E214: Letting Go of Yourself and Seeing the Miracle of Life

0:00You will let go of yourself enough to see that every single thing, every single moment is a miracle beyond comprehension. We'll discuss that a little bit because there's lots of stuff going on, you know, like, how many miracles. And then we'll discuss why it doesn't look like a miracle and what it takes to free yourself from yourself. That is the essence of spiritual path. You can meditate, you can do mantras, you go to India, you can go to the mall, you can do anything you want. But while you're still there, you wasted your time. It is about dying to be reborn, it's about letting go of yourself. So you can be something greater than yourself. If you're busy being little, you can't be big.

1:02You have to let go of being little and you find out that you are big. So let's start with the miracle part. The other day, I was walking outside and it's the time of year where there's little baby acorns. Have you seen any? Don't step out and they hurt your bare feet. But I mean, just tiny little things. They're just baby little acorns with me. Have you seen them? Okay? And you look at it and you say, oh, that will become a tree. And that's the end of that. Well, that's not the end of that. How has it become a tree? A oak tree. A oak tree is really big. We're trying to oaks out here. That is what that is. You say, oh yeah, inside there's an oak tree. We skip the scupper steps. Of course it doesn't look a miracle. Inside that little thing is an oak tree. How? How? It's easy to say, only God can make a tree. That's skipping a lot of steps too.

2:03So let's take a few steps. So there's this tiny little seed. How does it grow into a tree? Who did it? Who stretched a tree out of that little thing? And you realize, well, that's not what happened. It's very smart of him now. What happened? It fell on the ground. OK, very good. Have some naturally. And it got wet. OK, there's water. And it's in the dirt. OK, there's all these different minerals. And there's sunlight. Minerals from dirt, dirt, what's called dirt? Water and sunlight. Very good. Sunlight is photons. Water is H2O molecules. And dirt is a bunch of different kind of molecules. OK, how is that a tree? I'm hearing intelligence. I didn't see anybody making anything. I didn't see any chemists, I didn't see anybody. Who took the dirt, the sunlight, and the water and made it into the molecules that make a tree?

3:05Because that's pretty serious stuff. Did science do it? No scientists did it. It didn't take any human intelligence. But did it take intelligence? A chemist needs intelligence? So is there a chemist inside that little seed? Yes. Whoa. Fair enough? Well, if you're going to sit there and take dirt molecules and sunlight, energy, and H2O, they don't look like a tree. They're not the structure of a tree of an oak tree, a giant oak tree. Who broke those apart from their component molecules and put them together into different structures so that they became an oak tree? Who did that? Oh, we know. We're very intelligent. DNA. DNA did it. What is DNA? Oh, a chain of molecules.

4:08OK, they're very intelligent molecules. I don't understand. I just don't understand. How you can look at that, hear that, and it doesn't blow your mind. So so far, I hadn't had any intelligence. I made a string of molecules that joined them. Who put them together? Oh, they put themselves together. OK, I'm having trouble. So molecules, molecules, put themselves together so that they knew how to break apart dirt, water, and sunlight and put it back together so that it becomes this giant oak tree. Like second to a straw. OK, well, that's pretty obvious. Of course, it did it by itself. OK, that's interesting. OK, then let's take the DNA. If DNA knew how to do it, and it took molecules and put them back together, they did it, put them together differently. So that they made different structures for roots and for asylum or other coral, right? They made all that stuff. How? How did it do that? Well, we understand. You have to understand what a DNA molecule is.

5:10OK, I'm listening. It's a bunch of atoms. No. Yeah, it's a bunch of atoms, isn't it? It's just a structure of atoms that put themselves together. Oh, wait, who put the atoms together? No, they put themselves together. Let's discuss that in a minute. That put themselves together into a structure that somehow, when dirt and water came around, it rearranged them into a tree, into an oak tree. OK, how do atoms do that? How exactly do atoms know how to make an oak tree out of dirt and water? I'm waiting. Well, they're not really atoms. There are no atoms. So what do you mean they're no atoms? Well, you've learned this in school. They're electron-ducern protons. Where do they atom go? No, no, no, no. That's like saying, where did the water go when ice melts? It's there. It's just in a different form. It's just vibrating in a different rate.

6:11So atoms are made of electron-duceram protons. OK, I got it. Now, they're intelligent enough to take dirt and break it down. What are electrons, neutrons, and protons? If that's what an atom is, and that's all it is, and atoms put themselves together into molecules because of different laws of nature, let's put themselves together, and then those molecules become a seed, and then the seed knows how to take the entire. So so far I've gone down to electron-duceram protons, mostly really bright, because they knew how to put themselves together to make molecules, to make DNA chains, to do all that we've discussed so far. I should send you home. Why? Because that's what you should do every single time you see a tree. You should do every single time you see a cornstalk. That's what you should do every single time you see a farmer's field. That's just dirt, right?

