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The yellow wallpaper by Charlotte Perkins Gilman.
It is very seldom that mere ordinary people
like John and myself secure ancestral halls
for the summer.
A colonial mansion, a hereditary estate.
I would say a haunted house
and reach the height of romantic felicity
but that would be asking too much of fate.
Still, I will proudly declare
that there is something queer about it.
As why should it be let so cheaply
and why have stood so long untendented?
John laughs at me of course
but one expects that in marriage.
John is practical in the extreme.
He has no patience with faith
and intense horror of superstition
and he scoffs openly at any talk of things
not to be felt and seen and put down in figures.
John is a physician and perhaps.
I would not say it to a living soul of course
but this is dead paper
and a great relief to my mind.
Perhaps that is one reason I do not get well faster.
You see he does not believe I am sick.
And what can one do?
If a physician of high-standing
and one's own husband assures friends and relatives
that there is really nothing the matter with one
but temporary nervous depression,
a slight hysterical tendency,
what is one to do?
My brother is also a physician
and also of high-standing
and he says the same thing.
So I take phosphates or phosphates
whichever it is,
and tonics and journeys and air and exercise
and I'm absolutely forbidden to work
until I am well again.
Personally I disagree with their ideas.
Personally I believe that congenial work
with excitement and change would do me good
but what is one to do.
I did write for a while in spite of them
but it does exhaust me a good deal
having to be so sly about it
or else meet with heavy opposition.
I sometimes fancy that in my condition
if I had less opposition
and more society and stimulus.
But John says the very worst thing I can do
is to think about my condition
and I confess
it always makes me feel bad
so I will let it alone and talk about the house.
The most beautiful place
it is quite alone
standing well back from the road
quite three miles from the village.
It makes me think of English places that you read about
for their hedges and walls and gates that lock
and lots of separate little houses
for the gardeners and people.
There is a delicious garden
I never saw such a garden
large and shady
full of box-bordered paths
and lined with long grape-covered arbours
with seats under them.
There were greenhouses too
but they are all broken now.
There was some legal trouble I believe
something about airs and coheirs
anyhow the place has been empty for years.
That spoils my ghostliness I'm afraid
but I don't care.
There is something strange about the house
I can feel it.
I even sensed so to John one moonlight evening
but he said what I felt was a draft
and shut the window.
I get unreasonably angry with John sometimes.
I'm sure I never used to be so sensitive.
I think it is due to this nervous condition.
But John says if I feel so
I shall neglect proper self-control
so I take pains to control myself
before him at least
and that makes me very tired.
I don't like our room a bit.
I wanted one downstairs
that opened on the piazza
and had roses all over the window
and such pretty old-fashioned chint-sangings.
But John would not hear of it.
He said there was only one window
and not room for two beds
and no near room for him if he took another.
He is very careful in loving
and hardly lets me stir without special direction.
I have a schedule prescription
for each hour in the day.
He takes all care from me
and so I feel basically ungrateful
not to value it more.
He said we came here so early on my account
and that I was to have perfect rest
and all the air I could get.
Your exercise depends on your strength, my dear.
Said he.
And your food, somewhat on your appetite.
But air, you can absorb all the time.
So we took the nursery at the top of the house.
It is a big airy room,
the whole floor nearly,
with windows that look always
and air and sunshine galore.
It was nursery first
and then play room and gymnasium,
I should judge,
for the windows are barred for little children
and there are rings and things in the walls.
The paint and paper,
look as if a boy's school had used it.
It is stripped off, the paper,
in great patches,
all run the head of my bed
about as far as I can reach
and in a place on the other side of the room, low down.
I never saw such a worse paper in my life.
One of those sprawling flamboyant patterns
committing every artistic sin.
It is dull enough to confuse the eye and following,
pronounced enough to constantly irritate and provoke study.
And when you follow the lame uncertain curves
for a little distance,
they suddenly commit suicide,
plunge off at outrageous angles,
destroy themselves in unheard of contradictions.
