see it play out in real time. So that gave me a good awareness of how people engage when it came to sports, how they engage when it came to me individually, how they engage when it came to me and my parents being in the same room. I want to go back. We have, we have biracial conversations in your podcast. You're really into it.

17:30You know, you know what it's coming to you. But you talk about this in the book, and I'm wondering what was it like forming a sense of racial identity, because it's not just that you're biracial, it's that, and I hope I'm saying that right, because do you identify as biracial or just black? I said that's black. Okay, because that's the conversation we have. Just black to me. Okay, everybody. I go about whatever you want to say. Whatever you want to say, I respect you. You know, get treated as black. It's black. I'm telling you. That's whatever you want to say. It's my thing. I'm not going to tell you how you want to tell you either. Shout out to you. This will be so hot. But to me, you're just black to me. But I want to talk what that was like, because you were, as you've already stated, adopted by white parents. And so what was it like, and living in a white, majority white community? So what was it like forming your sense of racial identity? And what was it like having conversations with your parents about race? And did you have those conversations? Because I don't want to give too much about the book, but I know that when everything kind of came to a head,

18:31there were some difficult moments with your family. Yeah. I mean, it was, it's interesting to navigate it because I think you really end up, I think there's two potential pathways that become very distinct. You either own your blackness, and that's just who you are, and that's what it is, or you go all the way to assimilate. Yeah. Like, I really don't see a lot of middle ground happen within that. And for me, it was never a question of like, oh, do I become something other than myself? Blackness and being myself, which is, that's what it was. And you're, again, you're constantly reminded of this too. Like, you know it, whether you like it or not, it is imposed upon you. And I think that navigating that from a young age

19:34also gives you a resilience of as you're being pushed to assimilate, and you figure out how to navigate that. It also better prepares you from when the rest of the world tells you to assimilate. And I mean, that shows up, as you mentioned, when the protest happens in 2016, my parents had a very different response than, I would say I initially thought, would have came there, came out of that. But I also realized that they do not have the same lived experiences as me. They do not have the same context. They have not been treated the same way. And while I would hope there's a stronger level of understanding in that moment, like that, there's just a significant difference there from perspectives in how we view things.

20:36As far as the conversation is growing up, my parents were always very clear that I was a young black boy. They gave me a sense of where they thought I was from in Africa to the best of their knowledge. From the book. But there's also the reality of how you dress, how I have my hair, what I'm listening to, who my friends are, that all become things that are part of the question of, well, this isn't how we've done things. And this isn't what we think is best. And there's a lot of friction that comes along with that that you have to navigate. In the last 10 years, how has that, has there, I guess, perception or their mentality changed with everything that you've been through the last 10 years? Because I could understand how they have those conversations about you and you're their son and it's particular to you. But then in the grand scheme of things, there might not be the same understanding, because there's not the same connection or lived experience.

21:37So in the last 10 years with everything that you've gone through, now having your own child too, has their perception changed or their perspective, I should say change? I believe it has. Based upon some of the conversations that we've had. And it's, I mean, it's something that you're constantly navigating. Like to me, there's an awareness around it. And I'm conscious of that. That's going to be something that I'm always going to be navigating. It's also something that now being a father, seen in that seat, is preparing my daughter to be able to navigate that. Which is interesting to think about as her being four years old now. But it is, it's something that you have a significant awareness around. But to your question, I do think perceptions have changed there. And I hope they continue to grow and evolve. Being that you have to have those conversations with your parents.

22:39How do you feel about the broader notion of having those conversations in society? A lot of times we get siloed off. We talk about who we should be talking to, how we should be talking to them. Whether or not those conversations are useful with people that we either disagree with, or people who hold opinions that are like, at cross purposes with our humanity. Do you believe that we should engage in those conversations across the aisle with your neighbors or whatever, being that you've had to have them, sometimes within your own family group? Yeah. I think it's important to have those conversations when they're being done in good faith. I mean, we've seen play of conversations where it's... It's not done in good faith. You're not actually trying to get to a place of understanding. It's just more to have the argument or the debate. That I don't find particularly useful. But what's been interesting for me over the last 10 years is the number of people from places that I did not expect coming up and being like,

23:42you know what, originally, I hated you. I did not like you. And I was wrong. And that has surprised me because it's shown up a lot in Southern states. People just did not have a... They didn't have an understanding. They were fed information. It took conversations within the community. It took them seeing actions over the course of years to then get to a space to be like, you know what? What you told me is actually not what's happening here. And I think that's important. I do think it takes time. It takes a level of patience as far as that process. People may not get as quickly as we want them to. But I think it's important to have those conversations. I would also say in doing so, we have to continuously push forward and push the bounds of

24:44what we can accomplish while we're trying to get some people up to speed in relation to their perspective. Last thing on this, how do you know when a conversation is in good faith? That's a really good question. Tough to decipher, but normally you can tell by how people approach the conversation. Normally they approach it with a curiosity or they approach it with, hey, I'm trying to understand this. Or I'm trying to get to this place. We're trying to accomplish this goal together. Can you tell me more about this? Those are normally the conversations that I see happening in good faith. The ones that are immediately combative and defensive, typically are the ones that I don't see happening in good faith. But I would say tough to decipher, and typically depending on who it is, if they have a background or track record,

25:46you can get a little bit of insight from that as well. Last question from me about your childhood. I love that you talked about the consistency, because we're going to get to that later on in the conversation as we've seen people go back and forth with everything. But I'm just wondering, just looking back now, is there anything you understand about your childhood because you're a father now that maybe has helped you in a certain way? I think the things that I take away from my childhood that stood out most to me, one is the moral foundation that I think my parents laid was crucial for me. Now, they laid that without the racial context. But it gave me a strong foundation to be able to operate from. We need to treat everybody with respect. We need to treat everybody equally. It doesn't matter what position you hold, or what socioeconomic status you have,

26:48that shouldn't change how I engage with you. That became a strong foundation for me to be able to move forward from. The other part was looking back, knowing the things that I had to navigate is also making sure that my daughter feels comfortable being able to come to us at any point in time. And being able to say, I'm actually trying to get through this. I'm trying to figure this out. I want to be the first call that she makes. And how do I lay the foundation where she trusts me with those conversations? So we can help her navigate it. The other part that I think about is, within that, also creating space where she has to be independent, and has to be able to navigate things, and go out and fail. And there's spaces growing up that I knew I was navigating things by myself.