7:11And then you go back a couple of months later and there's a giant cornstalk with corn on the... Oh, corn, let's eat. You know, to eating electron-duceram protons. What has added anything to the electron-duceram protons to make these things? And then, and I'm sorry, I can't help myself. You're intelligent enough in your current world that understands, oh no, I blew it. There are no electron-duceram protons. What are there? Well, there's these vibrations in a field they call a quantum field and they're just vibrations. Just like if you drop a leaf into a steel lake, it makes vibrations, makes way less, okay? And those way that's behaved like electron-duceram protons, there are no electron-duceram protons. They're just these subatomic wavelengths that interact with each other and then behave with the properties of electron-duceram protons. Okay, so now we're down to what? Pretty much nothing.

8:11And that's what made a tree. Have I lied? Which part did I get wrong? Now, talking about a miracle. Is that beyond a miracle? Is that ridiculous? So the question is, okay, this thing you call God, the intelligence, where is it? Everywhere. And it emanated vibrations, which put themselves together exactly in the right way to make the right atoms and the right molecules and the right things to make the acorn, which then takes the, I don't know. How in the world do you walk around and not realize that? How, and then we said, the first thing we'll talk about is, is it a miracle? Come on. I don't care if he's a word God. I like science. We just took science down to, excuse me, down to vibrations vibrating in a field, which by the way, science says is an omnipresent field. It's a very sacred word. I've only heard anybody use them before to describe God,

9:11omnipresent, that every single thing in the entire universe, all the galaxies as far away, even the far, far away ones, that every single thing for all of infinity and eternity is this field of energy that vibrates. And everything comes out of that. All the stars, the moons, the planet, your body, every single thing right now is vibrating, emanating this. I told you the other day, it is not true that God created heaven and earth. That is not true. God is creating heaven and earth. If that field is not vibrating, yeah, goodbye. The minute it subs vibrating, boom, gone. Why? Because that's what it is. It's that coming together right now to make your body, to make every cell, to make every single thing there is. If that's not happening, nothing is. Who said that? That sounds religious. No, it's not really that science. So now throughout the entire universe, all the galaxies, every single hundred of billions

10:14and billions of stars in terms of galaxy, is a vibrating field everywhere, is exactly the same. Emanating out of it emanates this. Okay, where are your problems? Who's got a problem? There are no problems. There's just a vibrating field and it's miraculous. What it look was creating. What is the sunset? That field vibrating, emanating vibrations of photons that make color and I don't sense it. Good looking. How about somebody you love? Oh, you're so good looking. I love you. They're right in there. I like to play with you guys. Like, have you ever seen a periodic table? Who's ever seen a periodic table? Was it 92, 93 elements, natural elements? You've seen them, right? Which one do you like? Which one's you not like? Show me male, show me female. Show me good, show me bad. No, that's what it is. That's all there is. Okay, so now we've got the miracle part down.

11:16Imagine if you walked around like that. Just realize it's just vibrations of energy emanating every single thing I'm interacting with. Why is that really beautiful? Okay, why does it look like that? Because that's not how it looks to you guys. And you can even make it look like you try. People tell me that. I can't listen to a lecturer and for maybe a half hour, I feel different. That goes away. Of course it does. Why? Why? Because you have this thing called mind. Is mind of the quantum field? No. That's why it's called physics. It's called the standard model of physics, not of mind. Your mind can do whatever it was. Physic doesn't. It behaves in accordance to the laws, the natural laws and those waveless, they don't really come from. Yes, the quantum physics is where the waveless come from. You know, he says, or she says, none of my business. My business is explained where all this came from. And that's where I got down to. It was a waveless thing from.

12:17OK, I do. Don't you? Shh. All right. It was a force that that owned in the beginning was the word, was a word of vibration. The balance in the beginning was the word and the word was with God. That's all it took was an initial vibration. How did the nothing and all of a sudden it all came? Fair enough. OK. I want to get religious on you. So they don't know where the quantum field came from. You do. OK. So now that is what reality is. So why do you have problems? Because mind is not part of that quantum field. It's not part of the physical universe. All right, even down there in the quantum field they look very physical, but it is its waveless. So what happened? What happened? What happened was there is this field called mind.

13:19It's not the same as the quantum field. It's a much higher vibration rate, way higher. How long does it take for you to think of going from here to London? A billionth of a second. How long does it take for you to think about your whole life in one minute? There's no time. There's no space. Mental plane is it can do anything? Yes or no? Any time, all right? I want you to have three children right now in your mind. Boys or girls, you choose. You can do anything you want with mind. That is not true of the physical plane. It takes nine months to make one kid. OK. And so you know, you learn, understand, meditation helps with this. You are in here. And your consciousness, your awareness of being is aware that there are thoughts. Is that so hard? Are you not aware there are thoughts? I don't care where they come from. I don't care what it was about in a minute. But you are in there aware, are you not? Not only where the thoughts, what is the awareness?

