Tuning Into Your Inner Soundtracks With Britt Matthews

Thank you for waking up with capy ass.

We've come together to a mind, body, and spirit.

So we can turn, go out, make the world a brighter

and sweeter place to live for ourselves and for others.

And today, once again, I'm in with my very effervescent

and darling daughter.

Ta-da!

Who can get a little spicy?

Sure.

You would be okay, we get an argument with me,

because it would go very chill,

because I wouldn't do it.

She might get an argument with me, I don't know.

She can take up the one she loves, especially.

But you know what we're going to have to do?

We're going to have to take a quick break,

get these dogs out of here.

Just came into the studio.

Okay, we're back from getting the dogs out of the studio.

We had to say who let the dogs out.

I have fans.

So I'm so excited to be here with my daughter

and I let it she walked in and she said,

hey, what's the plan?

Are we just going to do it for what did you say?

I don't know what I said,

or if it should be repeated.

All I know is my entire life is me asking you,

is there a plan or a budget and you laughing like that

and going, oh, we're just going to shoot from the hips.

Why are you still asking this?

I don't think maybe this might be the one time

that there's like an agenda.

Yeah, you can keep on dreaming.

That's okay.

That's okay, agenda.

Yeah, I'm not really good with that.

Agenda is tough, so.

So what we aren't going to talk about someday.

We're going to talk about John A. Cove's soundtrack.

I love it.

Well, actually, this is not unusual

that you and I would follow in love at the same author

because we really do like a lot of the same authors.

We love it.

We love the same writers.

I introduced you to a new poet that you didn't know.

I'm obsessed with the Joyce Sullivan.

Oh my God, this is not supposed to be about that.

So we're just going to talk about this just a second.

Then we'll get back to what we're supposed to be talking about.

Like I said, no agenda.

But Joyce Sullivan, I discovered her from a podcast,

which why podcasts are the best in the world.

Y'all hear me now, I love podcasts.

So Joyce Sullivan was one of my podcasts.

And when I heard her speak and read her poem,

Directions for Traveling West.

Yeah, it was Instruction for Traveling West.

It was Instruction for Traveling West.

Same thing.

But my favorite line was homesick for life.

You didn't, you don't have or you didn't know you had

or whatever, I mean, I was like, oh my gosh.

My favorite line was at the end.

Well, I love the, we are homesick for the lives.

We are not living.

But the last line, which is very Karen,

very happy-ass-esque, was Joyce is not a trick.

Oh, that was so beautiful.

Well, my new soundtrack, since we're talking about soundtracks,

now I've got it from you.

I wish you had that point to read on air.

We'll do it the next podcast.

That's Joyce, my favorite color.

Joyce, my favorite color.

I got that because Brit wrote in a point that she wrote to me

that said, joy is a color that goes with everything.

And I went, that is the most Karen thing you could ever say.

I love it so much.

So now my mantra is joy is my favorite color.

I love that so much.

And that's kind of what soundtracks are.

Soundtracks are, stop overthinking.

When overthinking messes up your life

and interferes with life you want to live.

So you have to develop new soundtracks.

You have to curate your own playlist.

Your own playlist.

What?

Because playlist is serving you and your goals

and your best mental state.

And obviously you have just instructed me my whole life

to really pay attention to what I put in my brain

and in my heart because that's what's gonna be my output.

And you know, you had me reading Think and Grow Rich.

And what to say when to talk to yourself

and when you talk to yourself

and all these positive things.

Every John Maxwell book ever written.

Every Tickler book, every John Maxwell book,

all this stuff my whole life.

But the thing that I think we both appreciate

about John's take on it is,

but that's the fact that he's a contemporary.

He has this kind of edge to him.

He's a little self-depreciating.

He has some sarcasm.

He's kind of funny and quirky.

And I think that like down to earth accessibility

makes people feel comfortable.

And it's not as like for the lack of,

it's not woo-woo, it's not too churchy.

It's just like very, very accessible for any person

to connect to him.

I like it more than any, like for instance,

John Maxwell is my leadership guru.

He's my leadership guru.

Nobody ever met him.

Norman Vince Appeal and Sigzigler

are my positive gurus.

This guy right here, when it comes to mindset

and words that we say to ourselves,

even more so than Shady Hamsteadler,

which is what I started with,

what you say when you talk to yourself.

But John handcuffed to me is the best in this field.

And he is so dang funny.

