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In December of 2015, 27-year-old Jessie Bardwell moved from Alabama to Texas to live with her boyfriend, 28-year-old Jason Lowe. Her friends and family knew this was a bad situation for her–Jason was abusive and controlling over every facet of her life. In May of 2016, Jessie disappeared, and her father Gary sprung into action. He traveled to Texas himself and got the police involved. He could just feel that she was dead, and even had a nightmare about her murder the night before her disappearance.
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Thank you so much for joining me today, and if you're new to the show, then welcome.
I have covered plenty of cases where prosecutors don't necessarily have a straightforward motive,
I've also covered cases where because of certain factors, they also don't know where
the murder took place, you know, where the physical crime scene was,
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In this episode, I'm going to be telling you about the murder of the beautiful Jesse Bardwell,
and now let's go ahead and jump in.
So Jesse Merle Garner Bardwell was born on September 10, 1988 in Pascagula, Mississippi,
to her father, Gary, and her mother, Carla, and she also had one older brother named Brandon.
Now, according to Gary, the minute that Jesse entered this world, he just burst into tears
because of the love he already felt for her, and that love only got stronger every day.
And that is something that I absolutely believe, you can just feel the love that Gary has for
his daughter through his interviews and pictures of them together, they were just such a beautiful
duo, and it's really just inspiring to see that type of father, daughter, and love.
Because Jesse, of course, loved both of her parents dearly, but she was definitely just a daddy's
girl at heart, and Gary said that he still has a backache from how often she wanted him to hold her.
Now, her parents did end up getting divorced when she was 14, and Jesse spent her high school years
living with her dad. Gary ended up remarrying this woman named Gina, and the same way that Jesse
loved her mom, she also grew to love her stepmom. And just as much as Jesse loved her family,
she also loved her friends. She has described as someone who could meet friends anywhere she went,
and it's also just universally agreed upon from the people in her life that Jesse was a beautiful,
silly, and incredibly independent person. And it sounds like Jesse was that type of person who
just marched to the beat of her own drum, and that she also surrounded herself with good salts
of the earth people who loved her. And through life's natural twists and turns, Jesse ended up
eventually leaving Mississippi, and she moved to Orange Beach, Alabama, which I've heard is really
beautiful. And Jesse loved the beach, she loved the water, she loved that whole beach lifestyle,
so I don't think this move was much of a surprise to anyone in her life. And while she was living
there, she got a job at a beach side restaurant called Cobalt. And I loved this. Jesse's dad Gary
is a musician, so the restaurant that she worked at hired him to come and play music there,
occasionally. And Pascagula is only an hour and a halfish away from Orange Beach, so he would just
drive up for the evening, play, and even on the nights that Jesse wasn't working, she would come
in and listen to her dad's music. Jesse's friend Kimberly, who happened to be the manager at Cobalt,
said that it seemed like she and Gary were not just father and daughter, they were also friends.
And that is definitely the vibe that I have gotten from them as well. They seem so so close.
They texted every single day, and that's actually why he was one of the first people to notice when
Jesse began to change. It all started around Christmas time of 2015. Jesse had previously been living
with her long-term boyfriend. For what I believe was a decent amount of time, but then kind of out
of the blue, it seemed like she broke up with him, and she started dating someone else. The guy
that she started dating is named Jason Lowe. And I guess the two of them had been friends previously,
so it wasn't like someone completely random, but you know, he seemed like a nice enough guy to
people around them, and he was outgoing. He had a good job in the tech industry, so there was that.
But the fact that the two of them started dating sort of suddenly wasn't the biggest shock of it all.