14:22What is awareness? Because without awareness, who cares about it? And if nobody's aware of anything, there is nothing. How's that? So you're aware. And there are the thoughts in here. Let's talk about where they come from in a minute. And the other thing you're aware of that is not outside is these things called emotions. Do you have emotions? Do you have emotions? How do you know? How do you know you have emotions? Sounds like a stupid question. The answer is very simple, because I'm in here. And I feel them. How do you know you have thoughts? Because I'm in here. And I see them in here. They're talking about a mile a minute. How do you know? Have you ever had trouble with your mind? Have you ever had trouble with your mind? How do you know? Has your mind ever been peaceful? How do you know? Because I mean here. Are you in here when the mind is peaceful? You know, I mean here when the mind is tumultuous, yes. You know when the emotions feel love, yes.

15:23You know, the emotions feel disturbance and fear and anxiety and self-consciousness and embarrassment and guilt. How do you know? Does anybody ever feel guilt? Anybody ever feel jealousy? Anybody ever feel embarrassment? How do you know? Answer simple. This is easy. You don't need scientists. I'm in here. How do you know you're in here? Because I am. Whoah. Whoa. I am that I am. That's the bottom line. I am in here. No, you're not. Yes, I am. Prove it. I can't. I don't care. Go away. Goodbye. I'm done talking about it. I'm in here. I know I'm in here. I am the I am that is in here. There you've heard of I am that I am. I am the I am this in here. I am in here. We went there yesterday. Are you sure? We went there last year? Are you sure? We went there when you were little. When you looked in the mirror, when you were five years old,

16:24did you see what you see now? But did you see something? How do you know? Because I was in here. I don't know much. I've been here the whole time. Sometimes I wish I wasn't. I wish I wasn't in there. Ever do drugs and alcohol and different things to kind of make it a little easier to be in there because you don't have to be in there. So let's just be honest. You're in there and you have thoughts in there and you have emotions in there. And they are not part of the quantum field. The quantum field is going out there. Okay, fine. That's very good. So what's the problem? The problem is and I've explained this to you a thousand times, but please listen. There is a world out there. It's not like you thought it was. It says the little vibrations. So you got these vibrations that put themselves together and make atoms, but those things are going to be molecule. Hello. And there you are. And you should just see as a miracle. All right. Is somebody standing in front of you and dishing you, yelling,

17:25dishing you, you should be melting and ecstasy? Oh my God, where did that thing come from? That's the vibrations that a quantum field put themselves together as atoms, making noise with their vocal cords. Whoa, namaste. It's a miracle. The thing makes noise. How does a quantum field wait in there make noise? Well, it puts together, Adam, it puts together vocal cords that puts together the vibrato. I don't know. It's pretty complex, but it's really very simple when it comes down to it. All right. So what happens? What happens is you're in there. That's the key. You're in there. And don't ask me who's in there. You're in there. And you know who's in there. The one that knows they're in there. Fair enough? I am that I am. That's what I am. And I'm in here. And then I hate to do it, but the fact that you see the world out there not as quantum vibrations,

18:29you see it as people, places, things, different, all right, is because you have eyeballs. What are the eyeballs? Quantum vibration. So you're telling me that not only did an oak tree come out of this little seed, the new head of tic-dirt, but that the quantum field vibrated in such a way, not only did it make everything, but it made eyeballs so that I who's in here look through those quantum vibrations, they look like this. And I've never discussed that with you. Is that the truth or not? It's free of any. Isn't it? That's preraculous. Okay. So there it is. That's what's going on. But you're in there. Good. I'm going to be here. I get to experience God's creation. I have to experience the miracle. I use the word God. I have to use the word God. The miracle of creation. How's that? The miracle if you just stop at the quantum vibrations and that's what you're looking at. But the fact that the eyeballs are part of it and there's such that when you look through

19:31them, they look like this, right? And you might want to say, thank you. There's colors, there's birds, there's sounds, every single thing. And you get to have your senses, the five senses that pick up the appearance of this vibration. It's not, but it's kind of neat that someone's playing a movie for you. You know, really means stop the world. I want to get off. Sometimes it feels like that. Then go to Mars for a while and see how bored you are. See how absurd it is. Nothing. There's nothing dirt, red dirt. And then you look at earth and every single moment of your life, there's something different happening. It's all miraculous that it exists. So it's wrong. It sounds pretty far out. I get to be in here and I have senses that pick up that out there, which is not there. There's this vibration. But anyways, it picks up. It's out there. And when it comes in, it looks like you guys and you get older and you look different.