He's really funny.

And you feel like he's like your friend next door.

Yeah, if you can stand with him.

To listen to the hot, you know, he's had a podcast.

But if you get a chance to listen to his audible versions

of his books, I highly recommend that.

They're perfect.

I've listened to all of his books

and I've read all of his books to this day.

But one of the things that I love, like you said,

this is something that we really have done our whole lives.

And I don't know if you even know when it started,

it started before you were born.

And I may have told you this story before,

but when I was pregnant with you,

it wasn't necessarily a plant.

Surprise.

Since I wasn't married.

Yes, you were definitely a surprise place.

We had little bumps along the way.

But when I was pregnant with you,

I read that line from that song,

you were fearlessly and wonderfully made.

And I said it over and over and over.

And I still say that to myself this day.

And when I doubt myself sometimes,

that is a soundtrack that I give myself.

When I start doubting myself or feeling like I'm not

being great at stuff, you know what I mean?

Do you have a current sound track you're using right now?

Well, I have a few.

How deep are we getting?

One of my things is,

if one of the lies I think we tell ourselves

is there's not enough time.

Hmm.

And that is such a bunch of things.

Everybody has 10 minutes.

Everyone has 15 minutes.

Especially when you look at your social media time,

but then at the weekend it's like,

you've been online for seven hours.

But I've been watching goat videos for two hours

or my mom's getting me monkey videos.

We will just, we just love a good monkey video.

Just love it.

It makes us so happy.

Our algorithm is so confusing.

Well, mine's confusing.

Hers is the happiest.

But so he says this thing of some is better than none.

And I've really taken that.

So if I only have 10 minutes to do that,

some is better than none,

which is kind of an amalgamation of a soundtrack

that I have been utilizing for the past couple of years,

which helped me get my first book done,

which was, good is good enough.

That has just helped me so much

because you and I have always in business

lived by a Perrito's principal of the 80-20 role.

And so is it 80% good enough?

Okay, move on to the next thing,

because here's the thing.

If I take on that attitude,

eventually I will get enough reps in

where the quantity of my work will help with the quality.

And so that is really something that's been good for me.

The other thing for me is in my people-pleasing.

That's a whole thing.

That's a whole other thing,

but as we're covering people, please are.

A lot of times it's like,

wanna just overdue repair

when I'm in conflict with someone.

I wanna just like,

oh my gosh, what can I do?

What can I do?

It's the whole thing.

I wanna fix the whole thing.

Things that are not my responsibility fix

at all.

So I often have to step back and go,

what's my part in this?

And so I guess that's more of a question of mantra.

I don't know if you consider that a soundtrack.

I think so.

But I definitely have to say,

what's my part in this?

And on a more vulnerable level,

I say to myself, I deserve a love,

I don't have to chase.

And so, and that could be on anything.

That's friendships, that's romance,

that's friendships,

that's creative alliances.

If I'm having to chase down something

or prove my worth or audition my worth,

it's not worth it.

Life is too short.

So you can replace that love word with anything.

I deserve joy, I don't have to chase.

I deserve a life, I don't have to chase.

I deserve, you know, fill in the blank.

I deserve friends that I don't have to chase.

And the other one that you and I have talked about

before, I think sitting here is,

I'll fill better after I've done it.

Oh yeah, love that one.

Or I'll fill better after.

So, and that really helps me when I'm doing something

unpleasant, like taxes.

So this is a good spot to mention

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Yeah, okay.

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for believing in all this happy asterie.

And I'm very thankful for a holiday beach mechanical,

which Britney, I think we pay for their building, haven't we?

Oh my gosh, I used them so much in our rental business.

I loved it.

It's crazy, I loved them.

But what I love about them, well besides a lot of things,

besides their super creative,

it's far funny, all the things.

They have a beautiful building.

But what I love about them is,

it's my one stop shop.

I've got the HVAC, I've got electrical

and I've got plumbing.

And then they also have a big, beautiful, amazing

rental company, they only, they specialize

in very expensive, bougie properties.

So I don't have any of those at the moment.

So, but I can't help them there.

But they are great.

I love them.

And I'd love to hear about fruit cheese.

I heard a wind of that.

Is that exciting?

That is super exciting.

I'm super excited.

I can't wait.

I see a lunch in our future.

I do.

I see a pot stand out future.

I see a pot stand out future.

I see a pot stand out future.

I see a pot stand out future.