The colour is repellent,
almost revolting,
a smoldering, unclean yellow,
strangely faded by the slow turning sunlight.
It is a dull, yet lurid orange in some places,
a sickly sulfur tint in others.
No wonder the children hated it.
I should hate it myself
if I had to live in this room long.
Oh, there comes John,
and I must put this away.
He hates to have me write a word.
We have been here two weeks
and I haven't felt like writing before
since that first day.
I'm sitting by the window now,
up in this atrocious nursery,
and there is nothing to hinder my writing
as much as I please,
save a lack of strength.
John is away all day
and even some nights
when his cases are serious.
I'm glad my case is not serious.
But these nervous troubles are dreadfully depressing.
John does not know how much I really suffer.
He knows there is no reason to suffer
and that satisfies him.
Of course, it is only nervousness.
It does weigh on me so not to do my duty in any way.
It meant to be such a help to John,
such a real rest and comfort.
And here I am,
a comparative burden already.
Nobody would believe what it is
to do what little I am able,
to dress and entertain and order things.
It is fortunate Mary is so good with the baby.
Such a dear baby.
Yet I cannot be with him.
It makes me so nervous.
I suppose John never was nervous in his life.
He laughs at me so about this wallpaper.
At first, he meant to repaper the room.
But afterwards,
he said that I was letting it get the better of me
and that nothing was worse for a nervous patient
than to give way to such fancies.
He said that after the wallpaper was changed,
it would be the heavy bedstead and then the barred windows
and then that gate at the head of the stairs and so on.
We know the place is doing you good,
he said.
And really dear,
I don't care to renovate the house just for three months rental.
Then do let us go downstairs,
I said.
There are such pretty rooms there.
Then he took me in his arms
and called me a blessed little goose
and said he would go down to the cellar if I wished
and have it whitewashed into the bargain.
But he is right enough about the beds and windows and things.
It is an area in comfortable room as anyone need wish
and of course I would not be so silly as to make him uncomfortable
just for a whim.
I'm getting really quite fond of the big room
all but that horrid paper.
Out of one window, I can see the garden.
Those mysterious deep shaded arbers,
the right has old fashioned flowers and bushes and gnarly trees.
Out of another, I get a lovely view of the bay
and a little private wall belonging to the estate.
There is a beautiful shaded lane that runs down there from the house.
I always fancy I see people walking in these numerous paths and arbers
but John has cautioned me not to give way to fancy in the least.
He says that with my imaginative power and habit of storymaking
a nervous weakness like mine is surely told manner of excited fancies
and that I ought to use my will and good sense to check the tendency.
So I try.
I think sometimes that if I were only well enough to write a little
it would relieve the press of ideas and rest me.
But I find I get pretty tired when I try.
It is so discouraging not to have any advice and companionship about my work.
When I get really well,
John says we will ask cousin Henry and Julia down for a long visit.
But he says he would soon put fireworks in my pillowcases
to let me have those stimulating people about now.
I wish I could get well faster.
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This paper looks to me as if it knew what a vicious influence it had.
There is a recurrent spot where the pattern lulls like a broken neck.
And two bulbous eyes stare at you upside down.
I get positively angry with the impertinence of it.
And the everlastingness.
Up and down.
And sideways they crawl.
And those absurd unblinking eyes are everywhere.
There is one place where two breaths didn't match.
And the eyes go all up and down the line, one a little higher than the other.
I never saw so much expression in an inanimate thing before.
And we all know how much expression they have.
I used to lie awake as a child.
And get more entertainment and terror out of blank walls and plain furniture
than most children could find in a toy store.
I remember what a kindly wink the knobs of our big old bureau used to have.
And there was one chair that always seemed like a strong friend.
I used to feel that if any of the things looked too fierce,
I could always hop into that chair and be safe.