20:31That's coming to the quantum field too. Every single emanation of anything you see here, taste, touch, every single thing is emanating from that field. So now it's coming in. It's being created. It's not created. You're not creating it. You're not creating it. You're breaking. We'll talk about that in a minute. You making the quantum field vibrate. You're making it all look like this. No, no, no. You're just here experiencing it. You are the experience or experience of what is coming through your senses. Yes or no? You're in here. It comes in and you experience it. That is what's meant that Adam and Eve were in the garden. That's what it means to be in the garden. There are no issues. There are no problems. There's just consciousness experiencing its creation. There's just consciousness experiencing what it made. It's their experiencing the vibrations that exist. Then you get to have these experiences. Which experiences? It means in trillions of them every day and different.

21:32I've discussed that with you on another's apart. You never get. No one that has ever lived had the same experiences you had. Did you ever think about that? You have a unique. You are 100% unique. Nothing that ever lived had moment by moment experience that you had today. No one that ever will or did or is has the same experiences as you. That's very far out. You're going to have a private showing of what the quantum feels. I don't know. I can't keep talking about it because they know you didn't want to ask for a second. This quantum feels emanating and this stuff and you're getting a private showing every moment. There's 800 billion, trillion things going on every moment you're experiencing. You're experiencing. This one's yours. What happened? It comes in and it passes through emotional field. Mine was in minefield.

22:33It's closed. Minefield hits a few things. Minefield and it comes back and you experience it. It's being created. It's coming in. It's touching you and every moment in your life, that is what's going on. Do you know that? But what about? No, there's no but what about? Every moment what's happening is that outside world is coming in through your senses, passing through emotions in mine and consciousness is experiencing it and that is the purpose of creation. I'm sorry. If they don't tell you, they forgot to tell you, right? Is God created a heaven's and earth so He could experience Himself? Every single aspect of creation is a vibration of the divine and the highest vibration of consciousness itself and that's what created it all and now it's experiencing it all and it's just like, wow. It's like you're a great musician and you play the piece of music and no one's there to

23:33listen to it but you and you're blessing out as you just melt into what you created or an artist. It wasn't a whizz and paint something and just looks at it and melts. You melt if it comes all the way in and touches you with nothing in between. Oh, I made a mistake. Oh my God. I don't know. It doesn't sound so good, right? But whatever it is, if it comes in and touches you to the depth of your being, I love those words. Can somebody touch you to the depth of your being? When? When it makes it all the way in. Otherwise, it can't get to the depth of your being because you stop it in between. But I'm telling you a world in which it passes through the emotional vibration, passes through the mental vibration and it comes through as it was as it is, as it was created. Here it is. It's coming in and you're experiencing it. That's where the masters are. That's what an enlightened being is. There's nothing but it's called empty mind. I mean, you're stupid.

24:33Okay? You can make mind vibrate. But when it's open, it passes, things pass through. All right. So what happened? It will quickly... What happened? How did it get all screwed up? Because it... Not exactly like that in there. Is it ecstatic all the time and totally clear and just experiencing the miracle of creation? I tell our oak tree, everything's that. You're just experiencing that. Wow. What happened? Well, what happened is it comes in and there are different vibrations when they come in. Things feel different. Yes or no? Have you noticed? Oh, okay. Make sure I'm bored. They come in. Do they actually come in? Does a dog come in? Does a snake come in? Does a person come in? No, they stay out there. They give food in here. Okay? So the vibration comes in. Everything has its nature and its nature is its vibration. A snake has a different vibration than a butterfly. Why?

25:34Maybe a woman has a different vibration than a man. An angry person has a different vibration than a happy person. Everything has different vibes. Hey, six years again. She gives her bad vibes. She gives her good vibes. No, I can't go to this place. That's a real bad experience and I get really bad vibes. Okay? So what comes in is the vibration. That's what your senses pick up. They're sensors. Look at the computer guy. There's a sensor or something that can pick up vibrations. Sound, light, touch. They pick up vibrations. They turn them into signals, really electronic signals, right? That panoramic pathways that pass up through your nervous system. What are those? The wiring that sends the vibration. Come on. The switcher nervous system is the wiring that senses pick up the vibration, send it through the wiring. Where? To you. Back to you. You pick it up, they get sent back to you and you get to experience. You get to experience creation.

26:34All of creation. No, just the part that was meant for you. It's the part that's happening in front of you. Be here now. That's what you get to experience. You get to experience what's coming in, fast up to you and you get to see an oak tree, get made me, get to see this and that. All comes in. There it is. All right. So what went wrong? That's very, very deep. They're beautiful. But when wrong is some vibrations when they come in, don't make it through. Why? Because something stops them. I don't understand. I can suddenly stop them. They're just coming in, they're created and you experience them. Not if you don't want them. But it's that. It comes in and you in there. You know when in there, I forgot to ask you. Anybody else in there? Mommy, daddy, boyfriend and girlfriend, ex-husband? No. You have to single occupancy apartment. Comes in, you experience it and you do this thing called closing.