I see a pot stand out future.

Oh gosh.

Snapper Pocata.

No, it's snapper I think.

Oh my gosh.

It's some kind of fish Pocata.

Oh, I'm so glad I'm doing so well.

So well.

But they get it fresh tarp and docks.

I do remember that part.

Okay, I'm about to be 67.

So don't forget that.

Mom, I don't want to hear it.

Don't, don't forget that.

You're the youngest person I know.

I'm excited about that.

Okay, we got off on a tangent, didn't we?

So, and you know what?

I know you want to know where this top came from.

A more, a more.

Yeah.

You said, I looked like Nana in there.

You reminded me of Nana,

because she would wear.

She really thinks.

Bright clothes.

And they would always match her earring.

She always, you call it,

you are her set earbops.

Earbops.

She said I have put on my earbops.

Earbops, yeah.

So she would, she was not going to go out of the house

without lipstick in her earbops,

but you're giving off like very late.

Oh, that's cool.

And you know, and my hair looks like Nana's now too.

And I'll talk about that the other day.

So Nana was my very sweet kind,

mother, who was, was my biggest fan.

She told me, I was very well dressed.

Yeah, she was darling.

She was, I mean, she was sitting in the house of me,

darling, which, and that carried over to me,

not always to my daughter.

I love me a good moo moo.

I'm not gonna lie.

Oh, you won't touch me in person.

Yeah, so thank you so long for my darling locks,

but we'll talk more about people later.

But what were we talking about?

Well, we were talking about soundtracks.

Yeah.

And I had said a couple of them,

especially when you just the last one.

The last one I said was basically that,

I'll feel better after I've done it, after it's over.

So like, something I'm, you know,

whether it's like cleaning the kitchen

or my case, I'm still working out,

I was working on my taxes this week.

Like, just stuff that's not fun.

I'm well, I don't know what I'm gonna do

when I leave this my business,

because I haven't done tax, I don't know,

I'm, I forget when taxes become my people.

You will continue to do what you're doing

and you will pay professionals

and you will.

You know, I will.

Admin, people to do it for you.

Yeah, because Freda is principle, remember?

Yeah, it is, because I'm really,

I don't do remember, this is totally off track, maybe,

but maybe not.

Maybe it's knowing where you're supposed to be,

but when I was, when I had my other bookkeeper years ago

with my company and she paid my bills too,

just like Chrissy does,

I thought I was not being very responsible.

You know, and I thought,

I need to learn to pay my own bills.

I've grown up.

I need to pay my own bills.

I need to balance the checkbook,

which I've never balanced the checkbook in my life.

That's so embarrassing.

So I told her I said, Bridget,

I'm gonna do this myself.

Give me my checkbook, give me my bills.

I don't remember this tragedy.

I'm actually one day.

I know it's terrible.

When I sat down and looked at it all,

it was like you were speaking Greek or German to me

or the combination of the two.

And I just freaked out and I got a note,

I wrote her a note and I said, dear Bridget,

I do not want Karen coming anywhere near this.

Continue to do this for her.

Thank you, God.

I know my talents and I know my gifts and that's not why I love it.

I know you're supposed to be interviewing me,

but I have a question.

Yeah.

So I do feel like you have set a really good example

for me and for the people we work with,

that peritose principle is a real thing.

It's a real thing.

Delegate.

What soundtracks have helped you kind of ease that,

I don't know, insecurity of that you have to be good

at all things.

Oh.

Because is there a soundtrack where you,

I don't know is it like I'm enough or I'm,

I don't know what is the thing that you say to yourself

to help you chill out that like,

you don't have to be great at everything.

Oh no, I think mine is I'm great at the things I'm great at.

Oh, I like it.

I'm great at the things I'm great at.

And I learned this a long time ago

and John Max will talk about this a lot.

He said, you know, when your people will come to him

and say, what should I do about this?

I'm horrible at this.

He goes, nothing.

And go, what do you mean nothing?

He said, okay, this is the deal.

If you're like a eight or nine or a 10 in like enthusiasm

or leadership, you can continue to improve.

You can go from a eight to a nine,

you make you go from a nine to a 10.

Say for instance, in money management.

Okay, if I'm a two in money management,

the best I'm gonna be is maybe a four or five.

Nobody's gonna pay me to be a four or a five.

No one's gonna come to me for advice for money management.

And I think that's why I was such a good special head teacher.

