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The 3/18/2026 edition of Dr. Andy's Poetry and Technology Hour:
Dave Boles has worked as an Alternative Publisher, Writer and Designer since 1982. Founder of the magazine Primal Urge, he also created The Sacramento Free Press and Cruisin' Magazine. He has published, designed, edited and written numerous books, magazines and articles both nationally and internationally. His publishing company, Cold River Press, has helped many new writers, artists, poets, illustrators and photographers further their careers.
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calendar. It's the 18th of March. Technically, it's still winter but not here in
Davis. High of 88 degrees today. Traffic and weather at the top of the hour.
Traffic very pleasant walk on the way to the radio station from South Davis
today. Welcome to Dr. Andy's poetry and technology hour. Here on this radio
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UC Davis. How long have I been teaching here 36 years? That's too many years
Dr. Andy. You don't sound old enough to have been teaching for 36 years at the
same university. How many presidents is that? It would take me a while to count and
you don't want to hear it. So let's move on to poetry and technology. Dave
Bowles will be my first guest on the radio show. Dave Bowles has worked as a
publisher, a writer and a designer. He's got a new book of poetry just published
at the end of last year titled fourth floor paranoia depression and other
states of mind. He'll be the featured reader tomorrow evening at Poetry Night
Reading Series. That happens every first and third Thursday at the John
Netsulis Gallery. 521 First Street here in the city of Davis details at Poetry
and Davis.com. You can see a picture of Dave Bowles. His beard is longer than
mine. He's wearing an excellent top hat. Let's bring back the top hat, shall we?
We'll hear more about Dave in a moment. In the second half of the show, I'll be
sharing an original essay titled What the Dead Wanted for in the Morning.
Recently published on Eager Mondays. It's the name of my substack. You can find it
at AndyJones.substack.com. That's a free service. We'll also have some recorded
poetry in the second half of the program. Both my son and daughter are picking me
up at six o'clock. We're heading over to our favorite Second Street restaurant to
enjoy an outdoor meal together. High eighties in mid-March. Welcome to climate
change. My name is Dr. Andy. We'll be back in a moment with the poetry and some
conversation with Dave Bowles here on Dr. Andy's poetry and technology hour.
Stick around.
Welcome back, everyone. To Dr. Andy's poetry and technology hour on KDVS 90.3FM,
Davis. Dave Bowles is my first guest on the radio show and we're happy to have him back.
Dave Bowles has worked as a publisher, a writer and a designer since 1982. He has
founded the Alternative Literary and Visual Magazine Primal Urge. He created Cold River Press
in the early 1990s to promote regional writers and artists. He's published, designed, edited,
and written numerous books, magazines, articles, and periodicals, including the successful yearly
anthology voices. One of my favorites. We have a number of copies from over the years
in my home. His publications, editorials, writing, graphic design, and artwork of one numerous
awards. And he has published such writers as D.R. Wagner, A.D. Winons, Charles Plymail,
S.A. Griffin, Ben Hyatt, Allegra Silverstein, Tim Call, Susan Kelly-Tewitt, and many others.
His brand new book of poetry, published late last year, is titled Fourth Floor, Paranoia
Depression, and Other States of Mind. He'll be our featured poet tomorrow evening, the 19th
of March at the Poetry Night Reading Series, 521 First Street. That is the Jonathan Zulus Gallery
here in the City of Davis. All are welcome to this event. Dave Bowles, welcome back to Dr. Andy's
Poetry and Technology Hour. Thank you, Dr. Andy. Great to have you here. And congratulations on your
new book, Fourth Floor, Paranoia Depression, and Other States of Mind. One would immediately wonder,
are there other books referring to the first, second, and third floor, or did this title emerge
perhaps from a line from one of the poems found therein? No, actually the title emerged of,
it's crazy as it is, when I worked at Napa State as a psychiatric nurse, I wrote most of these
poems during that time frame in the early to mid 80s. It wasn't until I moved to Sacramento,
and then I went with my then wife to a custody hearing with her ex-husband in the old Sacramento
courthouse downtown. And of course, you know, with custody hearings and family court, it's a very,
very nasty place to be. Right. And it was on the Fourth Floor. And so the imagery, the trauma,
the unpleasant experiences, and perhaps the echoes of your time working as a psychiatric nurse.