The furniture in this room is no worse than in harmonious however,
for we had to bring it all from downstairs.
I suppose when this was used as a playroom,
they had to take the nursery things out.
And no wonder I never saw such ravages as the children have made here.
The wallpaper, as I said before, is torn off in spots
and it's sticketh closer than a brother.
They must have had perseverance as well as hatred.
Then the floor is scratched and gouged and splintered.
The plaster itself is dug out here and there.
And this great heavy bed, which is all we found in the room,
looks as if it had been through the walls.
But I don't mind it a bit.
Only the paper.
There comes John Sister, such a dear girl she is,
and so careful of me, I must not let her find me writing.
She is a perfect and enthusiastic housekeeper
and hopes for no better profession.
I very believe she thinks it is the writing which made me sick.
But I can write when she is out and see her a long way off from these windows.
There is one that commands the road,
a lovely shaded winding road,
and one that just looks off over the country.
A lovely country too full of great elms and velvet meadows.
This wallpaper has a kind of sub pattern in a different shade,
a particularly irritating one,
where you can only see it in certain lights and not clearly then.
But in the places where it isn't faded,
and where the sun is just so,
I can see a strange provoking, formless sort of figure
that seems to skulk about,
behind that silly and conspicuous front design.
Oh, there's Sister on the stairs.
Well, the Fourth of July is over,
the people are gone, and I am tired out.
John thought it might do me good to see a little company,
so we just had mother and nearly in the children down for a week.
Of course, I didn't do a thing.
Jenny sees to everything now, but it tied me all the same.
John says, if I don't pick up faster,
he shall send me to wear Mitchell in the fall.
But I don't want to go there at all.
I had a friend who was in his hands once,
and she says he is just like John and my brother, only more so.
Besides, it is such an undertaking to go so far.
I don't feel as if it was worthwhile to turn my hand over for anything,
and I'm getting dreadfully fretful and quarrelous.
I cry at nothing, and cry most of the time.
Of course, I don't when John is here, or anybody else,
but when I'm alone, and I am alone a good deal just now.
John is kept in town very often by serious cases,
and Jenny is good and lets me alone when I want her to.
So I walk a little in the garden, or down that lovely lane,
sit on the porch under the roses,
and lie down up here a good deal.
I'm getting really fond of the room in spite of the wallpaper.
Perhaps because of the wallpaper.
It dwells in my mind, so, I lie here on this great, immovable bed.
It is nailed down, I believe, and follow that pattern about by the hour.
It is as good as gymnastics I assure you.
I start, we'll say, at the bottom, down in the corner over there,
where it has not been touched.
And I determine, for the thousandth time,
that I will follow that pointless pattern to some sort of a conclusion.
I know a little of the Prince' pull of design,
and I know this thing was not arranged on any laws of radiation,
or alternation, or repetition, or symmetry,
or anything else I ever heard of.
It is repeated, of course, by the breaths, but not otherwise.
Looked at in one way, each breath stands alone.
The bloated curves and flourishes,
a kind of debased romanesque with delirium tremens,
go waddling up and down in isolated columns of faturity.
But on the other hand, they connect diagonally.
And the sprawling outlines run off in great slanting waves of optic horror,
like a lot of wallowing seaweeds in full chase.
The whole thing goes horizontally, too.
At least it seems so,
and I exhaust myself in trying to distinguish
the order of its going in that direction.
They have used a horizontal breadth for a freeze,
and that adds wonderfully to the confusion.
There is one end of the room, where it is almost intact,
and there, when the cross lights fade,
and the low sun shines directly upon it,
I can almost fancy radiation after all.
The interminable grotesques seem to form around a common centre,
and rush off in headlong plunges of equal distraction.
It makes me tired to follow it.
I'll take a nap, I guess.
I don't know why I should write this.
I don't want to.
I don't feel able.
And I know John would think it absurd,
but I must say what I feel and think in some way,
it is such a relief,
but the effort is getting to be greater than the relief.