I really believe, and I still believe that to this day,

so you're not good at math.

Who cares?

Get a calculator, you know what I mean?

So no one is going to listen to you or follow you

for the things you're kind of mediocre at.

So I just kind of stick to the things I'm good at.

I mean, I might try a little bit, but I'm not doing it.

I'm pretty good about that.

And I love it.

Lisa Lawrence said to me one time, she said,

I'm not gonna pay anybody to do something.

I can do myself.

You know what I said?

My soundtrack?

I'm not gonna do myself.

What I can pay somebody else to do.

Who I like, I like that.

I'm gonna take a cue from Taylor Swift.

My energy is expensive.

Oh, I'm like, energy is expensive.

Do I really want to spend my energy on this?

And I think it also goes back to whatever your goals are.

And if you go back to whatever your goals are,

and you're trying to decide,

you're trying to have kind of a litmus test for whether

you should do the thing or not,

or whether you should delegate it to someone else.

Is this going to get me to my goal faster

and or with less stress?

Like what's the trade-off?

I'm freaking out.

I would have.

The idea of doing something just because you can

is staying to me, like in your house.

Oh, I should.

I can mow my own lawn.

Well, yeah, you can, doesn't mean you should.

I mean, if you like mowing your own lawn,

is that your thing you're like getting sweaty and gross?

I'm not gonna go for it.

We've gone off the rails.

No, I'm not going.

I've got a true confession.

So what I first thought was just going to be like,

and he's, and he's, he's dead now.

So he does won't know.

Well, maybe he knows now.

But where's that going?

We're not, we're not your kids.

When I got married to Hugh,

I knew that he was very orderly and very organized

and kept his home really clean.

So you're trying to pretend like you were clean?

I tried to pretend like that I was enjoyed it,

or I was good at that, right?

I never pretended like I could wanted to cook

or anything like that.

I mean, he knew by my talents and skills

I was more a person that went outside the home and worked.

He knew, but I wanted, I tried to be that,

but you can only fake it for so long.

And I didn't fake it very long at all.

He's, he knew.

He saw your car, mom.

He saw my car.

And he saw, I'm of, you know, this story,

but then we'll get back on track.

He was very, like I said, very organized, very,

and his side room looked like just like a hospital room,

my side room, like a frat party just happened.

So we always shared books.

We love reading books together.

And I gave him a copy of one of my paperback books,

something it was Beatch House or something like that.

Beatch music, beatch music.

I love that guy,

every one of his books.

It's a coloring.

Oh, a lot of coloring.

So I gave the book to Hugh and it had suntan all on it.

It was all gray.

And it was when we first started dating,

and he said, I don't want to hurt your feelings,

but I cannot have this red torn,

disheveled book.

I hope it doesn't hurt your feelings,

but yeah, so we were quite different.

But so I digress.

So the thing, the other thing that I want to say to you

that was so cool, I read in the book,

I love it.

It says, resilience is allowing yourself to begin again

when things don't go the way you expected the first time.

So I think what people need to hear

is that when you're developing new soundtracks

and trying to get rid of old soundtracks,

you've got to replace them with new ones.

And you've got to come up with techniques

and habits to turn down the noise.

Because I, we were talking about people placing,

that is something that I'm working on.

And I'll tell you, I believe this to be true,

until you get healed of something.

Is there such thing?

Well, or are in or of time of healing?

Integrate healing in your life?

I don't know if there's such thing as anything is healed.

I don't know, there's those things totally healed.

You can be in a healing or in a recovery process

that are constantly recovering.

There's always new levels, no new levels.

But I believe that you think it's just one and done, you're done.

So what John A. Cup was saying to one of his friends,

he said, you know, he said, I thought that

once I found this technique of soundtracks

and replacing, that I was done.

My whole life would change before me.

But he realized that it wasn't, you couldn't turn it off.

It's more a dial.

It's more you can turn it down.

So when you say turn it down,

are you talking about like just external stimuli

or are you talking about the negative soundtracks,

the negative tapes, the not enough, the how dare you,

the negative voices?

I think it's both.

And he gave ways that you could do that.

So I thought this was sort of cool.

It said that the problem with internal voices we hear

is that we want to switch.

I hadn't heard a thought to describe that way before.

So I asked him what he meant.

It says, we think there's a switch

that can just turn it off.

It's all forever.

But it's more a dial.

It turned it down.