27:52I had to go fail at some of them. I had to figure it out, learn the lessons. You carry some of the scar tissue with you. But that allows you to understand how to handle it the next time, and actually how to be able to learn and grow. And I think if you're coddled, and those situations are avoided, you actually miss opportunities to grow and develop in a way that is really beneficial. So trying to find those moments and balance within that as well. I want to, we're going to get into a little bit of the football stuff here, as far as it relates to your NFL career and what, because in the book, and what that meant, in the book, you get deep into not just football on the field, what it meant to be a teammate, what it meant to be the quarterback, and then some stuff with what it means to be a business thing, like how agents talk around you and talk to people and not to you. All that's in the book. I want to pick up on something you said earlier though. You said that your parents were able to establish inside of you that football was not your identity.

28:54However, throughout your struggle with the NFL, it seemed like a large portion of who you were, maybe not who you were, but you really, really wanted to run back out on that field. So how do you square those two things? What was it about returning to the NFL if it wasn't your entire identity that animated you so much? Well, I don't think your career should be able to be taken away from you because you want a better future for people. Like, just, I agree. But it brings up. To me, it brings up larger labor conversations, along with the political ones. But for me, I spent 20 plus years in my life building to a career that had gone out and became one of the best in the world at. And because I went out and took a position to try to just foundationally

29:56how police stop killing black people. It was like, you don't get to play anymore. And are we okay with that as a society? And for me, it's not just about going out and chasing a passion and being back on the football field. It's also what message is being sent to us collectively as a community. If that happens and I pack it up and I quit and I'm like, oh, you know what, y'all, they got us. It happened again. What is the ripple effect of that? What message does that send to the next person that wants to fight for our community? That's a message I'm not okay with and I'll fight against every day I have. The other part I think about in relation to it is if the NFL is truly a meritocracy and if you are truly who you claim to be, then there's no reason I shouldn't be on the field.

31:02Pete Carolis put, said publicly, I'm a starter. John Harvall wanted to bring me in. Other coaches, other GMs have said the same. So it's never been about my ability to be able to play football. It's been about the political position of creating a better future for Black folks and for society more broadly. And I think it also speaks to collective power that players have. And the realization of that power is a threat to NFL owners and the institution. But more broadly stepping on the field, I think you should be able to pursue your dreams and your passions and also making sure that you're laying the foundation for other people to be able to do that as well. So this is the thing I've talked about on the podcast and I don't know if you've heard it or not. So I'm so excited to get to ask you this question. And you just laid that out beautifully and I totally understand it.

32:05What I've been questioning and maybe some of the listeners too is an understanding of why you'd want to be a part of this league that you've rightfully called out, brought to the attention of fans and maybe non-fans of just what the NFL is about. Obviously the collusion, the way that they treat Black players, the way that there's this facade of, oh, we're about this. And the reality, not necessarily because of what happened to you. And we see that later with the way that they approach George Floyd and you talk about that in your book as well. So my question has always been a lack of understanding of why you would even want to play again in a league. How could you trust the players? I mean, not players. How could you trust the owners? How could you trust the system? How could you trust just the league in general? Yes, I would love for you to answer that question. Yeah. To me, I think of it pretty simply. I think of it similar to the context that we put the conversation of the US and what I heard from a lot of right wing and mega folks, which is,

33:15well, if you're going to critique America, why don't you leave? Why do you want to be a part of it? And the conversation around the NFL has largely been the same. You're going to critique the NFL. If you're going to say it's racist, if you're going to say you don't trust the owners, well, why don't you leave? I don't think we should be in a space where we run from those fights. Otherwise, we just allow it to continue to exist as it is. And I don't trust the owners. That's, I think that's very clear at this point. I don't trust Roger Gidell, but they're the ones that are running the organizations. I reserve the right to be able to critique them and call them out for the things that they're doing while also trying to pursue a career that been able to build over 20 plus years. I think both of those things can exist. I don't have to like everything that happens within an organization to be able to be a part of it and also try to help move it forward.

34:19I think similarly where we have plenty of critiques of the US, we're going to call out the injustices that we see, but we're still a part of it. So I look at those as very similar situations. So is it more symbolic for you to be able to play or keep trying to want to play, or is it really about the game and the love and you wanting to play? I guess the second part of that is what does it, I guess like, and I guess we all do this being a part of corporations in America, which is what you kind of said, but are you subjecting yourself, because you've called out that the NFL is being, you know, like it's a form of slavery, I'm paraphrasing, but you know, you said that before. What does it mean to subject yourself to that again? Yeah, so the areas that we've called out specifically within NFL were the combined and comparing that to slave auction blocks. A lot of parallels similarities within that. I'm also not the first person to be able to call that out. I mean, Bill Rodin has a whole book, $40 million slave.