They all came together in your latest book, Fourth Floor Paranoia Depression and Other States of Mind.
Yeah, I had collected all the writing, and I just could not come up with any type of a title until
I hit that fourth floor. And it was, it was a jolt. I mean, really, it was a jolt. I got into the
elevator and said, what floor? And everybody says fourth. And just boom, clicked.
There you go. So, interesting that you were able to like reach into the archive,
to publish this new book, I wonder if you could characterize the differences in your writing habits
and your writing output of when you compare the mid and early 80s to the, let's say, mid 2020s.
Well, I did. It was, most of this book is reflecting on patients I worked with. It's mixed in
with some of my own experiences here and there. As I went further into writing, I got more into
spiritual writing, researching the advanced religions or extinct religions. And then I tied that
in with political writing. And that was my biggest jump right there, where I went from documenting
the, literally, the insanity of psychiatric hospitals with the political insanity that is still
with us today. And so, and with regard to your own writing habits, do you set aside time
in the morning? Do you wait for inspiration? Do you continue to work like as a professional
wood or you're seeking to have a certain number of hours every day behind the desk? How does that
creativity manifest itself for you these days? Well, I've tried all the different ways you just
mentioned. They all have equal pluses and minuses to it. I am not a tremendously structured
individual. So, if you tell me I have to sit somewhere, the first thing I'm going to do is stand.
And that, that's just me. So, I have found something enters into my brain. It could be a word.
It could be an image. It could be a scent that I smell in the air. And it just triggers.
Go right. And as I'm writing the poem, then I refine it. That's grown from that stage to just
get it out and worry about editing later. And that's that's served pretty well for me.
That's great. And so, and from our previous conversations, I know that you're always reading as well,
reading submissions, reading favorite authors, keeping abreast of what's going on in the political
world. And I'm sure that all that input probably shapes your process or offers
inadvertent influences as well in what you produce.
It does. In the 80s, I discovered Jung and Synchronicity and causality and zeitgeist and all that
wonderful stuff. And I really went in depth and exploring that. That's why I started primal
urge. Primal urge had no theme. I just let it happen. In some ways, I still do that with voices.
There are no real strict rules with voices. I do throw out a theme each year. This year's
theme is, I forgot what it is already. This year's theme is skyscrapers, dolphins, and evolution.
But, you know, if somebody sends me a really good poem or a piece of fiction, I'm not going to
turn it down. That has sustained me in my life with whatever I'm doing. And I just look for clues
at the University saying, read this book or reread this book. Look at this author. It's really kind
of fascinating to me. Absolutely. Dave Bolz is my guest today on Dr. Andy's poetry and technology
hour. He is the founder of primal urge and cold river press. At some point, Dave, you said, well,
I'm enjoying doing all of this writing that I'm doing, including for other people's magazines,
books, anthologies, et cetera. When did you know that you wanted to found your own press,
which became Cold River Press? My first press was actually Neural Impulse Publications.
And that's what I developed in 1982. And I kind of did it. I hate to use the word hottie press,
but I mean, that's kind of what it was. I was going to school, working on two different
advanced degrees. And just I didn't have time to focus on it. When I got into the late 80s,
89 and 90, I changed Neural Impulse Publications to cold river press. I bought a house out in
Rancho Cordova right on the river. And I don't know if you ever know, it ends the American river.