And it gets less noisy and less noisy.

And you find more ways of coping with it.

And I want to think about what are some of our ways

of coping with it.

One of his ways of coping or trying to turn the dial down

was that he uses running.

Running is what he does.

He can put some issues and he goes running.

Well, for me, and I think for you too, exercise

is very, very important to me.

Moving my body, listening to my body,

we in a team with my body is been huge.

I think it hasn't been for you too long.

Oh, yeah.

It's like the greatest antidepressant there is.

I have to move my body, for sure.

But I will say that sheer real power or sheer redirection,

which I think when we're using some of these coping

mechanisms like exercise or going to like read something

that puts us in a good mood or see a beautiful piece

of artwork or whatever, those are actions to me

that are redirection actions.

They don't necessarily that noise.

I'm going to call it of those negative voices

that are still there.

And I personally have found a little bit more success

with taking them more of an observational tone with them

and kind of meeting them with kind of a spirit of forgiveness

and compassion, which is not something

that I was great at at first.

I very much was like, no, pain, no gain,

where I'm going to win.

And that turns out is not a great strategy.

So for example, if you're having the noise

of what the hell am I thinking?

Who do you think you are?

All the time.

All those like, how dare you?

You're not good enough for this.

You're not big enough for this.

Whatever that negative voice is.

First of all, I started reframing it

is that means I'm on my way to do something great.

Because if there's resistance coming my way

and there's negativity coming away,

that means I'm leveling up.

That means I'm doing something that's making me uncomfortable.

So that's a thing to celebrate.

And then the next thing is like, okay,

whatever your, I don't know, your psychology is,

whatever you want to call that voice.

If you were to look at that voice

as being like the smaller version of yourself,

how can you meet that voice with compassion

and just know that that voice is just trying to protect you?

And so if they say that voice says, you know,

you're not up for this.

I almost try to take this tone of like,

okay, I hear what you're saying

that I'm not up for this, but actually I am.

And I kind of make cases for why I'm up for it.

It doesn't always happen.

This is a practice.

But if I can slow down my thoughts,

I think that's the first step to redirecting.

And it's also, and another one he uses,

he uses Lego sets.

He loves Lego, he loves Lego.

And the other one that he uses,

and I know I use this, and I think you did too,

or making a list.

Oh, I love me a list.

I'm talking about a dopamine kick.

You guys, is there anything more satisfying

than making a list?

I love your poetry when you talk about this.

You've got some poetry about list.

And I love it.

I use some as writing exercises.

I love that.

I love that.

We do that.

We do that.

I love that.

Yeah.

So it was another one.

Of course, friends.

You know, that's a good one.

And minor task.

I can think sometimes we think we have to do something

really, really big.

But sometimes it's just doing little things, you know?

I gave some dresses away to a friend

that had been sitting like in my room for months.

And I felt so accomplished.

And then I thought, okay, well,

I can get another little pile together.

Yeah.

So it's just little,

just you need a little win sometimes.

Yeah, you do.

I love little wins.

I love them.

They make me feel so good.

I know this is supposed to be about soundtracks.

And I am developing new soundtracks

about my people pleasing.

Because it sounds, I mean, I'm not,

I mean, I'm not an F in it or even a D.

I'm kind of like a C minus right now.

And I think it adds some flows in your life.

So like I think I'm doing really, really, really good.

And then I see myself getting into those patterns again.

Because I know I learned in Alainon

that the very thing that is a gift

can also be a detriment in your life.

It's a gift that I love people.

And I want to be a giver.

And I want to be a lover of all humanity.

And that's a gift.

But what's like to the other side

is when you are more concerned about someone else

than your own health or sanity.

Give you a great example that just happened to me.

So I can't wait for this.

I know.

So I'm just so silly.

I'm almost embarrassed to say it.

But I think maybe somebody might be here.

Somebody might be here.

I'm sure you're not alone.

I'm sure what you're going to say

a lot of other people are going to have to help by this.

So I decided that, you know,

because I've lost all my weight

and I've consistently been at my goal weight

for over six months now, maybe longer than that.

So doing good.

But then people told me that I need you to do cardio.

I need you to do more cardio.

Well, I don't know who those people are

because my fitness coach told me,

don't worry about it.

Just walk 20 minutes a day.

That's good enough.

You know, we talk about you having a permit

to do what you do and what I want.

I know.