35:20You can't watch it. You can't watch the combined. Yeah, for sure. Yeah, absolutely. So I'll also say just looking historically, Kurt Flood talked about this when he was fighting for free agency for players, because previously players were not able to switch teams. Once you were drafted, you were with that team forever. They owned your rights forever. And the critique was very similar. Hey, you're well paid. You're in a good position. Why are you comparing the institution to slavery and his response was something along lines of well paid slave is still a slave nonetheless. So I think that's one piece of it on the part of wanting to play. I think this has been one of the more nefarious narratives out there that has been intentionally planted. Do you actually want to play football still? I wouldn't wake up at 430 every day and train if I didn't want to play. When the NFL put together their workout in 2019, I went to been ready to go out there and perform at the level I did if I didn't want to play.

36:30When I was able to get a workout with the Raiders in 2022, I went to been able to go out there and perform the way I did if I didn't want to play. So it's not something that's performative. It's not something that's symbolic. It's something that I've prepared for and continued to prepare for for the last 10 years. I think that's important to clarify. The other part that thinks important to clarify is people have also seen this narrative out there of, oh, we've been offered different roles in different positions. There's demonstrably false. I've never been offered a position of any sort within the NFL to play quarterback. So now as a starter, now as a backup, now as a third stringer, now as a practice squad player. And we have opened the door to all of those just to be able to prove, yeah, I'll take any position because once you step on the field, players know, fans know who can play and who can.

37:35And we've made that very clear, but that's also been a narrative that's been put out there consistently is, oh, you've had offers you've rejected and also, well, you wanted a specific position or you don't actually want to play. All of those are false. What are the other things that have been said about you? I mean, I don't want you to give away everything that's important because there's things that you put. At this point, what hasn't been said? No, the book doesn't have a lot that hasn't been said to be very honest. I mean, there's a lot because I really want people to read it. Yeah, you know, I'm not going to get into the whole, like frustration, like aspect of this of like people saying things that you know aren't true, but like whatever. But I covered the story. Actually, it's important for me to say that I covered the story like while it was happening in real time. And I know that like other people like Howard Bryan and a lot of people, they feel like people misremember things and it's not fair sometimes for like us to be like, oh, you guys will know what you were like when you were, when it was part of your job to like cover the actual story. Yeah, but having said that, what are some of the more insidious mischreos that you feel like exist beyond the whole Colin Kaepernick doesn't want to play narrative?

38:43Is there another one that continuously gets repeated that jumps out at you as that's not true in a impuse my character? There's a few different ones. One that was a little bit laughable early on was like, oh, we can't play because he's vegan. That was... You lost some weight though. I lost some weight because I had three surgeries. Right, right, right. I had a labor surgery. I'm a left shoulder. I had a UCL surgery on my right thumb. I had a meniscus scope going into the 2016 season. So you lose weight. You have muscle atrophy on the back of it. Also having three separate surgeries. I couldn't really train anything. I was just re-haven everything. So that was one component of it. The other that I think is in John Lynch from the GM for the 49ers now actually later came out and apologized for this.

39:46After the 2016 season, Kyle Shanahan, John Lynch came into the 49ers organization. They were new hires. And they said, we're going to cut you. We're going in a different direction with the offense, which the validity of that will put to the side for this conversation. We'll accept that at base value. But they said they were going to cut me. They're like, where are they going to cut you after the league year starts before your contract is guaranteed for the following year? Or you can opt out now. Now, two factors of this. One, I opt out of my contract to be able to give myself the best opportunity to go out and get another job with a team. So I can be able to do that before free agency started, before other teams found quarterbacks to be able to fill their roles. So I wanted to give myself the best opportunity there. I also realized they were doing that so they didn't have to make that decision and have that be part of their narrative of, oh, we cut him.

40:54Which is to use their own. But John Lynch later came out and apologized for not clarifying that that they were going to cut me anyways. And that became a different narrative of, oh, I didn't want to play for the 49ers. Ties into some of the larger narrative of, oh, you didn't want to play. Another one that was out there, pretty significantly, was, oh, you're bad for business. That's why we're not going to bring you to a team. And that was just proven false. After the protest, my jersey went to number one, not something that I thought about or was prepared for, but just speaks to the reality of how fans and consumers of football were responding. We also saw this with the Dream Crazy campaign with Nike. They did the campaign, had direct support for me, as well as other athletes that were trying to do work in the community.

41:56And their valuation jumped by $6 billion. So I think in relation to the bad for business conversation, that was also very disingenuous. Those are just a couple. There's a lit knee of others within there. So what was it that made the owners collude against you? So it was had to be, if it wasn't financial, then it was cultural and political. Yes, and power. Time to the political. Same more. So the part that I think people need to understand is the NFL is approximately 70% black. Within the NFL players do not have guaranteed contracts. But if players organized, they would have guaranteed contracts one weekend of football. Also, players collectively realizing their power being 70% of the organization.

42:57The influence and control they could have over any outcome that they actually wanted. There's nothing the owners could really do. You are the product for the owners. Without you, they don't have anything. So whether it is, hey, we're going to make you do things to be able to address police brutality. We want to do things to be able to address mass incarceration. We want guaranteed contracts. We want better health benefits. We want you to show up in any number of ways. The players have control and the power to be able to do that. They haven't realized it to this point. And I think that became the threat of if players understand that and they understand the influence they have, well, then what does that mean for us in our ability to be able to control the bottom line and be able to control the organization and business in the way that we want to?