And it also wasn't the fact that Jesse told her friends she was moving to Texas with him, although
that was pretty shocking. But the biggest surprise in all of this was that Jesse didn't tell her
family that she was going. She spent Christmas with them that year fully knowing that she was
leaving for Texas with Jason shortly after, and she never mentioned it. She told her friend Kimberly
that she was going for a few weeks just to clear her head and that she was going to take this time
to pursue her dream of getting into cosmetology, but she didn't tell her family who she was,
as I've mentioned, incredibly close with. And this was obviously so unlike her. And it seemed like
there had been this major shift, this change, and this absolutely broke my heart, but Gary said that
he would have done anything he could to try and talk her out of going. And that's got to be
something that's really hard to grapple with in the aftermath of what happened. And as soon as
her relationship with Jason began, it just seemed like something in Jesse just changed. She really
went from being this full of life, happy personality, always talking to her friends and family,
just very social kind of person to someone who was a lot more withdrawn. In fact, once she moved to
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But yeah, it eventually just got to the point where Gary could hardly reach Jesse at all,
which is such a stark difference from how they used to communicate, talking pretty much
every day. He would call Jason and demand to speak with her, but Jason would give him some
bullshit excuse that she didn't want to speak with him, or that she would call him later.
There was one time where Jesse and Jason went to go visit Gary, and he was able to see her in
person, and he could tell at that point that something was definitely off. Jesse was hugging him
more than usual. She just seemed different, and there was something about the way that she was
acting that sort of set off his father's intuition that there was a problem here.
And he even tried to convince her not to go back to Texas, but she said that she wanted to go.
She also told him that she wanted him to be proud of her, and I know that he was,
but I also know that he was deeply worried for her, even though she wouldn't admit that there
was something going on. He just knew that there was. Right after she left, Gary sat down and
wrote this song about her called Taken Away, which if you weren't planning on crying today,
I am certain you will after listening to it. I cannot even
talk about it for too long because it is so emotional, and I am such an emotional wreck these days.
It is just a beautiful song, but very heavy. I'm going to play a small portion of it for you
here, but I encourage you to listen to the full version if you want to. I'll link it in the
description or show notes of this episode. See, even thinking about this song makes me tear up
because it is just a tarp breaking.
She said that it don't worry, it's going to be all around.
As they were leaving, just the thing we used to do,
she said to me with her driving, I love you, take her away, take her away, take her away.
There is nothing you can say on me to make me stay, take her away, take her away, take her away.
Genuinely, if there's one thing that I want you guys to remember from Jesse's story and from
this case of this episode, is that I hope it makes an impression on you how much Gary love Jesse.
It is just so beautiful to see a father love his daughter the way that he did. He says that he
still calls her his beautiful daughter and just hearing the way that he speaks about her breaks my heart
knowing that she's gone. Just cannot imagine being in his shoes. Believe it or not, he actually had
a nightmare that she was killed just before it happened. God, if that's not father's intuition,
I don't know what is. A few months after Jesse left his house for the last time,
Gary woke up from that nightmare feeling like his daughter was no longer on earth and sadly,
that gut feeling did turn into a reality. So in May of 2016, Gary was still dealing with the fact that
Jason Lowe was clearly manipulating his daughter and that same phone call charade went on and on and
where Jason wouldn't let him speak to Jesse. Well, eventually, Gary reached his breaking point
and he decided that if nobody had heard from Jesse on Mother's Day or by Mother's Day,
then he was going to take action and that is exactly what happened Mother's Day rolls around
and she didn't reach out to her mom or her stepmom. Gary called Jason trying to get some
type of explanation. He knew that this was absolutely not like his daughter and Jason gave him some
bullshit lie about not knowing where she was because the two of them were not co-dependent.
Okay, bro. And that was enough for him to be like, okay, whatever I am going to just go there myself
so he gets in this truck and he drives 11 hours to Dallas to find his daughter himself. And he
actually told Jason that he was on his way and said that if Jesse wasn't there, when he arrived,
he would be in huge trouble and he wasn't joking. And when he got there, he went right to the
Richardson Police Department and reported Jesse missing, which kicked off an investigation right away.
Now, as soon as authorities were aware that there was concern over Jesse's whereabouts,
a welfare check was performed at the apartment that she and Jason shared. And that's when Jason
told them that he last saw her that day on May 8th around 8 in the morning. He said that she
had left in her gray accurate, but that he couldn't reach her because she didn't have a cell phone.