Half the time now, I'm awfully lazy,
and lie down ever so much.
John says I mustn't lose my strength,
and has me take cod liver oil and lots of tonics and things
to say nothing of ale and wine and rare meat.
Dear John, he loves me very dearly,
and hates to have me sick.
I tried to have a real earnest, reasonable talk with him the other day,
and tell him how I wish he would let me go
and make a visit to cousin Henry and Julia,
but he said I wasn't able to go,
nor able to stand it after I got there,
and I did not make out a very good case for myself
for I was crying before I had finished.
It is getting to be a great effort for me to think straight,
just this nervous weakness, I suppose.
And dear John, gathered me up in his arms,
and just carried me upstairs and laid me on the bed,
and sat by me and read to me till it tied my head.
He said I was his darling and his comfort,
and all he had, and that I must take care of myself for his sake,
and keep well.
He says no one but myself can help me out of it,
that I must use my will and self-control
and not let any silly fancies run away with me.
There's one comfort, the baby is well and happy,
and does not have to occupy this nursery
with the horrid wallpaper.
If we had not used it, that blessed child would have.
What a fortunate escape!
Why, I wouldn't have a child of mine,
an impressionable little thing,
living such a room for worlds.
I never thought of it before,
but it is lucky that John kept me here after all.
I could stand it so much easier than a baby, you see.
Of course, I never mention it to them anymore.
I am too wise, but I keep watch of it all the same.
There are things in that paper that nobody knows but me,
or ever will.
Behind that outside pattern,
the dim shapes get clearer every day.
It is always the same shape, only very numerous.
It is like a woman,
stooping down, and creeping about,
behind that pattern.
I don't like it a bit.
I wonder...
I begin to think.
I wish John would take me away from here.
It is so hard to talk with John about my case
because he is so wise,
and because he loves me so.
But I tried it last night.
It was moonlight.
The moon shines in all around,
just as the sun does.
I hate to see it sometimes.
It creeps so slowly,
and always comes in by one window or another.
John was asleep,
and I hated to wake in him,
so I kept still,
and watched the moonlight,
on that undulating wallpaper,
till I felt creepy.
The faint figure behind,
seemed to shake the pattern,
just as if she wanted to get out.
I got up softly,
and went to feel,
and see if the paper did move.
And when I came back,
John was awake.
What is it, little girl?
He said.
Don't go walking about like that.
You'll get cold.
I thought it was a good time to talk,
so I told him that I really was not gaining here,
and that I wished he would take me away.
Why, darling, said he.
Our lease will be up in three weeks,
and I can't see how to leave before.
The repairs are not done at home,
and I cannot possibly leave town just now.
Of course, if you were in any danger,
I could, and would.
But you really are better, dear,
whether you can see it or not.
I am a doctor, dear,
and I know you are gaining flesh and colour.
Your appetite is better.
I have a really much easier about you.
I don't weigh a bit more,
said I,
nor as much,
and my appetite may be better
in the evening when you are here,
but it is worse in the morning
and you are away.
Bless her little heart,
said he,
with a big hug.
She shall be as sick as she pleases.
But now,
let's improve the shining hours
by going to sleep.
I'll talk about it in the morning.
And you won't go away,
I asked, gloomily.
Why, how can I dear?
It is only three weeks more,
and then we will take a nice little trip
of a few days,
while Jenny is getting the house ready.
Really dear,
you are better.
Better in body, perhaps.
I began,
and stopped short.
For he sat up straight,
and looked at me
with such a stern,
reproachful look,
that I could not say another word.
My darling,
said he,
I beg of you,
for my sake,
and for our child's sake,
as well as for your own,
that you will never,
for one instant,
let that idea
enter your mind.
There is nothing so dangerous,
so fascinating
to a temperament like yours,
it is a false and foolish fancy,
can you not trust me
as a physician
when I tell you so?