43:57So then what is the NFLPA doing? Not much. Yeah, yeah. Somebody's listening like, well, it's a bad NFLPA that's like run by the players and it's all supposed to be this. We come together and we demand things that are for our betterment. What is the purpose? From my experience in what I've seen, the NFLPA largely becomes a feeder system into the NFL. It is a stepping stone there. So much so. The NFLPA who is supposed to be protecting the players. I've had multiple engagements with them, one around my surgeries because I was lied to about my surgeries. By who? By the 49ers. Okay. Was told my three surgeries were contusions. Went out, got MRIs, got a second opinion. I had tears in all three of them.

44:57The NFLPA was like, nah, there's nothing we can do for you. When I was being blackballed by the NFL, I went out and hired outside representation because of my understanding of the NFLPA. The NFLPA's position initially was, oh, we don't think there's actually collusion here. So like, there's not much we can do for you. As we went through litigation process and they saw the discovery that we got. They saw the depositions that we were getting. Then it became, oh, well, we want to be a part of it. So if things turn out well, we can claim victory. We asked them to be able to come back to us with a plan to be able to support. They said, oh, we'll have that to you in the next 24 hours. We still have not received that plan to this day. From the NFLPA.

45:57From the NFLPA. So, I'll get the NFLPA is not effective in any means. I'll also tie this specifically to my brother Eric Reed and some of the work that he did. During 2020, the NFL tried to push through a new collective bargaining agreement. As part of that agreement, they were stripping retired players of their health benefits. If not for Eric Reed going out and bringing this issue to light within the CBA or within the NFLPA and going out and interviewing family members of players that were supporting and taking care of those players and finding to get that put back into the CBA, those players will have lost their health benefits. But the NFLPA didn't bat a eye at it until Eric brought it to the forefront. So when I think about protecting players and their role, I view them as largely ineffective.

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49:20Visit ADT.com to learn more. Let's come back to the settlement real quick, because that's another thing that people bring up a lot. So you talked about the way the players could organize their powers and change stuff. I remember being on TMZ when the settlement was released, because I thought the settlement was that instrument. I thought the collusion case, I thought that was that instrument. I thought the collusion case was, okay, you prove collusion. You break the CBA, put everything back to zero. And then the players now have this strong position by which to move the NFL around. And so when, because I'm on TMZ and I'm going hard, it's cap, cap, cap, cap. And then when this happens, like they go, cap settle with the NFL and Harvey goes, van. And I'm like, yo, what? Like I thought I had to go in there and be like, yo, man, I don't agree with this in the whole nine. For people who still feel that way. Yeah. And there are still people who feel that way, because there are still narratives being pushed.

50:23And we're not mentioning certain names in this entire interview. But I'm not even fucking feel like it. You can't, if you want, like you know, you can't, that's on. But I'm not, I don't even fucking feel like it. But for people that either have that misconception, that misconception, then, or going to hear what you just said about the power, there will be people that listen to this and go, well, you had the power to destroy the CBA and bring the NFL to its knees by continuing with that case, seeing it all the way through and then getting a favorable verdict or judgment from the judge or the legal system. Explain that to people as far as what's said about the case and the settlement and what really happened. Yeah. So, I'll say going through the litigation process was a learning process for me as well. Going into it, I didn't think we would be able to dismantle the CBA as part of it.

51:25But I did think all of the documentation would be able to be exposed and revealed. Okay. So you thought that there would be the, you thought for sure that these depositions would come out. The depositions, the discovery, all of that. All of that, which I was like, just released, released that to everyone. And like, it's a wrap for y'all. The part that I didn't understand going into the grievance process was within the collective bargaining agreement, as soon as you file agreements, which is the legal process you go through, that's essentially litigation under the CBA. As soon as you file a grievance, everything is bound by the CBA rules within that array. You have to go to arbitration and you go to their special arbitrator. Everything is confidential from the start. So when you sign your employment contract, there's confidentiality.

52:26When you go to the grievance process, there's confidentiality. And all of that is laid out in advance before I ever filed anything. I now fully understand that process going in because I thought we would be able to expose more. Now, through that process, we had a lot of successes that ultimately led to the settlement. But there are also a few factors that played out that made us not continue to move forward. Part of that is the structure of the grievance process. So you have a special arbitrator. I think I might have a slightly different name than that, but especially a special arbitrator. That's agreed upon between the NFL and NFL PA. At any point in time, the NFL can terminate them though. So if they make a decision that's not favorable, they don't get their paycheck anymore and they're out. So the incentive is already laid for them to be favorable to the NFL to maintain their own position.

53:29If you clear that hurdle and you have success there, you then go to a three person special arbitration. That's the secondary level of this. Same rules for those arbitrators. So you have to go through that process. Now, the other part is in this, we thought about going the federal route. And can we try to pull this out of the jurisdiction of the CBA? On the legal side, that turns into years long battle around jurisdiction. The lawyers' recommendations were, if we do that, they're going to send it back to arbitration. Go through arbitration. You can try to bring it back out, but that's really not effective path. And then the last part is during this time period, if we look at, believe it, deflate gate ultimately went up to the Supreme Court with Tom Brady. When we're looking at potential pathways like that, this is also the moment that Kavanaugh gets put on the Supreme Court, Gorsuch gets put on the Supreme Court.

54:36So we now have a Trump loaded or Republican loaded Supreme Court. So that's six three. Those two appointees were also backed by Michael Bidwell in Arizona, one of the owners, and John L. Wei in Denver. So when you think about the alignment of Trump, the justices, and the NFL owners in NFL as an organization, it's like, well, that landscape is already set up for us to fail. And on the, for us, the opportunity is, if we go out there and we have a Supreme Court that actually isn't going to approach things in good faith and make a decision because it's loaded one way and backed one way. If that isn't successful, then what's on the other side of that? A legitimacy for the NFL to be able to take this approach forever, for them to be able to push the bounds further in relation to how they can attack players, how they can try to restrict what they can do, how they can approach litigation.