And since there didn't appear to be any signs of a struggle or anything, the officers left.
While then on May 9th, an officer returned to the apartment and he did notice something strange
this time. He watched as Jason pulled into his garage and he saw that the front grill on his
outy was missing, plus his car was super muddy. When he was asked about it though, Jason said that
he had taken his car mudding two weeks prior now. I don't know who the hell would take their luxury
SUV mudding. Maybe some people out there, but I don't know. That's not adding up a lot to me.
That was his excuse though. Now, as for why he himself, his person was muddy. He had an explanation
for that of course. He said that he decided to try and look for Jesse himself by walking some of
the trails that he knew she liked going on and that he got dirty from chasing after his dog after
she got loose. Now mind you, the dog was clean, so this immediately isn't adding up. And then the
officer observed that he had some cuts on his hand. And once again, Jason tried to blame the dog
for this. That poor dog was just catching strays left and right. And the saga of concerning
discoveries didn't end there. On May 10th, another detective was assigned to the case who reached out
to Jason via phone and his story changed. Wow. Before he said that he had lasting Jesse on May 8th
around 8am, but now he was saying it was actually closer to 10am. And then when the detective went to
his apartment, the vibes were still off. Jason just didn't seem worried about her being missing
at all. And he gave that same ridiculous explanation about them not being codependent. And it was
one of those situations where they could obviously tell he was lying, but the proof wasn't there.
It wasn't obvious. That is until they learned that the accurate that Jason claim Jesse left in
had been sold three weeks earlier. Yeah. Jason sold that car. Can you believe that? I mean,
this idiot really thought that they weren't going to look into the car that he would be able to
just sell it off. And it was gone. Poof, hands are clean of the car. Okay, dude. So yeah, at that
point, they know that he is 1000% full of shit. So on May 12th, they returned to the apartment.
And that's when they busted his ass. When they got there, they saw that there was a plate on
the counter with a line of cocaine on it. So yeah, that was enough to bring him in. Before doing
that though, they asked Jason's permission to search the apartment. And interestingly enough,
he actually agreed. He said that was fine. Probably just trying to look less guilty, right? But
the one thing he said is that they couldn't go into the garage because it was a quote shared
space. Whatever that means. Well, long story short, he ends up letting them go in there anyway.
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it was in the inside as well. His Audi was caked in mud, and that missing rail was sitting in the
back seat. Jason tried to say that it fell off his car and got stuck in the mud while he was
looking for her. But of course, by this point, no one is buying his shit anymore, especially after
Blue Star testing lit up his trunk, indicating the presence of blood. Not to mention the fact that
there was a leak coming from under the car, and that tested presumptive positive for blood as well.
The car was also a mess, to say the least. And what's interesting is a neighbor reported
seeing Jason trying to clean it on the night of May 7th. But of course, his messiness, all of his
mistakes were investigators gain. Because of the drugs, the plate of cocaine that he was having
for his meal, they were initially able to bring him into the station and charge him with possession.
And one day later, despite not having Jesse's body, they used evidence from his garage to
charge him with her murder. And when they questioned him on the day of his arrest, Jason could not have
seen any less interested in helping them. But surprisingly, one week later, he pointed
investigators to where they could find her body. Before that, there was a genuine fear that they
would never find her given the limitless number of places where her body could have been dumped.
But he did give that information up. But what seconds me about what he told them was that when
he described where her body was, he referred to her as an it. He said it can be found 250 yards
up the fence line. Isn't that just fucking horrible? The whole thing is just so sickening. I mean,
this guy does not have a heart whatsoever. And what's even more disturbing is the condition that
she was found in. Going off of Jason's word, they found Jesse's body on May 19th on a remote
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strap tied around her torso. She was partially bubble wrapped and a black truck liner and a flat
piece of tin were laid over her body in an effort to conceal her. Investigators also found two towels,
plastic gloves, and a packet of ratchet straps. Parts of Jason's car could also be found still stuck
in the mud. And her condition was so severe that it took a week for a medical examiner to
officially even identify the remains as hers. And as I mentioned at the beginning of this episode,
they were also unable to determine an exact cause of death for Jesse. And that was due to the level
of decomposition she had suffered. They were only able to list it as homicidal violence. And I
don't think anything could have prepared her loved ones for this level of devastation. And
this is another heartbreaking part, but Gary felt like it was his duty to read the autopsy report.