27:37You don't even about that. Or resisting or not liking or suppressing or denying or repressing. It's all very interesting words. They're all about mine. It's all about the fact that it didn't make it through mind. It didn't make it through the emotional field. Something stopped it and it got stuck in there. And they ever happened in your life. They got stuck in there. That keeps coming back and reminds you of things. Well, that's terrible because then you miss what's happening now by hanging out with what you got stuck in there. That's who you are right now. All right. You're stuck in the mud. All right. So stuff comes in. And, first of all, how did stuff get stuck in there? I said, it didn't make it through why? Because you didn't let it. Who? You in there? Why? Because the vibration was such that you were not able to handle it. Who me in there ever have things happy as I can handle this?

28:37I don't like this. I don't want that. That shouldn't happen. That's not right. Does that mean that it didn't make it through me? What did I do with it? I pushed it away. Who did you? The natural state is it makes it through you. If you close to it, if you use your willpower inside, consciousness has will. If it uses this intention, this willpower, to resist the experience. Have you ever resisted an experience? Ha, ha, ha. Every single day, a little mosquito flies by. A person will say hello. A colors with you. I'm like, driver in front of you. Driver slower than you want, or not using the blinker. Have you ever resisted an experience? You resist all the time. So the consciousness uses will to push the experience away. I know I've discussed this before, but it's the most important thing I will ever discuss with you.

29:37What do you mean to push the experience? You have the ability to say, I don't want to experience this. Don't you? You do it all the time. I don't want to experience this. The trouble is, you must have experienced it. You wouldn't know you don't want to experience it. Can you not have experienced it? No, but I don't have to let it through. I don't have to let it touch me to the depth of my being. I can push it away and keep it at a distance so that it doesn't bother me. I don't want it in here, but it is in there. And it will always be in there, unless you let it go. Now you're getting right down to frightening the psychology. You were supposed to pass through emotions. You feel them, pass through mind, and you get to experience it. Well, what if it can't pass through mind? Then it gets stuck in mind. You push it away and it stays there. Does it stay there? Every bad experience you've ever had, and it'd be even traumatic, but especially traumatic, right? Does it come back up?

30:38Does it think you remind you of it? Does it feel just as bad? Is something you remind you of it as it did originally? Yes, because it got stuck in there. What did the experience have you had experienced that you don't want to know do you had and try to push them away and never think about them again? And if somebody talks about it, you say, I told you, I don't want to talk about that. That's what it's like to live in there, isn't it? Okay? Because you held onto these things. Why did I hold onto them? Because I didn't want to experience them. That's why you kept them? I try to keep things I like. You kept everything you didn't like? Come on. Did you keep everything you didn't like? And the more you didn't like it, the further away you pushed it so it stayed in there. That is strict for psychology. That is exactly what is going on in your mind. And that's why it's a mess. It's not a mess. It's a miracle. I told you, I told you I'm a miracle mess. It appears to be a mess. Why?

31:38Because you stored every single thing throughout every moment of your life in your very unique moments, you had them. Every moment you're having an experience. And some of them, when they came in, you didn't want to have them. They were not evolved enough. That's why I word. The inner consciousness had fallen down far enough to where it got caught in itself. I think there's something in the Bible in Genesis that says, when you went in, you ate of the tree of self-knowledge. I now know myself as separate from the divine force, from the whole. I am me. Aren't you? I'm me. This is my name and these experiences I had. And this is what I like. And this is what I don't. What are you doing? I'm building a self-concept. Why? Why would I do such a thing? Why would I just be here and enjoy experiencing creation and the moments I get to, because I don't like that one. Whoa. Where did that come from? Like and dislike. It's just all quantum fields vibrating.

32:40Nice to know for, are there things on a periodic table you like you don't like? Yes, the answer is yes. That's what you're doing every moment of your life. And this, throughout your entire life, is liking not like things. I mean, you didn't like them. That's my favorite part. You didn't like it or so. I'm keeping this one. I want to always remember how much I didn't like this one. And you sit there holding inside of you. And so now your mind is stuck with what? The stuff you stuck in there. That's what's going on. So what happens now when this beautiful miracle of creation comes in through your senses, it hits that stuff, doesn't it? And it immediately says, I like it. I don't like it. I want it. I don't want it. This shouldn't happen. I like that's my favorite. This shouldn't have happened. The quantum field shouldn't have vibrated the way it did. So by the time it manifests it here, there's this person. Thank you. You're a pretty special person. I ain't pretty strong. OK? And so you did this.