55:43And that all ultimately led us to a space of, well, here's the pathway on within the CBA for us to be able to execute settlement is typically going to be the outcome as part of that. And that's typically how the process plays out. But there are a lot of factors within that and also a lot of learning on my end in relation to what you can and can't do within the process and what you can and can expose. Did you anticipate how the announcement of the settlement would be weaponized against you? No, I didn't, I didn't think it would be positioned the way that it was on the other side of it. I also will say, I have empathy at a level of understanding because I went into the process with a different understanding of what could come out the other side. So like that's going through the process. I would have been sitting in the same seat of like, oh, man, I thought there was, there could be more from this.

56:48Now, I also want to say Eric Reed had separately filed agreements, had won that agreements. But basically there was within the arbitration process, they effectively ruled like, yeah, they did it, but like, there's nothing we can really do to hold them accountable, which was a weird insight to be able to see come from that. And Eric can speak more specifically to the details around it, but that was also something that was happening during this. So we got to see the inner workings of how things actually play out in practice versus in theory, which just made it a lot tougher landscape to be able to navigate. But I have a lot of empathy for people in like that process of, oh, I thought there's going to be more to be able to come from it.

57:50Well, I also say that doesn't restrict my ability to go out and pursue my career, so that doesn't restrict my ability to critique or talk about the NFL. And I think those became, those were important distinctions for us as part of that process as well. I mean, I'm not going to even get into the whole, oh, you, you know, you won settlement, why do you want to play because you already shut me up about that one. But and rightfully so, we're just having a conversation. I'm gonna ask you the question. I love the response from it. It makes all the sense in the world, but at the end of the day you did prove that there was collusion. So like there is a benefit of it of no, we don't get the details. No, we don't know how specifically they did it. But at the end of the day, you did something where you were able to show that they all came together and blackballed you from being able to play. Like they worked together. That was a huge deal. So it did prove something and I understand the legality of it and why you made the decisions that you did.

58:55I'm really glad that you laid that out. But I love the latter part of what you said because that's something that's come up again. And this is also a part of you controlling the narrative and speaking out. There was, there were roadblocks set up against you before where you were never going to be able to disclose certain things. And the term, NDA has been thrown out here. NDA, non-disclosure agreement versus non-despairaging agreement. You were two totally different things, which I from an outside laid out on this podcast, but you being directly impacted by it. You get it. You've already explained to us that you were never going to be able to disclose certain things because of the agreement that had been negotiated before you. But you were able to maintain the fact that you could continue to try to play. And you could speak out in ways however you wanted to. Can you speak a little bit more on that because there have been other people that are speaking trying to do that for you? Yeah. Just to make very clear in this with a non-disclosure agreement means the information that's part of that process can't be made public without both parties agreeing to it.

1:00:02That was laid as part of the CBA before we entered the grievance process. That also, they include that language as part of the settlement like that is standard practice. It doesn't change, it didn't change anything. It's just a reiteration of what it was already at, at play. Non-disperagement becomes, hey, not only is this information not able to be disclosed, but you can't speak about us in any form and fashion that is negative. I can speak about the NFL however I please. You didn't sign that. There's no non-disperagement agreement. I can say what I want about the NFL. You've probably seen some of that today already, but there's nothing that restricts me in relation to how I want to talk about the NFL, how I want to talk about positions that they've taken about them blackballing me, about them targeting other players. They have no control there.

1:01:05Did they try to get you to sign a non-disperaging agreement? Yes. And you refused. I refused. And then, dispairsly, I saw it, we covered it. It's just like, people forget. I can't. I mean, people forget. Also, people become disingenuous because they have their own motives. Also, people get confused over what an NDA is. Right. Right. Like, we'll live in good faith and I'll try not to be completely. Let me ask you this though. Do you feel like at some point the message of police brutality and systemic change was overshadowed by your beef with the NFL? Do you ever feel like it went from? We're talking about police brutality because we should say that in the book, the perilous fight, which is out on September 15th, there is a direct corollary made between the case of Mario Woods.

1:02:05And how that affected you. How so many of the things that we were seeing, so many of the marches that we were seeing, the videos and the cases surrounding black people being brutalized by the police. At the same time, really, that you were having a personal and intellectual and societal awakening about your place in culture and what you could do, that all of these things came together where you like, I have to do something. Right. And then you do that thing and it turns into something that maybe you didn't even anticipate. Throughout there, though, there's been a criticism that it became less about police brutality and systemic change and more about your fight with the NFL. You say what to that. I understand the perspective on it because I think multiple fights and battles ended up happening at the same time. First, the protest being focused on systemic oppression, specifically police brutality. That is what we were calling out. Now, there was a number of deflection tactics to try to reframe the conversation, divert it, make it about the military or the love of the US or first amendment rights.

1:03:23All of these other conversations to try to distract from police brutality. So that's one part of it. The second part is within the protest, the NFL, then targeting me and taking my career away became a second fight of, are we going to allow this to happen? And what are we going to do about it? Who's the we? We collectively as society and I think specifically as black folks. Okay. I would say for me personally, that was something I was going to fight against as well. Now, both of those are happening at the same time. We're also seeing the alignment of the NFL with the Trump administration. They're raising millions of dollars for him. Robert Kraft is flying on Air Force One. He's on the phone with Jerry Jones saying this a winning issue for me like they're organizing.