And I totally see where he's coming from, and I respect him for that. But that must have just
been unbelievably hard. And listening to him talk about that report and how impacted he was
by what he read was just so horrific. The whole thing makes me sick. Gary is a retired firefighter.
And I guess some of his old buddies were able to be there to help retrieve her remains. And
I'm not sure if that made it any better. But I bet that support did mean the world to him.
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there was a candlelight vigil held in an effort for people to pray for her safe return.
But after that discovery was made, prayers of healing were given instead. And I learned that
she and her brother Brandon had this promise to one another that whichever sibling died first,
the other sibling would throw them a festival. And they both loved live music and sort of joked
that they wouldn't want their funerals to be sad. So in June of that year, he threw a love
light festival for her, which included art and music and it ended with over 900 people attending
a service that celebrated her 27 years of life. And all anyone wanted, as the weeks and months
went on, was for Jesse's killer to be brought to justice. Gary especially. I don't think rage
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And I think everyone was feeling very on edge and anxious about the trial. And if justice was
going to come because, you know, as I explained earlier, the case was very circumstantial. There was
no definitive crime scene. There was no cause of death. And there was no clear motive. Just her body.
That's all they had. So that was obviously going to make it harder for the prosecution. But
the defense had an issue as well because Jason had ended up making a confession of sorts. It turns
out that when he was first charged with murder, a friend of his named Tommy visited him in jail because
quite frankly, he didn't want to believe it was true and get this. So from May 1st to May 4th,
Jason and Jesse were house sitting for Tommy and his wife. And when they returned from their trip,
they noticed a few things felt off. For example, several things were missing, including towels and
a blue fitted sheet plus Tommy's tools were freshly cleaned and laid out neatly in his garage.
And I'm sure you can already see where this is going. But when news of the arrest came out,
Tommy wanted to ask Jason himself, if anything had happened at his house, like, you know, did he
kill Jesse there? Because it certainly looked like that was a possibility. And you want to know what
Jason said to him in a recorded jailhouse call. He said, I can't make that promise. Now he also
said that nothing of substance happened there. So you don't have to worry about that. It's very
minimal. That was his quote. And then he told him that the only thing he is guilty of is quote
criminal negligence. So he straight up admitted that he was with Jesse when she died. And I'm sure
this call is what led to Jason's confession about where he left her body. I mean, if he's on tape
saying that he was with her, obviously he damn well knew where she was buried. And I'll get into
the story of what he says happened here in a minute. But first, with the discovery of this call,
the defense had a big decision to make. And that decision was whether or not Jason should testify
at his own trial. And you know, at the end of the day, that call was pretty damning. And they had
to weigh if it would help their case to have him speak or if it would hurt his case. They even
conducted a full on mock trial to see what the mock jury would say. And when they had Jason
testify in that, the jury found him not guilty. So they end up deciding to go ahead and put him
on the stand in his own trial. Now his trial officially began in September of 2017. And Jesse's
family were there to hopefully witness her killer being brought to justice. The trial spanned
several days when many witnesses taking the stand and among those testifying was Gary. And him
even going to the trial was a big deal. It was his first time going on a plane in 30 years. But
of course, he was going to do anything he needed to do to be there for his daughter. And he was so
nervous for the trial in general. He said that his hands were shaking so much on the stand that
he was worried that people were going to be able to see it. But it was so crucial that he was there.
His testimony was so important. And it helped to paint a picture of what was going on in Jesse's
life at the time of her murder. And the picture that the prosecution was painting was that Jason
was a pathological liar with a drug problem who had a history of abusing women. And they didn't
end up taking the stand, but the state did track down two of his ex-girlfriends who have publicly
stated that Jason was an abusive partner. And he not only did the same thing he did to Jesse and
pulled them away from their families, but one of them says that Jason also tried to kill her.