I have many times. And that's a cold river. Very cold river. And it kind of reminded me of when I
first moved up here from LA in 72, I jumped off the rainbow bridge in Folsom. That's what all the
high school kids did. Right. And the first time I hit that water, as I hold my God, that's a cold
river. It always stuck with me. So from that point on, I had corporate clients. I was working for
higher. You know, I had long ago given up awards and certificates. I needed money so I could
feed my family. Right. And that was cold river press because nobody understood what Neural Impulse
Publications meant. And cold river, it's an homage to the part of Northern California,
where we live. And then the bracing images as well, that we find in many of the poems in
the publishing. It's more than that, though. And Andy, I don't need to interrupt you, but I want to
get this out. Sure. So I started with the Macintosh Revolution in 84. I worked very, very diligently
with electronic publishing. I helped create a lot of things back in the day and was really looking
forward to moving into the electronic age. So cold river press also is the electronic format.
And long before we have what we have now, there was nothing. You know, my first magazine primal
urge was done on an Osborne computer and transformed through word star into Apple Plus.
And that's how I printed out my type setting. So it was the cold river of electronic data
that I was getting into. And then I got heavily into illustrating with Photoshop and all the other
wonderful things that are out there. And this was all back in the early 90s when it was still
basically just a baby. Absolutely. Dave Bulls is my guest. I think people at home, Dave, are hoping
to hear some examples of your work. Perhaps a poem from fourth floor Paranoia Depression and
other states of mind. Do you have something there you can share with listeners? Sure. This is an
older poem. This is kind of fun. This will give you a date of it. The title of the poem is called
Pop Tarts in Reagan. So Ronnie was in power at the time. Pop Tarts in Reagan. I dropped the
Pop Tart right on top of the cat. Dog didn't seem to mind. Grabbed a corner and fled. Cat chased
after him wanting the whole Pop Tart, the whole in Chalada, so to speak. Reagan speaks to me from
the grave. Reminds me there are eight Pop Tarts to a box. Enough for the dog, the cat, and Ronnie too.
I pour myself another cup of coffee. It's going to be a long day.
There you go. I'm wondering as you reread these poems out loud that you wrote so many decades ago,
what are your feelings about the voice? Do you ever miss the place that you were? Do you feel
that you had wisdom then that you don't have now or vice versa? What are your thoughts about
the voice that emerges in which was guiding these poems more than 40 years ago?
That's a great question. I used to be egotistical enough back then to think that I had a voice,
which of course I don't. In rereading this, it was very difficult to not edit completely.
That was rough. I would have rewritten quite a bit of this now, but that's not when I wrote them.
I wrote them then. With all my publishing, I'm documenting history. So change something down the
road. Again, I don't want the zeitgeist in the time to influence what I wrote back in the 80s
by rewriting it now. So I would say in looking through it, I can visualize the people that I write
about. I can visualize the times that I was going through. That to me is very magical.
It holds true like poppots and Reagan. It's such a silly poem, but if you dissect it,
there's a lot going on there. That's really what I'm after is getting that out there.
That's all the people I publish, that's why I do it. So they can look back in time and look at
this book and say, I did this back then. Absolutely. Well, let's talk a little bit about all the people
that you've published. I mentioned some of the names earlier on. I'm wondering with regard to
Cold River Press, how do you decide which poets, which manuscripts are ready for you to shepherd
into print? Well, no manuscript is ready to tell you the truth, my experience. Even working
with long, long time authors, and they change as it goes along, the flow of the book changes,
and that to me is wonderful. It's a great experience where we're actually putting something out
that it's going to be stored in the Library of Congress. All the work that I publish is cataloged
and stored. So now we're going to do it. We're at the final stage. And that really clarifies
in a lot of people's mind. What I've seen over the years, and it's a little under the
stressing side, to me, tell you the truth, from a small publisher, is people have gone from,
well, for instance, in the 80s, we would print 500 copies because that's what you get
in paper. I don't need paper. I mean, maybe if you used half of that, 250. But most of you were putting
Dave, your sound is cutting out a little bit. I'm not sure if it's your cell or your phone,
but last sentence or two was car blows. Can you hear me now? Now I can hear you.