1:04:23So we're seeing that happen within the broader political sphere. Town Trump calls us out specifically at one of his rallies. Get those SOBs off the field. You're fired. And I'll ultimately being black balled on the tail end of that. So fighting for police brutality led to my blackballing against you were fighting for it. Fighting against. Like, yeah, I'm saying, yeah, what these niggas are. We were there. What these? How common caprony and I we got miss for a case. You're not going hard enough in the community. But a boot like not. Fight against police brutality. Well, it's mainly led to my blackballing. And those did run in parallel. And there were people that were advocating.

1:05:23One to be able to address police brutality, but to be able to get me back in the NFL. Now, there was also is part of that. For me personally, it was very difficult to be able to say, hey, everybody should boycott the NFL because I lost my job. I wanted everybody to do that. But that's that's different than, hey, we need to address police brutality. One is while I do think it falls in a larger political sphere of how we move collectively. That was a harder space for me to say, hey, I need everybody to do this. Even though I felt that way. So I tried to remain focused on we need to address police brutality. We need to create systemic change. We need to be doing the work directly in communities.

1:06:27You never explicitly asked for boycott of the NFL. No. No. Because I knew I knew that blurred the lines. Like that. That became a space that I knew the conversation then shifts to, well, is this actually about police brutality or is this just about your own personal game? And that's a space that is a very fine line to be able to walk. And I didn't want to cross that boundary because I didn't want to create a fog there to be able to say, like, is this actually the issue you're trying to address or is this about you? It's such it's so not interesting. It's just the realization of how we as black people have to navigate this world. You have to consider both sides of it because of the narrative, which eventually was would be turned against you. Even, and I don't want to ask this as a question because I want people to read this in the book, but even the way you handled the Nate Boyer situation.

1:07:29I remember when all that's that happened. I went to Texas. He's a longhorn. I remember the media, the way it was discussed, and then like hearing you actually speak about it now. It's like, wow, you've sat on that for so long. Why did you do it? Very similar to what you're talking about now. You know that the narrative can be, and you've seen it, changed against you or people will look at this rather than focus on what it is that you're actually saying, which honestly goes back to how you were raised and what was laid down as your foundation because you had to think about not put yourself at the center of it. You had to think of something bigger than you. Something that was talked about too, and timing is, it's crazy because I also wonder this happened 2016. Obviously you were used within, it was an election year. What happened with you and what you did was used through all of that. And to see where we are 10 years now, I actually think people would have responded differently. At least I like to hope they would have. Seeing what has happened over the last 10 years.

1:08:31How do you reconcile not voting with and your fight against police brutality, your fight for social justice? How do you reconcile not voting with where we are now and everything that has happened? Yeah, I appreciate you asking this question because I was going to say that that's another area of growth and development. I mean, at that point in time, I was one of the millions of Americans that I haven't seen this system represent us. I haven't seen things change effectively to the place that we want them to go. And it doesn't seem like anyone is willing to do anything about it within the political sphere. So why am I supporting people who aren't doing the work that actually is going to benefit us collectively? And on the other side of that is a realization of one, I don't think we had seen a candidate like Donald that's willing to maliciously and intentionally be able to target communities.

1:09:44But also just throw the rule of law in process and any type of decorum around how we engage out the window. The other part that became incredibly important for me is also understanding the influence that they have around federal judges. The influence that they have more broadly beyond just their position as president. And then also everything that sits down ballot of that and the implications of it. So for me, it was having a growing and developing a broader political understanding and the implications around that that ultimately led to a space of this person may not be my person. And I may not agree with the majority of what they're doing. But it is better than this other person who may work more directly against us.

1:10:46And while I don't like it. And I don't like it that as positioned as, you know, this is the only solution. It has to be one of the tools that we use to try to effectively. Oh, there you go. Could you say that again is crazy. The series again involved here. But I think we have to view that as a tool amongst many others that we use to be able to effectively create change. And I'm realizing the impact of how that shows up. The generational impact that can be had there. His led me to a space of, yeah, we need to participate with invoting. We need to be very selective in who we are supporting. But we also have to aggressively push them to the actual outcomes that we want to create. Like, I do this for myself all the time. And I'm going to ask you if you do it.

1:11:47Like specifically on this voting. I'm looking something and be like, I didn't know what the fuck I was talking about. But do you feel like that about the voting thing? Because I read that in the book and I actually forgot about that. And the reason why I said that, Crass is because as you're developing your world view, there had to be times where you went, you know what? I have more information. I look at this differently. This conversation, we've already talked about the fact that even going into the, we don't think 28 year old, all of this stuff is happening at the same time. You're learning all of this. You're being put in these positions, like this is new ground. Do you look back on things like that and go, there are some things to where my framework is pure, my intention is pure, but maybe the substance of what I thought wasn't quite the way that I thought that it was. Absolutely. Right. And I would say if I didn't have moments like that,

1:12:49I would look back and be like, what have you been doing? You have a grown developed evolved in any way. That would be a shame if I still held the exact same perspective and hadn't grown or developed in any way. The volume on was bad. It's not great. You know how I look back when Hillary Clinton was announced as the candidate? Like I posted this thing, like, oh my god, your turn Hillary, let's go. I would never post something like that. Like I was like, you, so like just, we were opposite. What I was like, what I'm saying is I would still probably vote the way I would vote for that candidate, but there would be so much conversation around what that vote means, what I think it means, what somebody's past means, like all kinds of different shit. I'm in a different place as well. So I sometimes look back at things that I saw and feel that same way, but I just go straight up.