There was an incident where he pushed her down. He sat on her and then he covered her nose and
mouth and literally told her, I'm killing you. And I think that would have been very impactful
for the jury to hear. But the state decided that their testimony likely wouldn't have been
admissible. But the prosecution was still feeling confident about their case, especially considering
the fact that Jason admitted he was there when Jesse died. And when you look at the evidence,
it just tells a horrifying story. I mean, even though they couldn't say where she was killed,
or how she was killed, the evidence pointed to the fact that Jason not only murdered her,
but that he left her body to rot in the back of his outie for days before finally dumping her
in that field. The smell of decay that was coming from his car could have only happened if her
body had been in there for an extended amount of time. And to add insult to it all, prosecution
said that while her body was just laying inside his car in the garage, Jason was texting from her
phone to make it seem like she was still alive. And not only that, you guys, but this sick
fucking freak was also sexting at least five other women during this time. That's right,
after he murdered Jesse, a woman who he claims he loved. He was getting his rocks off to
these other random girls. And yeah, I'd say that the prosecution did a really good job of
painting a pretty clear picture of Jason. And the defense on the other hand, of course, was quick
to try and spin the story. And their story was that it was all a horrible accident. When Jason
took the stand, he described his version of events, which was that while house sitting for their
friends, he and Jesse decided to take GHB, also known as roofies, as an aphrodisiac. And while
attempting to have sex in the shower, Jesse slipped and hit her head. And he said that she started
feeling hot and dizzy afterwards. But rather than go see a doctor, they decided to go to sleep.
But when he woke up the following morning, she was laying on his chest on responsive. And instead
of immediately calling 911, like any normal human being, he says that he panicked and tried to
cover it up. He even testified that his drug dealer knocked on the door as this was all happening
and that he helped him roll her up in a bedsheet and put her in the trunk. And he did admit to
leaving her in his truck for four days. And he also admitted to the sexting. His attorneys tried to
say that he had an addiction to sexting the same way that they say he had been addicted to drugs
from the time that he was a teenager. Obviously, they're trying to humanize Jason and
get some sympathy from the jury as best as they could. And he really tried to sell the idea that
he and Jesse were madly in love. He even tried to say that they were planning to buy house together
and get married, which is just a bunch of bullshit if you ask me. I honestly could have guessed it
before I, you know, researched this case and found that out for myself. It's, you know, a tale
is old as time. We've definitely seen something like this many times before. Yeah, that's a story
that he panicked and didn't intentionally kill her. And they were hopeful that since there wasn't
any direct evidence that point into homicide that maybe the jury just wouldn't find him guilty
in the end. They also threw him a Hail Mary by telling the jury that Jason was the one that led
them to her remains. They said that he did it for the sake of her family, which is wildly offensive
that they would even say that for the sake of their family. Fuck out of here. And that's not even
the truth either. Obviously, he didn't lead them to her remains, but he only did so to cut himself
a deal. And that deal was that if he was convicted, he would only have to serve 50 years in prison
instead of the 99 he was facing, which is absolutely infuriating. And this was actually the first time
that Jessie's family was hearing of this too. Originally, they weren't told who exactly led them
to her remains, only that it was a reliable source. Now, me personally, and I know the majority of
you are going to agree with me, I think that 50 years is a slap in the face to this family,
especially after what he did and how he disrespected her after he did what he did. It's extremely
frustrating. I understand that they have to cut these deals to get what they need. I mean, they
didn't have much to work with and they needed at least her body. So I get that it deals a deal,
but it doesn't change how infuriating that is. And I cannot imagine how her loved ones feel about
that. But yeah, after several hours of deliberation, a jury found Jason Lowe guilty of murder,
and he was ultimately sentenced to 50 years in prison. It makes me sick to say only 50 years,
it's so wrong, but Gary was able to give a victim impact statement and he had both of Jason's
exes standing next to him in solidarity. And ultimately, he said that there is no forgiving
evil. And that's exactly what Jason is. Jesse was one of the most special people on the planet,
to me. I mean, I was a dad. Gary Vardwell was one of the key witnesses in the trial of Jason Lowe,
the man now convicted of murdering his daughter. We the jury find the defendant guilty of murder when
they finally announced the verdict. My heart was just beating out of my chest. It was a year and four
months ago, Vardwell reported his daughter, Jesse missing. Police questioned Lowe, her boyfriend,
and found evidence of decaying flesh in his car. He later led them to find her body in a field
in Farmersville. There's a deafening silence in my life. I don't know if you can understand
what I mean by that. Since Jesse's been gone, it seems like the world has turned off. She kept
my heart beating. She kept me smiling. At the end of trial, today, Vardwell gave a statement,
deliberately staring into Lowe's eyes as he read it. When you look in his eyes, there is nothing there.