Yeah. I happen to move. I live up here in the hills. We have terrible reception.
Most of what I see now is people wanting 20 or 30 copies of something. And, you know,
I try to accommodate people for a long time by doing that. And I just simply don't do it anymore.
You know, you either print 100 copies or more, or you do the book with somebody else.
Is it that people are insufficiently ambitious with regard to their own work, marketing their work,
or valuing their work? Very much so. The older poets, people have been around for a while. No,
you've got to go out and sell. I just got through releasing Chris O'lander's book. Chris is a
wonderful poet. Been around for a long, long time. Work with California poets in the school.
Very well known. And he knows that, you know, if you go out here on Facebook and Instagram,
and you say, hey, I got a book by it. Nobody's going to buy it. You need to go out and read. And
then people buy the book. Right. And it's always been that way. Nothing new. You know,
Zoom readings came up, especially during the time of COVID. And that's wonderful stuff for
technology. But, you know, nobody buys books because it's Zoom. And, you know, to me, as a publisher,
I want to sell books to get it out there. Because, you never know when you're looking at your book
shelves and you see a title, I haven't visited that in a while, and you pull it out. I guess you
could do the same thing on a computer. But I'd rather just see it and feel it and open up that book
and say, oh, this is a very fine book, you know, glad I re-read it again. I just don't get that
with computers. Yeah, I think you're right. And I think part of it, as you were suggesting before,
is the idea of the experience of spending time with the poet, hearing the context, hearing
and remembering the poet's words, like supporting the poet, supporting the press, but also really
valuing the rare experience of the poetry reading. And to kind of embrace that opportunity to
commodify the experience and the memories. And then, as you say, to return to it on your own time,
I've read a number of books that have come out of Cold River Press, and I agree with you that
they reward re-reading. And often we need that kind of physical reminder on the shelf to return to
books that were worth our time, the first time around, and continue to be so. As Rapun said that
poetry is news that stays news. And part of what he meant is that you can be rewarded over and
over again from returning to great poems. Absolutely. You know, to me with the internet and with,
well, I see what a lot of people do with the 20 or 30 books. You know, they're looking for the
thing. I got it. I published it. I did this. Well, okay, I get that. But, you know, what's going to go
after the 20 or 30 books? Where's it go? Right. No, it's gone. And so, you know, we have a little
faith in yourself and go out there and hustle and sell. And the next thing, of course, with people
say, well, no, it's money. I always chuckle at that because, you know, somebody asked me once in
an interview, you know, how much money have I spent on publishing since I started? And I chuckle
because I never, I'm not that dumb. I would never take the time to figure out how much money I've
absolutely thrown out the window of the published poets. Right. That's not what I did it.
If you're doing this for money, well, you're in the wrong gig.
All right. So, Dave Balls, tell us about voices. And this is something that others can participate in.
Oh, yeah. Yeah. Voices, voices came across with a sacrament of voices. That's the history of it.
A dear friend, Philip LaRia, had a series at Sack poetry center called sacrament of Voices.
He had come to me after I started my reading series down in Sacramento, 2011, I believe it was,
called poetry with legs. This came at a time where I would return to Sacramento back in 2010.
I was disabled in an accident. And so I had to come back here to recuperate my life back
together. And I decided, well, I might as well publish again locally. Philip had a great concept going
with sacrament of poetry center. And he came to me and said, I want to do an anthology.
At the time, I was doing a magazine called Primalurge still. And I was really looking to do an anthology
myself. So we hooked it up. He said, I'll bring you the people. I don't know how to do anthologies.
Well, I do. Right. So let's join me together. And we did Sacramento voices for a few years before
Philip decided, well, I'm going to retire. And sadly, since he retired, he passed on in a very
tragic accident. And that left me, what do I do with sacrament of Voices? So at the time,
I was reaching out overseas back east. I was being contacted by a number of poets around the world.