33:41You created preferences based on what? Based on the past vibrations that came in that either liked or didn't like. Well, if I like them, shouldn't I keep them? No. No. No. Don't feel guilty about it. That's the least of your problems that you can't put your life. Why? What's wrong with keeping what I like? You don't get to have the next experience. You're open. You're waiting for it to happen again. You want it to happen again. You're judging every kiss, everything. Everything happens against the ones that have before. It doesn't feel the same. You never close your eye anymore. When I kiss your lips. Anybody got somebody in there like that? Answer me. So now you're holding on to what you liked. And therefore you judge everything based on it. So it's all about judging. You are in there judging based on what? Ready? Your past experiences. You did not decide what you liked and don't like.

34:44You've had experience in your past that you weren't able to let go of. So you stored them because you really liked it very rare. By the way, because you really liked it or you stored it because much more commonly. You didn't like it. And so now you have this whole concept of liking dislikes inside your mind. Now here in the quantum field, no quantum field, no one liked or dislikes it anyway, shape or form. Like the camera doesn't know what took a picture of. How could the camera take a picture of that? Because it doesn't know what to take a picture of. It's just taking a picture. So the quantum field is creating all. But why did it create that? Because it creates everything. Alpha to Omega. Because God is everything. Therefore every single thing that is, if God expressed Himself through those vibrations, everything is everything. Okay, but no, we use our mind as a storehouse of what we like and what we don't like and what we wanted to happen, we don't want to happen. And we just got a whole mind full of that stuff.

35:45So now what happens? Now that I did that, who did I did that? I decided what I didn't like. I decided what I couldn't handle. I decided what I had to push away enough to stay stuck inside of me to make me weird. So what happens the outside now comes in, does it come back to you? No, it hits that stuff. And so what comes back to you, the consciousness, is after it tried to pass through this veil of garbage that you stored inside. And so now you're fighting with the outside and the inside. You fight with the inside because Emily's getting hit and you know, like you try to put it together, you have a self-concept and beliefs and preferences and hopes and dreams and all these little weird things that you get stuck in your mind. And so therefore you want the outside to be like, you want to make up an inside, based on the things you couldn't handle. You want the outside to match where you built inside. Then you're supposed to be the way I want. There's never supposed to be the way I don't want. Those are concepts you built in your mind. Well, the outside world has nothing to do with that.

36:46It never stopped being the waveless vibrating. And so you have made a mess because you can't handle reality. All right? Instead, you built this mind. And that's it. We said, why is it a miracle? And why is it not look like a miracle? You're like the little, a miracle, the half of it. You say, oh my God, that was a miracle. No, it's more like hope that doesn't happen. I wish that it never happened. Well, I don't know what to do. What happened when I was little and I can't get rid of it. People ask me that. You can't get rid of something that happened when you were little and it was a bad experience. If it's still in there, you're holding it in there. There's no super glue in there. There's nothing in there. It's pure, it's open, it's beautiful. Except you built all this stuff in there. So now it's only okay when things match. When that outside manifests in the way that matches what your inside decided wanted, you're having a good day. When the outside doesn't manifest that way, which of course it never does, what does that

37:48time every single thing when exactly the way you wanted it to be? And how long did it last if it even did? By the way, it can't. Why? Because if it comes in, it's exactly what you wanted to be. Your mind will say, this can't last. Can I trust her? Can I trust this? She says, I love me. I don't know. Will you love me tomorrow? That's what it's like inside. I can sing songs all day. You have a very good voice, right? But I like the songs. Now listen to country music. You'll learn everything I'm talking about. Right? Why are you having problems? You created them. There's nothing but a vibrating, divine force emanating all of creation and all of its awesome. It's unbelievable because you can't handle it. And so you stored all this stuff in your mind. Well, I said, mind, what about emotions? I've never actually looked at you in the eyes of those. They are a conspiracy. Your heart and your mind are tied together. The energy passes through one and goes into the other.

38:48It comes to the other and passes down to one. There's no situation where you hate something and your heart goes, ooh, I love it. Or that the heart is uncomfortable with something. I like it. Are they not in kuhuts? Your mind can think one thought, your heart feels it, doesn't it? Even if it's something from 20 years ago, you know, a bad experience. Well, I have the many think of them in here, a billboard outside, you're driving down and has something on it, a color of this, who knows a word, right? It hits your stuff. Your mind starts thinking, oh, I remember when that happened to me in your heart, yes or no? There you go. These are fields of vibrations. The outside is the lowest field. It's, you know, talking about ice, water and steam, right? There's different vibration rays, the same thing. The emotional field and the mental field are higher vibration rays than the quantum field. They're just vibrating at much higher rate. And consciousness is the highest. It's not even vibrating.