Vardwell says he's seen no sign of remorse. Just one reason he has no intention to forgive.
People say, forgive this person. You're not going to get better until you forgive this person.
I don't look at him like a person. He's the devil. And I don't want to know how in the hell
you forgive the devil. Now from all of the interviews that I've seen of Gary, it sounds like Gary
feels that he's not necessarily responsible for what happened because obviously he is not. But
it seems like he feels he wished he had done more to get Jesse out of that situation. And I know that he,
you know, as we discussed earlier, had a really hard time with the fact that he didn't know that
she was even going to Texas. And he wishes he could have talked her out of it before she even went.
I just feel so bad for him that he carries that because I don't think anyone can ever really
anticipate how horrible something is going to turn out. You have no idea what's going to happen.
And he was so isolated from her that he, I mean, he had no idea what was even going on.
I know that there is nothing I can say to Gary to help that pain that he feels. Those are his
feelings. And I think as a parent, I'd probably feel the same way. I just wanted to say that, you know,
from an outsider's point of view that Gary, you are not responsible for what happened at all.
The only person who is responsible for any of this is that monster Jason. And I completely agree with
you that you cannot forgive evil. And that really is what he is. I genuinely believe that Gary did
everything he could. And he is a wonderful, wonderful father. I mean, he even bought her a plane ticket
to come back to Alabama only a month after she moved to Texas to be with Jason. And I guess Jesse
and Jason had this big fight about her having an affair and getting pregnant by someone else before
moving. I don't know if any of that's true, but according to him, she had an abortion and Jason
blew up at her and kicked her out of the house. And she had to go spend a night with a friend. And
while Gary said that Jesse called him and told him that he was right about Jason and that she
should never have moved to Texas. And so he booked her a flight so that she could get away.
But I guess she never showed up for the flight. And she ended up telling her dad that Jason
apologized him that she was going to go stay with him. So all of that is just really difficult to
work through in hindsight. This whole case is so horrific. I mean, it never ceases to
disturb me how inhumane some people can be. And I know we don't know the motive here, but it's just
for what? Why take another life? Jason seemed to have nothing to gain from this. He's just
a very sick, sick person, a monster. Jesse deserved so much more. And I'd say if there's
anything to take away from her story above all else, and there is many things, it's important to
remember what abuse looks like. I think more and more people are starting to recognize the
signs to recognize isolation as a form of abuse. But it definitely needs to be talked about more
because it just doesn't happen the same. And it doesn't happen all at once. It can be very slow.
It can be very fast. It can be methodical. It can happen in an instant. I'm going to put some
links to resources in the description of this episode for anyone out there who is in a position
where they feel that they may need help, that they may be in an abusive relationship,
or for those who fear someone in their life is, and you don't know where to go, what to do,
there are people out there who can help you work through that and form a plan and just recognize
the signs. And if any of you guys have words of wisdom or resources that you have found helpful,
please feel free to link those as well or share them. I don't know if you can link them, but
on episodes like this there are so many amazing people in the comments that come forward to tell
their stories or to encourage others. And it's really cool the community that we have here on this show.
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True Crime with Kendall Rae

True Crime with Kendall Rae

True Crime with Kendall Rae