But I also was thinking about the VO2 max

and all that stuff that you read about here

about all the longevity podcast.

I'm rolling my eyes right now.

I know.

So if you can't see it, you see it on YouTube

but not on, you know, other ones.

But so I decided that I would sign up for Orange Theory Fitness.

Now, Orange Theory Fitness is great.

This is no slant on the arm.

So I signed up for Orange Theory Fitness a while back

and I was happy because Barb was happy

because Barb got points or something

because I signed up.

Then the little girl that was in there

happened to be the daughter of a friend of mine

and she was super excited because she got the sign me up

and I think they get something.

And then another guy comes up to me and says,

oh, here's a new person.

I wonder if they're going to stay.

And says somebody, was she show up and the guy's saying,

oh yeah, Karen always shows up.

Karen is, Karen is always in there.

She works out all the time.

Well, guess what?

I signed up, maybe I'm up the go.

Ask me how many times I've gone.

Twice.

Twice.

Twice.

Let me tell you why.

Because you didn't want to.

I didn't want to.

Because you were just trying to make people happy.

Yeah.

Well, what happened was I thought I wanted to,

but then when I made all these other people happy

and then I was a benefit to them,

I was trying to figure out how I could not do it

because I didn't want to do it.

It doesn't work for my schedule.

I like being in the gym a little bit after 4 a.m.

And, you know, and to be honest with you,

I don't like working out with other people.

I like working out on my own.

I'm really an independent worker or outerer.

So I have literally not stopped that membership,

which I'm going to.

And I even went to bar yesterday and said,

barb, I'm so sorry.

Like, you said, what are you sorry for?

I said, I'm not going to do Orange Street Fitness.

But I know that you got a benefit.

So if I'll pay for whatever benefit you got.

So I was, I knew that it wasn't.

Well, you and I have both done this.

How many times have you and I like not canceled

like subscription services?

Did it work?

We didn't want to hurt someone's feelings.

They're like not canceled a product.

Just like, seriously?

Yeah, come on.

Do it all the time.

I mean, I'm sorry.

I'm better at it now.

I'm well, I thought I was better,

but you know, but so I know how this comes back to soundtracks

as I know that we've laughed at what I have a permit.

I have a permit to do what is best for me

at this phase of my life.

So I think we need to think a few more sponsors.

All right, quick.

So we're going to love on.

I'm going to, oh, you know when I'm in love,

I'll need to know them, but you don't use them like I do.

At least in Best Buy, I went through this morning

and got a little thing in my weather.

And Ivy, Ivy, thank you.

It was like a unity boost.

A unity boost.

Yes, feeling kind of little under the weather

and they have options for that.

They do, it's wonderful.

And I will tell you that I have gotten both talks

and equal or two.

I've also got a little bit of filler, right?

Yeah, so I like that.

So they have all kinds of services.

I love them.

But you know what was really sweet about the day?

They weren't even working today.

And she didn't tell me that.

I called her last night and I'm not feeling well good.

I'm starting to get a scratchy throat

and I don't have time for that.

She said, well, come on in and we'll give you

an immunity boost.

And I got there and they weren't even open.

They were having a training.

So they, well, that's sweet.

Oh, it's sweet.

They're good people.

Yeah.

And I want to thank minutes and miles.

I also want to thank Brian, your mat with Baytack Solution.

And that has been, okay, I tease myself

and not being smart about taxes and financial things.

I'm really impressed that I did that.

It did take about three times to understand it,

but I'm a little proud of myself.

Pop, one of your gifts is understanding limitations

and recognizing the talents and others.

So you see the big picture and know,

hey, I need that.

Who's the person that can get me there?

That has been a game changer for game changes.

Unbelievable, unbelievable.

So I really, I cannot sing his praises enough.

Brian, your mat with Baytack Solution.

If you want to hear about call segregation,

I can hook you up with them.

It'll be in the show notes.

I've always wanted to say that.

It'll be in the show notes.

No, that sounds like a great job, mom.

I know, I'm pretty impressed.

But so I want to ask you, Brett,

and you may or may not have one.

Do you have any soundtracks that you're trying to develop

for relationships?

Well, I told you about that I deserve a love.

I don't have to judge.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, that's so good.

So I was just for a long time.

Yeah.

And I think it's just depending on where I'm at,

you know, I like you in the morning

have my quiet time and I write affirmations.

So my affirmations tend to take the tone

of whatever I'm dealing with at the time.