So, of course,
I said no more on that score,
and we went to sleep before long.
He thought I was asleep first,
but I wasn't,
and lay there for hours,
trying to decide,
whether that front pattern,
and the back pattern,
really did move together,
or separately.
On a pattern like this,
by daylight,
there is a lack of sequence,
a defiance of law,
that is a constant irritant,
to a normal mind.
The colour is hideous enough,
and unreliable enough,
and infuriating enough,
but the pattern,
is torturing.
You think you have mastered it,
but just as you get well underway
in following,
it turns a back sum-asult,
and there you are.
It slaps you in the face,
you down, and tramples upon you.
It is like a bad dream.
The outside pattern,
is a florid arabesque,
reminding one of a fungus.
If you could imagine a toadstool,
in joints,
an interminable string of toadstools,
budding, and sprouting,
and endless convolutions,
why, that is something like it,
that is,
sometimes.
There is one marked
peculiarity about this paper.
A thing nobody seems to notice,
but myself.
And that is,
that it changes,
as the light changes,
when the sun shoots in
through the east window,
I always watch for that first long,
straight ray.
It changes so quickly,
that I never can quite believe it.
That is why I watch it,
always.
By moonlight,
the moon shines in all night
when there was a moon.
I wouldn't know it was the same paper.
At night,
in any kind of light,
in twilight,
calendar light,
lamp light,
and worst of all,
by moonlight,
it becomes bars,
the outside pattern I mean,
and the woman behind it,
is as plain as can be.
I didn't realise,
for a long time,
what the thing was,
that showed behind,
that dim sub-pattern.
But now,
I am quite sure it is a woman.
By daylight,
she is subdued,
quiet.
I fancy it is the pattern
that keeps her so still,
it is so puzzling,
it keeps me quiet by the hour.
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John says it's good for me,
and to sleep all I can.
Indeed, he started the habit
by making me lie down
for an hour after each meal.
It is a very bad habit I'm convinced.
For you see,
I don't sleep.
And that,
cultivates deceit.
For I don't tell them I'm awake.
Oh no!
The fact is,
I'm getting a little afraid of John.
He seems very queer sometimes,
and even Jenny has an inexplicable look.
It strikes me occasionally,
just as a scientific hypothesis,
that perhaps,
it's the paper.
I have watched John,
when he did not know I was looking,
and come into the room suddenly,
on the most innocent excuses,
and I've caught him several times,
looking at the paper.
And Jenny too,
I caught Jenny with her hand on it once.
She didn't know I was in the room,
and when I asked her in a quiet,
a very quiet voice,
with the most restrained man of possible,
what she was doing with the paper.
She turned around,
as if she had been caught stealing,
and looked quite angry,
and asked me why I should frighten her so.
She said that the paper,
stained everything it touched,
that she had found yellow smooches,
on all my clothes,
and John's,
and she wished we would be more careful.
Did not that sound innocent?
But I know she was studying the pattern,
and I am determined,
that nobody shall find it out,
but myself.
Life is very much more exciting now,
than it used to be.
You see, I have something more to expect,
to look forward to,
to watch.
I really do eat better,
and I'm more quiet than I was.
John is so pleased to see me improve.
He laughed a little the other day,
and said I seemed to be flourishing,
in spite of my wallpaper.
I turned it off with a laugh.
I had no intention of telling him
it was because of the wallpaper.
He would make fun of me.
He might even want to take me away.
And I don't want to leave now,
until I have found it out.
There is a week more,
and I think that will be enough.
I'm feeling ever so much better.
I didn't sleep much at night,
for it is so interesting to watch developments.
But I sleep a good deal in the daytime.
In the daytime,
it is tiresome and perplexing.
There are new shoots on the fungus,
and new shades of yellow all over it.
I cannot keep count of them,
though I have tried conscientiously.
It is the strangest yellow,
that wallpaper.
It makes me think of all the yellow things I ever saw.