1:13:50I'm gonna be honest with y'all, I didn't know the shit that I was on at that point. I had no idea what I was talking about. Yeah. And you get more insight, you get more information. I think the other part that is much as I don't like it, I've realized in the process is you don't really find perfect solutions. Yeah. You find ways that are able to be able to move forward, and hopefully you're able to create big jumps forward. But if you approach it from a space of, this is gonna be a holistic, perfect solution. It's very difficult to find spaces like that. I wanna ask you a question why I was fresh in my mind. The thing that sometimes gets me when people are talking about me, I'll just put myself in the middle of it for a second. I hate to make myself, I don't like to talk about me, it's tough.

1:14:50No, you're saying it's stage now. Right. So the thing that bothers me is not when people think that I'm wrong. I don't care about people thinking that I'm wrong. Like, I am wrong sometimes. I'm emotional, I'm reactive sometimes. But it bothers me when people think that I am insincere, that I don't mean what I'm saying, that I don't actually believe the wrong thing. Because it takes me away from being someone that can be corrected to someone that has to be defeated. And I do not wanna live in that kind of situation with community. There are some people that thought Colin Kaepernick was wrong. But then there are other people that thought Colin Kaepernick was insincere. How do you feel when people love those things? Not that when they disagree, but when they think you are the grifter or the controlled opposition or whatever. Being with everything that's happening that you've gone through.

1:15:54I mean, the first part, just to your point of being insincere or people being like, oh, you're grifting. If I'm grifting, I'm the worst grifter in history. I mean, I'm losing 150 plus million on the NFL side. That's not a winning business move. If that's the motivation. If the goal was money, I would have said nothing. I would continue playing, continue getting my check. And how many of those conversations have we had around athletes as well? Well, why aren't they saying something? Why don't they do something? I think part of it for me reflecting back is also, well, if you want athletes to say something, are you actually gonna support them when they do it? That is part of the broader conversation.

1:16:54Now, to being insincere or the conversation of people thinking that my actions are insincere or what I'm trying to do is insincere. I don't know if I can change the perspective. What I can do is lay out why I have done things, the actions that I've taken as part of that, to your point. Mario Woods was a major turning point for me, seeing Alton Sterling and Philando Castillo killed major turning points. Being able to go out and create, know your rights camp, to have direct impact in the community. That's been camps across the country. That's camps internationally. We've built an autopsy initiative to be able to support families directly for in custody deaths, whether that's police custody, whether that's incarceration, whether that's ICE detention centers, juvenile detention centers,

1:17:55where families can get free second autopsy's, so they understand how their loved one died. That gives them a pathway to legal representation. Also, there's financial barrier within that. We've done $15,000 per autopsy. So that's a piece of it. We've done a legal defense initiative to be able to protect protesters during 2020 and the protest that followed George Floyd. We had pro bono legal services that we went out and represented people. We've had a COVID relief fund. I would just say collectively look at the body of actions and work that's been done. If you still think it's insincere, like, hey, that's your opinion around it. What we say is, even if you think it's insincere, I hope you go out and do the work that needs to be done to deal with this for collectively.

1:18:57Yeah, I mean, you just laid that out perfectly. I wanted to touch on something you said before you laid out in ways that you've been sincere and stayed consistent in that. You talked about support, getting support from people. I can't even imagine the mental toll that even to this day, all of this takes on you. How you've had to be vulnerable, but strong at the same time. But support, you went from seeing people, support you on social media publicly, support you privately in conversation, support you publicly on national television, whether it's wearing your jersey, and then you also see people like then turn on that. I'm wondering what has that shift taught you about people who are actually in your corner when there's not something to gain on the table? Yeah. That's a really good question. I would say the protest and what has followed has been very revealing to me.

1:20:01I would say, immediately with the protest, I think was a very unique moment that I don't think most people get to experience, where everybody around you reveals who they are so clearly, that you have a much easier path to be able to decipher who's going to be supportive and who isn't on that journey. I've also, within that, got to see people who were initially supportive because they thought they had something to benefit from it. And as soon as there was no longer a benefit to them, then it was like, well, I'm going to shift and do something else. I'm going to make different decisions, different moves. And I think part of that goes to the conversation around keeping the focus on the goal.

1:21:03I don't know if the goal was always solely trying to address police brutality or part of that goal for people was, yeah, I'll help address this but to my own benefit and elevation. And once I get the opportunity, I'm going to run with the opportunities. And I got to see that play out as well. We used the example that you mentioned earlier. We got to see this play out with a neighbor and we go in more detail in the book. I love that. If you read the book for one thing, you need to know the truth about that story. Like that. That was one early indication of how people were going to move. And we've seen that. I've got to see that play out over the last 10 years. What I will say is it has given me such a deep appreciation for people who are doing this work every day. Often thankful, thanklessly, and continue to show up for our communities

1:22:07while people have abandoned them, while people have left them. And it's something that I hope people realize and take away is, no, you shouldn't just show up in the moment. You need to continuously show up. And it may look different in different ways depending on where your position is and where you're sitting in that moment. But you have to keep showing up if we're actually going to make progress collectively if you're actually passionate and focused on the work. So I have three questions left. I'm going to start with one. Who are some of the activists that you look out there right now who you admire? They're doing some of the work that you love. One of my favorite people out there, Kevin Livingston in New York. Kevin, we initially met in, I think 2015, 2016.