Some of them I have on repeat and do over and over again.

But if I'm feeling a need for something,

it's sometimes I'll say I deserve love, peace, and connection.

I'll say the things that I am seeking.

People want to hear from me.

People want to connect with me.

People want to connect with what I have.

Whatever that thing is that I need to hear in that moment

is what I tend to write down.

But I think probably the biggest one is I deserve a love.

I don't have to chase.

Like I don't, I'm not entering into rooms

where I have to hustle for myself worth anymore.

Either you want what I have or see you later.

And now that's easier said than done, right?

Especially as the recovering people please are.

It's like you want everybody to like you, right?

But my desire for truth and authenticity,

my hunger for that is greater than my need to be liked right now.

Like me, it's so funny.

You know, you know this about me

and people are always shocked to find out

and my audience knows is about me.

I'm not as extroverted as you think I am.

I'm more of an extroverted, introverted,

introverted, I don't know where I'm from.

I think you're balanced.

Yeah, I am kind of balanced,

but I require a lot of a long time.

I require a lot of reflection, a lot of time alone.

I do not get energized, but that's the test.

I'm not energized by being around other people.

I'm energized by the time of reflection in inner study.

And something happened today,

I don't know why I went into my spirit today,

but it's one of my new monitors

and it's an old campfire song

for when I was a little girl.

And it only takes a spark to get a fire going.

That's how it is with God's love.

Once you experience it, you want to sing.

It's fresh, like spring, you want to pass on.

And that's where I'm living right now.

And it makes me so happy.

So that was a happy time of being in church camp

and singing those songs.

And that always, that came back to my mind today.

And I thought, that is what I'm going to live by right now.

It only, so in other words,

I don't think I have to do big things.

If I'm doing some great example, I drove through,

I was supposed to be able to say this too,

but it just gave me so much happiness and joy.

So I'll go through the Burger King parking lot,

which I mean, the drive thing,

which I do a lot because jet lights

to go through Burger King on the way home from...

Shout out to the Hershey Fire Baseball.

Okay.

So I go through and the guy that was behind the thing,

he looked at me and he said,

you have the sweetest, most happy energy.

I love seeing you come through here.

When he said that to me,

I thought, maybe it's just those little bitty things,

not the big things, that little spark

that maybe you put in a life of someone.

I don't know, I think that's a big thing.

Yeah, I don't know why the most influential thing

that we have is the energy.

But I just, I can hardly even talk about with that crime,

but that sweet fella gave me the greatest gift

through the Dapper and Burger King window.

I love that you say, fella.

You know, we have that fella.

That fella with those riches on me.

He's so precious, that fella at the Burger King drive-room.

But, you know, I just, I don't know,

because you know, I've been on this,

I've been on this for my audience too.

I am, I've been on the struggle bus for a few months now.

I'm trying to figure out a few things in my life,

but I'm also excited,

because I'm about to be 67.

Level 67, coming up.

I'm so excited.

I'm the one I'm excited about that one.

Get ready, world.

Oh my gosh.

Okay, okay.

We've been talking a while, so we gotta wrap this baby up.

Okay.

We gotta get things to do.

Yeah, places to get up.

Is there any parting, amazing words you wanna tell people

before we go?

Wow.

Wait a minute, you're on this spot, mom.

Say an unamazing word.

I don't know, I think I'm just trying

to really focus on my recovery right now,

and I equate my inner artists with my inner child.

And I think every time we choose curiosity over fear

as Los Gilbert says,

we're leaning into our creative selves,

and that's what we were designed to do.

We were designed to be makers.

A lot of consumers.

So I think that whenever I start to feel like out of sorts,

I know I gotta make something.

One of my other new mantras that I'm doing right now

on my new soundtrack is,

I collaborate with Grace on a daily basis.

Who I like that?

I collaborate with Grace on a daily basis.

And I wanna do that more and more.

Thanks for having me, mom.

I love having you.

I love having time with you.

Thank you, bang.

You're adorable and you're sweet and you're kind.

You're precious.

Thanks.

I'm glad you're here.

She gets well and comfortable.

Not as uncomfortable as her daughter does.

But that's okay.

Y'all, I love to have a y'all.

I'm very thankful you're here.

I'm so grateful for the people that love and believe

in this message of hope and light and goodness

in this world that is so in need of all of that.

So thank you for being a happy ass.

Be sweet y'all.