Not beautiful ones like buttercups,
but old, foul, bad yellow things.
But there is something else about that paper,
the smell.
I noticed it the moment we came into the room.
But with so much air and sun,
it was not bad.
Now we have had a week of fog and rain,
and whether the windows are open or not,
the smell is here.
It creeps all over the house.
I find it hovering in the dining room,
skulking in the parlour,
hiding in the hall,
lying in wait for me on the stairs.
It gets into my hair.
Even when I go to ride,
if I turn my head suddenly and surprise it,
there is that smell.
Such a peculiar odour, too.
I have spent hours in trying to analyse it,
to find what it smelled like.
It is not bad, at first,
and very gentle.
But quite the subtlest, most enduring odour I ever met.
In this damp weather, it is awful.
I wake up in the night and find it hanging over me.
It used to disturb me at first.
I thought seriously of burning the house to reach the smell.
But now I am used to it.
The only thing I can think of,
is that it is like the colour of the paper,
a yellow smell.
There is a very funny mark on this wall,
low down near the mop ward,
a streak that runs around the room.
It goes behind every piece of furniture,
except the bed,
a long, straight, even smooch.
As if it had been rubbed over,
and over.
I wonder how it was done,
and who did it,
and what they did at four.
Round, and round,
and round,
round, and round,
and round.
It makes me dizzy.
I really have discovered something at last,
through watching so much at night,
when it changes so,
I have finally found out.
The front pattern does move,
and no wonder,
the woman behind,
shakes it.
Sometimes I think there are a great many women behind,
and sometimes only one,
and she crawls around fast,
and her crawling shakes it all over.
Then in the very bright spots,
she keeps still,
and in the very shady spots,
she just takes hold of the bars
and shakes them hard,
and she is all the time trying to climb through,
but nobody could climb through that pattern,
it's triangle so.
I think that is why it has so many heads,
they get through,
and then the pattern strungles them off,
and turns them upside down,
and makes their eyes white.
If those heads were covered,
or taken off,
it would not be half so bad.
I think that woman gets out,
in the daytime,
and I'll tell you why,
privately, I've seen her.
I can see her out of every one of my windows.
It is the same woman I know for she is always creeping,
and most women do not creep by daylight.
I see her on that long road under the trees,
creeping along,
and when a carriage comes,
she hides under the blackberry vines.
I don't blame her a bit.
I must be very humiliating to be caught creeping by daylight.
I always lock the door when I creep by daylight.
I can't do it at night,
for I know John would suspect something at once.
And John is so queer now,
that I don't want to irritate him.
I wish he would take another room.
Besides, I don't want anybody
to get that woman out at night,
but myself.
I often wonder,
if I could see her out of all the windows at once.
But, turn as fast as I can,
I can only see out of one at one time.
And though I always see her,
she may be able to creep faster than I can turn.
I have watched her sometimes away off in the open country,
creeping as fast as a cloud shadow in a high wind.
If only that top pattern
could be gotten off from the under one.
I mean to try it,
little by little.
I have found out another funny thing,
but I shan't tell it this time.
It does not do to trust people too much.
There are only two more days to get this paper off.
And I believe John is beginning to notice.
I don't like the look in his eyes.
And I heard him ask Jenny a lot of professional questions about me.
She had a very good report to give.
She said I slept a good deal in the daytime.
John knows I don't sleep very well at night,
for all I'm so quiet.
She asked me all sorts of questions too,
and pretended to be very loving and kind,
as if I couldn't see through him.
Still, I don't wonder he acts so,
sleeping under this paper for three months.
It only interests me,
but I feel sure John and Jenny are secretly affected by it.
Hurrah, this is the last day,
but it is enough.
John is to stay in town overnight,
and I won't be out until this evening.
Jenny wanted to sleep with me,
the sly thing,
but I told her I should undoubtedly rest better
for a night all alone.
That was clever, for really,
I wasn't alone a bit.