1:23:07He has an organization, Harsus for Herman, trying to address incarceration but also preparing young men coming out and getting them job placement and making sure that they're set up to be successful on the other side of that. He is someone that I've seen from the early days of the organization where people were not supporting him in the way that I thought they should have been. He's also someone who has gotten massive support, also someone who went approached with opportunities, financial opportunities, that would be counter to the mission and goal. He's turned those down and continued the work and stayed focused. So I call him out specifically, shout out to Kevin, but he's just one of many across the country that we see doing this type of work. But I think staying true on that path and also making sure,

1:24:11having awareness of the actions that you take and where you compromise and where you don't, also sends a message to everyone else around you of what we think is okay as a community. And I call him out because he has been very consistent and focused within that. I'm going to say three names right now. Besides the activist question, I'm just going to say three names. You tell me what comes in your mind. Eric Reed, Kenny Stills, Brandon Marshall. Oh, that was my brothers. So Eric Reed, I give some context around this one. Eric Reed, first person to take a knee with me, he's the person who came up with the idea of forest to take a knee. We talked about him advocating for players' rights and the medical benefits for retired players. He also continued the protests after I was blackballed.

1:25:12His last season in the NFL played for the Carolina Panthers, set two franchise records, was cut and never played again. Now, the safety that he had comparable stats to, they were one, two, that year. Signed a contract extension, four years, $60 million. Eric never saw the field again. Kenny Stills, similarly, targeted throughout the rest of his career as he took a knee, continued protesting. We saw this down in Miami where he was playing. Ultimately, affected some of the successes of his career and the trajectory of it. But his state consistent to this day in his positions, has not wavered on that, despite the personal sacrifices that came along with it. Brandon Marshall, love Brandon. Also for clarity for everybody out there.

1:26:13Brandon Marshall, linebacker for the Broncos. You linebacker for the Broncos, yeah. Not the receiver of Brandon Marshall, but shout out to that Brandon too. But Brandon Marshall was my line brother and teammate at Nevada. Also protested while he was in Denver. Had endorsement deals taken away from him, continued protesting. Just three incredibly strong people that had been resilient and consistent. The book is available September 15th. They can pre-order it now. One place that the book is not going to be available is Target. Can not pre-order there. Can not get the book there. Walk me through the decision to pull the book from being sold at Target. Because I think there's a lot of speculation around it. Is it something directly because of the boycott that's happening? Is it in response to the freestyle? Or is this something that had been in the works internally with you and your team before? Yeah. So, to your point, the book is not available with Target.

1:27:16The reason the book got pulled from Target is one someone may as it were. We knew the target boycott was going on. We haven't been shopping at Target. We haven't been doing all those things. Someone sent us, hey, your book showed up on Target. Like, why is this the case? I think they sent it to, it was either to my wife or someone on our team. I was like, oh, I didn't know that. As soon as we saw that was the case, we're like, no, we're not selling at Target. But the publisher's controlled the distribution as part of it. Unless you dive into it, you don't know every bookstore and every place that's ultimately going to be sold. So, as soon as we're aware of it, we have to pull it. We're not going to sell it there. We're not supporting Target. We're supporting the boycott of Target. We also, because I've seen this conversation come up as well with our children's books that were out there.

1:28:17Those were out well before the boycott took place. Again, those were in partnership with Scholastic. We weren't looking for where distribution was at that point, because those are out in the world. But as soon as we were made aware that those were in Target as well. When we started searching, we pulled those two. I think to me, the most important point is you may not be aware of everything that's happening at any given moment. But as soon as you're aware of it and have the information, then what do you do? And to me, that becomes important that the boycott is going on is continuing. Yes, will this have financial implications on the sale of the book? Yes. But that's not the most important part here. We are collectively trying to send a message, not just the target, but to be able to send that to corporate America. If you don't support the interests of the people, we're not going to support you.

1:29:17That's going to hurt your bottom line. And within the corporate realm, the best action that you can take, or the most impactful one that they typically respond to, is boycotts. They have fiduciary responsibility. They are trying to maximize profit. If you pull their profit away, they have to take different actions. That's why boycotts are so effective. And I think for us collectively, we have to understand that and also be resilient in it and say, no, we're going to continue this until we achieve the goals and objectives that we've set out for. Last one. Are you at peace? I think different variations of that. At peace with the decisions I've made and the approaches I've taken. Yes. At peace with the outcomes? No. Ultimately, I want to be back on the field.

1:30:19Ultimately, I want to see it and to police brutality and to mass incarceration. There's still a ton of work to be doing there. Also, since the protests, police budgets have continued to bloat. Police killings have continued to rise. So there's still significant work that has to be done. So while in that peace with decisions that have been made and looking forward to how do we continue to build and improve. And to be being at peace with the outcomes, no, there's still way more to do. Last question for me. When a young football player, a young athlete comes up to you and tells you they have dreams about playing in the league. What do you say to them? It depends what their framework is. And I think they should chase their dream and passion and take it as far as they can. I think they should also be aware of what that entails.

1:31:21Well, I'll actually give a specific example here because I had a similar question like this actually come from a high school kid. We had our Know Your Rights camp in Las Vegas. And in between our sessions, at a young man pulled me to the side and he was like, hey, I got to ask you something. He was like, no, I love playing football and I want to go to college and ultimately play professionally. I want to do that. No, I also love and want to fight for my community. Which one do you think I should choose? And to me, that created a very clear reality of the message that's been sent. And ultimately, my response today is, but you don't have to choose. And you shouldn't have to choose. You can do both of those at the same time. This episode is brought to you by Whole Foods Market. Now, this is a player in the food space that is championed winning food standards and quality since 1980.

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1:33:24He is able to chase his passions and be great at it while also making sure that he's taking care of and fighting for the people around him to be able to have a better life as well. The book is the perilous fight. It comes out September 15th. Colin Kaepernick. Thank you, man. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for coming.