And I thought, let's just get rid of sacrament of Voices and colored Voices. And that's what I did.
That's now, yeah, that's, that's, and I get from all over, people send me stuff. It's really kind of cool.
So you've been discovered by a local regional national poets and also poets outside the United
States. So you get to hear many more voices than you then you did before. And I'm sure that
this has helped you think about how to revision Voices because originally, a Sacramento Voices,
you were kind of offering a microphone to the poetry community. But now it seems like you've
got an even more ambitious project that you're shepherding. Yeah, it's really changed over the
years. It's been a very wild ride. I would never have thought this was going to happen, but it did.
For instance, I had a couple of very highly noted Chinese mystical poets. And I published them
in Voices. I gave them a lot of room, especially one in particular. And then they told me I would
send them 10 or 20 copies of Voices. And then China wouldn't allow that anymore. Oh, really?
I, yeah, I'd done. That was the end of that. And so about three years ago, I guess that started
when it was right after, I'm sorry, a little bit more four years. And then no more. They would not
allow it. They got sent back to me. I lost contact. They had last message from one who taught it
one of the universities was I cannot communicate anymore. And that was that was it. And then with
the price of shipping, the hard copies, which were just extraordinarily expensive, ridiculously so.
There's parts of Canada where to ship one of my apologies, it costs 45 dollars. It's ridiculous.
So I developed PDFs and I send out the PDFs for free. I encourage people, please send this to as
many people as you possibly can. I unlock the thing. They can print it. They can read it. They can
share it. And then I still offer hard copies as well if people can purchase. So that's kept
going internationally. But it really is kind of interesting to see the ups and downs that we've
all gone through. Especially since COVID. Absolutely. So am I could you remind folks by when should they
submit some pieces for consideration for the 2026 voices and what what genres I think primarily
of poetry with your work. But I know that one year my wife wrote a series of travel essays
that you published in voices. And so there are times when you diverge from strictly poetry.
Yeah, I do that quite a bit. Those were excellent. That was excellent thing that she did. How
could you not publish it? And I go back to when I was in the Sac City reading things in a poetry class
that wasn't deemed good enough to go into the local little literally thing they were doing at
Sac City. And I was floored. You know, I mean, my God, this is this is really good writing. This is
beautiful. And I still get that today. I get photographs. I get art. I just got I just was sent
a six photos that a lady took that are beautiful of skyscrapers. I would never have thought to do
that. And she did it while they were in different stages of construction. These things are gorgeous.
Right. Yeah, I got to publish that. How can I not? You know, I'm sure other people would enjoy it.
And so that's, you know, I have a loose theme every year. This year's theme is skyscrapers, dolphins
and evolution. People ask me, you know, what does that mean? Well, think about it. You know,
man has come out of caves to build skyscrapers. Right. We've evolved.
You know, and on the cover, I've got, you know, dolphins flying through the air that are all multi-colored.
Well, how does a dolphin fly in clouds? Well, why can't they evolve as well?
Yeah. Maybe they do. We just that we don't know. Those are the things I want people to get out of the box.
Think about what's going on. Especially dolphins. Holy cow, man, this guys are way smarter and we are.
Right. Well, there you go. Dave Bulls is my guest today on Dr. Andy's poetry and technology hour.
He's also the featured poet tomorrow evening at the John Netzulis gallery. I think people would
love to hear one more poem before I let you go, Dave. What's a second work that you'd like to share
with us today? Can I share you a recent one? Sure. Whatever you like. Okay. This is a recent one.
And, you know, I, in fact, it was that one of your readings years ago that I had said,
I'm done with political writing. I'm going to focus on philosophical and religious and stuff and all that.
Well, that got tossed on the wayside a little while ago because there's so much going on in the world
politically and with the wars and everything. So this, this is a current one. I wrote this on March 6th.
It's very current. It's called milk and honey.