39:49There's a lay masters go into a state called near-become of samadhi before creation. It goes, what is meditation? What are the high states? Right now your consciousness is addicted. And I mean addicted to staring at you. There's no moment during your day you're not staring at you. All right. Do I like it or not? I like it. Oh my God. I remember there's a, it's like, there's just a little fish bowl over there and you're staring at it. And it's creating thoughts and emotions. And you are caught in those, to say the least. You are the consciousness addicted to staring at your mind, your emotions, your particular form and good luck. Good luck getting out. Because I like to do you go into meditation. That's wonderful. Going to very deep meditation. You know, much more interested in how long do you stay when you come back and why? Does this stay away all the time? We have a good meditation.

40:50Good luck. One phone call, phone rings. Who's that? I hope if I'm married, she wasn't doing well. I'm afraid that the consciousness is addicted to this stuff that you stored in your mind and your heart. And it's very powerful. What happens if your heart starts to hurt? You know, nothing else going on in your life. That's what it is, my heart. But if your mind has a thought, every other thought gets stuck in your mind and can't get it out and it's making me feel terrible. It's not easy to live in there. Why? Why is it like that in there? Because you stored every single thing you didn't like in there. If you store everything ever disturbed you inside, it's going to be disturbed inside. That's why it's disturbed inside. If you were able to handle the situations that happened to you and say, well, every life, some ravens fall, not like rain, it puts food in the publics and it's like, oh, just let go. You don't have to store it. You don't have to store what you didn't like the most. It doesn't make any sense in any way, shape or form.

41:51Let it go. Let it go. Let it be. It already happened. That vibration already passed. None of them stop. It's a motion picture, not a still shot. But inside your mind, this is still shot, isn't it? That picture of that divorce. I just can't get out of my mind. Why? Well, I guess because I decided I want to hold on to it because I didn't like it a lot. I'll keep it in here. That's what you did. Now you're being pulled down. What is you who is the highest thing that I've walked to face the earth? You in there. Hello. You're the highest thing that I've walked to face the earth. You are God descended. We sing that. I am love. I am light. I'm spirit descended. Don't just sing it because that's what you are. But I'm descended into the stuff that I stored. I fell into it. I didn't descend into it. Pulling me down. Do you have to live like that? Of course not. You're the one who's doing it. There ain't nothing going on in there, but you're not doing.

42:53You're the only one in there. What you did was hold on to these experiences that you couldn't handle. Then you stored this and you ended up with this mess in there. Now, which is solution is, make the outside match what I want inside. I've noticed that when the outside matches what I want inside, I'm doing great. And it doesn't match what I don't want. I'm doing great. I'm relieved. So now I have to go outside and work by quote the sweater, my brow, to manipulate and control everybody and every single thing that goes on outside of me. So it'd be the way I want when it comes in there. Can you please carve that one as a tank commandance? Because that's what you're doing. You're out there fighting with the quantum vibrations. I think that's really cute. That's good. We've got the whole thing in here in this talk, didn't we? Right? If that's what's going out there is the miracle creation. You decide, no, that it's some of the Bible that you kind of got backwards. You say, not thy will, but my will.

43:55I have a way I want it to be. And that's how it should be. Not thy will, meaning the vibration and the vibration that are naturally emanating from creation, no, he's will and always will. No, that's not good. I don't like it that way. I like it the way what I made up based on what I wasn't able to handle. I came to it over again. That's how I made this stuff. And I got a me in here. I hide, hide, and I'm not happy. Why? Because things won't be the way I want them to be. Oh, the vibrations were unfold the way you made up based on your past experiences, what they're supposed to do. You have to live like that. Of course not. Since you're the one who's doing it. I mean, there could be things that happen that I don't have any control over. This you have 100% of control over. If it's a mess in there, I'm sorry. You don't feel guilty. You made it. If your house is filled, these are crusts and things and garbage and roaches and near the only lives in there, you know, and ever lived in there, guess who did it.

44:58That's how I want you to look inside. Should I feel guilty? No, there's just another thing. A shame, embarrassment, or an older now and a messed up. I missed the boat. There's no missing the boat. If that's stuff's in there, you're holding it right now. You're holding it that would happen 40 years ago. Why? Because I didn't wake up and realize I don't have to resist reality. Who is not the way I like? Enjoy it. Enjoy it. And the way I like, yeah, storms are fun. I used to live in the world of Miami, where I was young. We stand in the window and look at hurricanes coming and leaves blowing and branches falling. It was exciting. There are people who go through major disaster hurricanes where houses all around them are wiped out. And they come together and love each other and rebuild their community and do everything

46:01they can to help each other. Oh, you mean it was beautiful. It had beauty to it. I listened to me. Everything is what it is. And you're in here experiencing it. Can't a storm be beautiful? The person the lady who gave us the drugstack trip, Bayog Shakti, and so a picture down there. She once leaned over and said, very highly, very highly. She's a little high. You don't know how high she is. Very highly. She didn't watch her at all. She said, everything she could do. She didn't want to know who she is. She once leaned over to me and said, Nikki, I see this mother, don't you just love when they yell at you? There's so much energy. She just came through. She's been made her high. Boom. It was really. It's the way you made it in there. And it will be the way you make it in there. And you decide, oh, I understand, I don't have to resist reality. Well, see alternative to enjoying your life.

