Develop: Spirit in Your Pocket-When the Struggle Within Surfaces During Development

Greetings, lovely listeners.

A few nights ago, I was watching a new show,

and the narrator said something that,

oh, it's just one of those times where it kind of just grabs your heart

when you hear these words,

because it made me think about mediumship.

And the words that the narrator said were,

if you can't control what's on the inside,

then how can you control what's on the outside?

I repeat that again.

If you can't control what's on the inside,

then how can you control what's on the outside?

In this show, it was in reference to our emotions,

how we process, how we express, how we withhold,

how we try to battle and work through things internally.

What I took from it was,

if you can't keep your emotions and understanding

and self-worth and love and processing

of your daily life with people,

checked inside, and everything is a basket case,

even though we may seem all put together internally externally,

nothing really is together and you're an absolute mess.

But anyways, controlling what's within

is a lot more than just being aware of our emotions.

It's understanding how we process them,

how to process them and doing it,

how to move forward with them,

how to accept them, how to forgive, how to let go.

It's a longer that we struggle or pad down the internal.

The external just falls more apart.

And even though we may look like we have it together on the outside,

well, that's when inside really can give us some friction can it.

We can try to make ourselves feel controlled on the inside

by controlling the outside, but it starts within.

And so this quote really, really, really struck me,

and it made me think about the journey of mediumship

when we're developing how we heal in year one.

I've done hit you in year one, it hits in year two, you know.

Made me think of the journey of mediumship,

journey of the soul, made me think of people

who never develop their mediumship.

How do they go through, I mean, it takes a lot of work

to heal what's within when you don't have spirit,

when you don't have those contacts you give and get.

But it made me think about my students who send me emails sometimes

over the years, over the past seven years.

And they talk about how the external is falling apart.

They talk about how they have fear about something

or they're feeling like they can't juggle or be good enough or do it.

I think that that is a direct reflection of the internal

that maybe was forged long ago.

That has a tendency to get buried.

These emotions and views we have.

I find that sometimes we give up too easily, don't we?

Sometimes we do with this mediumship development.

A big reason I see mediums with draw

is the internal work is not done.

I had a student, I've had a few students who, oh my gosh,

they dot their eyes, they cross their teeth, they're perfect

with their clairs, and their mediumship gets capped though.

All of a sudden, there is this huge internal surge,

almost like a purging of release.

It comes out in the craziest ways.

It is reflected onto people.

Me, sometimes spouses, sometimes themselves,

but it is almost like because their soul has grown so much and opened,

it is wanting to shed the weight of what the mind still holds on to.

That's heavy.

And when all of that surfaces, students get really,

really uncomfortable sometimes and scared.

Because to them in their mind, they've done everything right,

their mediumship's grown, they've attended class,

why is all of this stuff hitting the fan?

And I think it's just the process we go through in development,

don't y'all?

The soul's shedding.

It's that whole internal keeping it together,

getting it straight, working it out, that is trying to be fixed.

So you can move forward in your mediumship on the outside.

And sometimes, you know, that's triggered by things at home.

A lot of times it's triggered because their mediumship is advancing

in the public eye, and then everything hits the fan.

And it's like, wait, we need to heal in a few things.

Or things start unfolding at home, or in the workplace,

with family, with friends.

They think it's about their medium, they need to pull out a mediumship

what's happening is things are being presented in the physical

to help that internal within be rebuilt.

Released, rebuilt, restructured, healed, freed, lightened, understood.

All happens for a reason.

Honestly, to sum it up listeners to play it very safe with this.

Basically, I could say when you're going through development

and the stuff hits the fan and these wounds come up,

and there is release and intense emotions arise,

you can bet your bottom dollar that that is the soul

wanting to make the mind happy.

It's the soul wanting the mind to be free of the weighted emotions

from past experiences you've had.

Even though you may want to quit, what I tell my students is

that should be the last thing you want to do

when the hardship happens and the within arises.

In fact, that's when you really want to hold spirit close.

A lot of mediums, they may not be professed spiritualists,

but they trust spirit.

And they may not be members of the churches, right?

But they, they trust spirit.

And it's my students who win the internal arises

and toughness happens in the physical.

When they say no matter what, I'm not missing class

or I'm keeping my sessions going

or I'm keeping my dems going,

it's when they get to that point

where they know that staying close to spirit

is their life raft as opposed to dropping it.

That's when I know they're going to be okay.

Yes, that's when I know they're going to be okay.

And they are.

And it's the students who say I can't handle any of this

and then they just let go, go to the ant line,

go to what's comfy and they just release everything.

That's when I think that within is just going to stay

a little bit more messy for a bit,

a little bit messy for a little bit longer.

And then there will be another chance maybe to understand it.

Now, I am not an expert in this,

but I will tell you based on what I have been through,

what I've seen my classmates go through,

and what I've seen even my students go through

over the past six years.

In mediumship development, there's truth in this.

And that movie, that limited series,

made me think about it.

If you can't control what's within,

then how can you control what's without on the outside?

Can't control the inside.

How can you control the outside?

Made me want to talk about it a little bit today listener.

So anyways, if you got a question,

email me at Jennifer Fezio at gmail.com.

Have a new program that's launched,

and it's really a good one.

This week, the banners and all registration will be up

for all four programs I'm beginning in July.

Y'all, I'm offering something I've never offered before.

It is not a mediumship 101 course.

It is a exploring spirit course.

I actually entitled it understanding the afterlife.

A journey for the curious towards inner peace.

A little bit about this course.

What will be emphasized at six months?

It's once a month.

I have my first sign up already.

There is a daytime class and an evening class.

There can be a lot of students in it.

I'm not going to be watching you work.

Everything is done in a group.

There's no singling out.

There's no working in front of others.

There's no communicating with spirit other than your own loved ones.

It will emphasize mindfulness, peace, meditation,

chakras, energy awareness and expansion,

breathing and feeling your loved ones in spirit.

It's a feel good course.

It's a what is energy course.

Before you even communicate with others loved ones,

it is about you growing your beginner relationship

with the unseen and yourself.

So it is a gentle class.

That's what I'm going to say.

We will journal.

We will reflect.

We're going to do a bunch of feel good stuff.

I can't emphasize it enough.

The registration for that is up.

I have a Wednesday night class.

I think it is a July 8th.

It kicks off is a once a month class.

It is an hour and a half long.

It is $75 a month.

With that, you get the hour and a half class

where each month we work on a certain facet of energy.

And then you also get to attend my supplemental classes

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And there's a ton.

And you're not going to be working in the circles.

You're going to be helping the developing mediums grow

and receiving readings if you want.

You're going to be the practice sitters.

And I hope that this program does really well.

I think the day I posted it, I had a sign up come in

is a really good sign, seeing how we're only in March.

But it kicks off July 8th.

If you're interested or know of anyone,

registration is up on my booking site.

And until next time, listeners.