As soon as it was moonlight,
and that poor thing began to crawl and shake the pattern,
I got up and ran to help her.
I pulled, and she shook.
I shook, and she pulled.
And before morning we had peeled off
yards of that paper,
about as strip as high as my head,
and half around the room.
And then, when the sun came,
and that awful pattern began to laugh at me,
I declared I would finish it today.
We go away tomorrow,
and they are moving all my furniture down again
to leave things as they were before.
Jenny looked at the wall in amazement,
but I told her merrily that I did it
out of pure spite at the vicious thing.
She laughed,
and said she wouldn't mind doing it herself,
but I must not get tired.
How she betrayed herself that time.
But I am here,
and no person touches this paper,
but me,
not alive.
She tried,
to get me out of the room.
It was too patient,
but I said it was so quiet and empty and clean now,
that I believed I would lie down
and sleep all I could,
and not to wake me,
even for dinner.
I would call,
when I woke.
So now she is gone,
and the servants are gone,
and the things are gone,
and there is nothing left,
but that great bedstead
nailed down,
with the canvas mattress we found on it.
We shall sleep downstairs tonight,
and take the boat home tomorrow.
I quite enjoy the room now it is bare again.
How those children did tear about in here.
This bedstead is failing nought,
but I must get to work.
I have locked the door,
and thrown the key down into the front path.
I don't want to go out,
and I don't want to have anybody come in,
till John comes.
I want to astonish him.
I've got a rope up here,
that even Jenny did not find.
If that woman does get out,
and tries to get away,
I can tie her.
But I forgot,
I could not reach far
without anything to stand on.
This bed will not move.
I tried to lift,
and push it,
until I was lame,
and then I got so angry,
I bit off a little piece at one corner,
but it hurt my teeth.
Then I peeled off all the paper
I could reach standing on the floor.
It sticks horribly,
and the pattern just enjoys it.
All those strangled heads,
and bulbous eyes,
and waddling fungus growths
just shriek,
with derision.
I am getting angry enough
to do something desperate.
To jump out of the window,
would be admirable exercise,
but the bars are too strong
to even try.
Besides,
I wouldn't do it.
Of course not.
I know well enough
that a step like that
is improper,
and might be misconstrued.
I don't like to look out of the windows even.
There are so many of those creeping women,
and they creep so fast.
I wonder,
if they all came out of that wallpaper,
as I did.
But I am securely faster now
by my well-hidden rope.
You don't get me out in the road there.
I suppose,
I shall have to get back
behind the pattern
when it comes night.
And that is hard.
It is so pleasant
to be out in this great room,
and creep around as I please.
I don't want to go outside.
I won't.
Even if Jenny asks me to.
For outside,
you have to creep on the ground,
and everything is green,
instead of yellow.
But here,
I can creep smoothly on the floor,
and my shoulder just fits
in that long smootch
around the wall,
so I cannot lose my way.
Why?
There's John at the door.
It's no use, young man.
You can't open it.
How he does call and pound.
Now he's crying for an axe.
It would be a shame to break down
that beautiful door.
John dear.
Said I,
in the gentlest voice.
The key is down by the front steps,
under a plantain leaf.
That silenced him for a few moments.
Then he said,
very quietly indeed.
Open the door, my darling.
I can't.
Said I.
The key is down by the front door,
under a plantain leaf.
Then I said it again,
several times,
very gently,
and slowly,
and said it so often
that he had to go and see,
and he got it, of course,
and came in.
He stopped short by the door.
What is the matter,
he cried?
For God's sake,
what are you doing?
I kept on creeping just the same,
but I looked at him
over my shoulder.
I've got out at last,
said I,
in spite of you and Jane,
and they've pulled off most of the paper,
so you can't,
put me back.
Now why should that man have fainted?
But he did,
and right across my path by the wall,
so that I had to creep over him,
every time.
End of the yellow wallpaper.
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