Or bombing Iran, destroying their military, annihilating their fleet. Orangeman now says he will
choose their new leader and they all better get in line. Meanwhile, back home in the farm, gas
prices are rising, unemployment too. Several Democrats plot against, well, everything and our
nation's debt rises. Movie stars run their mouths, telling us they're moving overseas and then
they quietly return. Nobody cares. The media tells us Iran's hate us for killing their supreme
leader, leader, yet on the streets of America, there is dancing and celebration. Survivor is airing
season 50, while state lawmakers argue menstrual equity. Homelessness remains an issue, though you
would be hard pressed to find any solutions. DHS has been defended. I still wonder if the
illegals who kill our citizens should at least be made to dig their graves if we're not going
to deport them. We have members of Congress who openly state they hate our country.
It's just another day here in this land of milk and honey.
A poem by Dave Bowles, he'll be our featured poet tomorrow evening at the John Nitsulis Gallery,
521 First Street in the city of Davis. Dave, thanks so much for joining me today on the radio show
and I look forward to introducing you tomorrow evening. Oh, thank you so much. Take care.
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This is Dr. Andy and we are back. You know what I used to play a lot of, oh, maybe five years ago,
with Scott Joplin. The Maple Leaf Rag from 1899 is a song that you can play without triggering
anyone's concerns about copyright. It's in the public domain. That we'd hear some Scott Joplin.
Well, I read to you from an essay that I wrote today. It's titled What the Dead Want at Four in the
Morning. All right, Scott Joplin, what do you have for us?
What the Dead Want at Four in the Morning by Dr. Andy Jones.
Once when I was going through a difficult time, my dad visited me with great concern on his face.
He asked me why I hadn't turned to him for advice and counsel. I told him that he had died
14 years previously and thus was unavailable. I thought he'd be taken aback by this news,
but he just nodded sagely holding on to my shoulder the way he always did when I was a youth.
When he did that, I couldn't always tell if he was trying to communicate something telepathically,
he was a magician, or if he was just holding me up. My dad directed plays, so he was practiced
at solving problems. He's brought that same attitude to our conversations and my dreams.
My mom has visited a few times since she passed away, but mostly just to check up on me.
Mom loved the company of her sons and she supported us unreservedly, but rarely did she advise us
on solving problems or tell us what to do unless it was to ask for another slits from the refrigerator.
We miss her kindness, her humor, and her irreverence.
Most of these visits take place around 4 a.m. Sometimes living people visit me,
but more often, the dead. My best friend Tito was always 26 when he visits me.
When he first started visiting my dreams in 1993, I kept telling him that I would miss him so much.
Even asleep, I could not fathom the loss. During our reunions these days, Tito just smiles.
Sometimes the discoveries are startlingly wonderful. My son Juki sometimes talks to me in my dreams,
as he did back at about age 2 by age 3, he was done with words.
You see what stirs my 4 a.m. mind, visitation, memory, and whatever inward unrest keeps summoning both.
Such visitations make a favorite Emily Dickinson poem feel like not only metaphorical,
but also diagnostic. The first couple stances of Dickinson's poem, one need not be a chamber,
to be haunted, anticipate ideas that subsequent philosophers, psychologists, and neurologists discuss
with clients, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, memory loops, and psychological fragmentation.
One need not be a chamber to be haunted. One need not be a house. The brain has corridors
surpassing material place, far safer of a midnight meeting external ghost than an interior
confronting that cooler host. Dickinson suggests that interior spectres frighten us more than
external ones that we all carry around ghosts in our heads or in our hearts.
Dana Joy's poem, unsaid, also feels haunted to me, especially for those of us who have unfinished
manuscripts. His poem concludes with these lines. What we conceal is always more than what we dare
confide. Think of the letters that we write are dead. I have often heard Dana Joy tell the story
behind this six-line poem before reciting it and its message continues to resonate with me.