47:04Not enjoying your life. I hope you're enjoying, not enjoying your life. Because you are making that decision every moment of your life. I said a loader and she kept walking by. Why? Watch this. Okay. There's about 8.3 billion people on the planet earth. They didn't say hello either. Okay. But this one I decided mattered. And now what happens? They walk by and my mind. Why did you walk by? They just don't like me anymore. They just don't know what they do wrong. I don't remember. But I do yesterday. No, we had a good time yesterday. I didn't do anything with that. What if Paul told her what I told her four years ago? Oh, no, he wouldn't do that. They might say, call him and ask if he did. Is it not like that in there? Who made it like that in there? You did. What's wrong? She walks by and say hello. And that's the experience you had. The needed explanation. You have to do all that junk about it.

48:06You didn't even have to ask why did you say hello. You have to avoid her for three days because you're upset that she didn't say hello. And you're saying, pie, pie. What's next? Because there is something next, but not for you. That's your next. You are making a hell out of your life. And don't you dare blame it on God. And don't blame it on yourself. It's just learn to honor and respect reality. Learn to honor and respect reality. I started with reality. Now we're seeing why you don't experience reality. Because you're busy experiencing you. You're busy experiencing this tiny little thing made up. And you know, you'll be here very long. The Earth's been here for four, five billion years. How old are you going to hit? 80, 90. And you can't handle the realities unfolding in front of you. You have to make a complete mess out of your life. And then blame life and blame everybody else that they did it. They didn't do anything. They just busy being who they are, the something that we learned experiences.

49:10All right, I have to stop. I don't want to stop. What I want to do, if you sign up for it, people ask me, do you retreat? No, I don't. Do you do personal one on one? I know. No, no, no, no, no. This is what I'd like to do. But I then won't let me. I'd like to see these little magical little earphones and put them in your ears. And I will hold onto this microphone. And every moment for the rest of your life, I say, I can handle this. Oh, wow. That was really beautiful. Oh, my God. Look how dark that is. This would be, oh, I love dark. That's just really beautiful. Oh, look how he's looking at the person said, I don't think they love me. They probably do. They just said something mean. And I talked to you like that. I'll replace that voice in your head. Remind them. That's so bad. That's so bad, eh? All right. Will you work on this? Do you see the path? Now do you understand the path to enlightenment? A great being has let go. They have let go. I'm quoting something from the Guida. I'll just close with this.

50:11Right? In the Guida, there's Krishna, God, head, if you will. And there's Arjuna. He's a warrior, but he's a disciple. He has the disciple of Krishna's direct devotee. And he'd have a conversation. That's what the Guida is. So somewhere in the conversation, there's a big conversation, a lot of conversation. Krishna says to Arjuna, Arjuna, there are beings who have transcended this world, who reach very high state. They don't have those problems going on inside of them. It's clean in there. And because it's clean in there, they don't get distracted. The conscious does not get distracted, but what's going on in there? Because it's clean. It's empty. Things pass through. But what happens? Then they don't get pulled down. Why? Because there's nothing pulling them down. And that'd be nice. Nothing pulling it down. All right? And then what happens? It goes up. Like, because it is up. It's the one who's looking down. It doesn't look down. And Arjuna says, how will I know such a person when I meet them?

51:15It literally says, walksie, toxie, sitshe like any other man? I want to know him. I don't want to walk by and miss this great being. Right? And Krishna says, you won't know him like that. If you want to know him, enjoys, he's not overjoyed. And sorrow is not oversold. He lets goodness come when it will and when it will depart. And let's darkness come when it will and when it will depart. He walks as a soldier or a stranger in the midst of the qualities of nature. Just as all the rivers and streams of the world pour into the ocean. And the ocean doesn't overstep its bounds. So the world of sense pours into the yogi and leaves him as a fountain, a peace, serene content. Equanimity is yoke. Isn't that what we just talked about? Hear me? It can be very, very clean in there. You can handle everything.

52:17So learn to practice letting go of everyday things, little things that I don't care. And this stuff comes up from the past. Do your best to honor it. Respect it to say, I'm sorry. I've probably got it. You know, fight with the stuff you stored down there. You started apologizing. I'm so sorry. Put that down there. I ruined you. I couldn't handle the experiences. I shoved it down there into the dark. You apologize to yourself. You know, fight with it. And that's what you're just talking about. This is a sense world passes through. That we're all passed through. You're a very great being. Right now you're fully enlightened. You're at the highest state that the highest beings were looking down and you can't stop being addicted to looking at yourself. Let go. That's a Christ meant by dying to be reborn. Do you understand that? Okay. Chagrugav.

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