This past Monday morning at 4am, I traced these thoughts that you are reading now,
imagining metaphors picking out poems by Dickinson and Joya. Sometimes I worry,
relive regrettable narratives, revisit open loops, remember rejections, and ponder people who
have ghosted me. Sometimes I think I hear actual ghosts, the ones Dickinson calls external ghosts,
different ones from the arguably interior conversational spectres that want to get caught up.
Am I being rude to these visitors when I insist on going back to sleep?
They know when I start counting my own deep breaths that the time has come for them to pack up
and see themselves out. As a meditator, I have learned to slow my unhelpful obsessions and instead
practice calm and composed, noticing. I also engage in cognitive shuffling or what psychologist
Luke Bodan calls serial diverse imagining. Are you familiar with this practice? I'm grateful to
have found it instead of chatting with my departed childhood friend or wondering why a friend
whom I supported steadfastly and explicably ghosted me. I hope she's happy wherever she is.
I start listing neutral nouns that start with the letters found in a random word.
For the word table, I think of taxi cabs, hardvarks, banisters, lighthouses, and elbows.
Then I start over with the word elbow. I recognize the cold, necessary cruelty of cognitive
shuffling. To get back to sleep, I choose a banister over my father. I prioritize the mental
image of a neutral hardvark over the memory of Tito's smile. This ghost eviction exercise
fills Dickinson's corridors with so much clutter, lighthouses, taxi cabs, elbows.
That my mind leaves no room for the dead to stand.
During the day, we might be reminded of the famous St. Augustine quotation,
the dead are not absent, they are only invisible. Dreams manifest the invisible.
At night, we may welcome visits from the dead, or necessarily, we may bless them and send them on their way.
You've been listening to what the dead want at 4 in the morning. It's by me, Dr. Andy.
If you'd like to see the essays that I publish every week, typically on Wednesdays, not long before
I host this radio show, then I invite you, if you're so inclined, to visit Eager Mondays.
That's the name of my sub-stack at Andy Jones. That's me.substack.com.
My name is Dr. Andy, and you're listening to Dr. Andy's poetry and technology hour.
I'd like to thank you for tuning in to my radio show. We're going to conclude with some John Coltrane
to finish up the program. Before I'd like to thank Dave Bowles, who joined me to talk about poetry
and to share some of his poetry. He'll be the featured reader tomorrow,
evening at 7 o'clock. If you were to visit poetryanddavis.com, you would see that we haven't expanded
open mic tomorrow. You know, not everyone who comes to read gets their name on the list.
Many people arrive and they're disappointed. Many people arrive and they're crestfallen.
Many people arrive, hoping to share their voice, and their voice remain silent.
It's poetry night. It starts at 7 o'clock on first and third Thursdays, but if you want to get on
the open mic, if you want to be one of the few, you'll have to come early. People come early,
they set up chairs. People come early. They say, where's Dr. Andy and his clipboard? I didn't get
on the list last time. There are so few spots. The open mic. The open mic. How do I get my name
on the list? I want my voice to be heard. I want to be surrounded by art. I want to hear a
legrosilberstein make a sound like this. Oh, what she means is, oh, that was a fine poem. Oh,
I want to hear that again. Oh, your poetic career is launched here at poetry night first and third
Thursdays at the John Netsulis Gallery only in the city of Davis. Poetry in Davis is the website.
Poetry in Davis. Poetry in Davis. I hope you'll check it out. I hope you'll join us. It's free.
In fact, it's better than free. You'll leave richer than when you came. Poetry night. First and
third Thursdays at the John Netsulis Gallery. You are invited. You're also invited. You don't have
to accept the invitation, but you are invited to stick around because KVS always has great music,
original music, authentic music to share with you. We're going to close out today's show with
John Coltrane. This song is Dear Lord. Thanks for listening today. My name is Dr. Andy.
I'll see you next Wednesday and every Wednesday for another edition of Dr. Andy's poetry and
technology hour. Bye-bye.
