1578 - Drew is a Gay Cuckold Who Loves Being Cucked

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3:00I do have a free trial for my listeners. Stc is like the world's largest online dating website. And it's such a place where you can hook up with people. You could learn all about the lifestyle. You could find out about all the lifestyle events and meetups and all kinds of things going on in your neighborhood as well as if you're going to travel and you want to have a little fun. You're going to find it all on stc.com. Like I said, you get a free trial. If you use my code, 37712 or just go to the description and click on the link that's 37712 or just go to the description and click on the link. So let's get to today's episode. It's a good one. This guy knows how to tell an affin story. Okay. His name is Drew and he is a gay cuckold and Drew just talk the whole time. I think maybe I said three sentences in the whole episode and then at the end when I'm saying by him, I think I talked more at the end for like two minutes and I did through the whole thing because he told the story from beginning to middle to end so well. He's very descriptive.

4:01He is a gay cuckold and he talks about how he became one. I mean, this wasn't something that he always knew he was interested in. It was something that kind of came about because he was in a relationship with a guy. He's a relationship guy. He's a one person gay man. That's how he rolls. He was in a long-term relationship with a guy and he wound up getting hit on by another guy. Kind of like a straight guy. I don't know. He tells that whole story. And that guy kind of brought up a threesome with him and his boyfriend and he brought it to his boyfriend as boyfriend was down and then the threesome happened. He gets very explicit about that threesome and what went down. They had some rules in him and his guy. And during the threesome, those rules went out the window. And when he saw those rules go out the window and saw his boyfriend engaging with the other guy, he got really jealous and really upset. And then eventually he got really turned on. He walked out of the room. He heard noises. And like I said, those kind of noises eventually became his kink. He loves nothing more now than to watch his partners be with other people.

5:02He sits back. He watches. He likes to be out of the room. He likes to hear. It's all because of that first experience. Now that first experience is not that. And well, he talks about what happened at the end. But all of that turned him into the cuckold that he is now. He talks about how his kink has just grown and grown. He loves watching his partners get dominated by guys and be the submissive. He's a submissive and that's why he can't be that person. So he loves to bring that person in. He does try to pick unavailable guys. So there's a lot of like straight guys, guys on the dl coming home and fuck up. And he just likes to watch. There's no reclaiming sex. We talk a little bit about that. That's just the way he rolls. His partners love it. Everyone seems to be happy. And you're going to be happy too because it's a great episode. He tells a great story. Anyway, my life is easy and you're going to love it. I barely talk at all. So I'm going to get right to it and be right back on with Drew. This is the strictly anonymous podcast. Strangely anonymous podcast. Hey Drew, welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast.

6:10How are you today? I'm great. Thanks for having me. How are you? I'm good. I'm a little excited to talk to you because who you are and what you do and what you're into is something I've never really had on my show. I've been doing my show for nine years. I mean, I've had a gay guy on. I've had cockles on. I've had, by guys on. But I've never had on a gay cockled before. And that's what you are. You're a guy. You're gay. But you really love seeing your partners hook up with other guys. Straight guys by guys, all kinds of things. And you definitely have that cockled thing going down. It's not just listen because a lot of people in the gay community think they're more open to having open relationships. Right. And they all like fuck around. But like you really like that cuck thing where you're like sitting back and watching, right? I do. Yes. So tell me your story Drew. Are you in a relationship right now? I've been in a relationship for about one year right now, romantic relationship. And I'm more of a romantic relationship type of guy. So I don't really go out much. And I'm not far hop in or clubs.

7:12And ever since I had one encounter some years back where I opened up my relationship. And I decided to bring someone home that I kind of knew, I knew for a couple of years. And I wanted to have a threesome and opened up my relationship. And that relationship didn't end well because of the encounter. But ever since then, I have opened up all my relationships that I've had my romantic relationships with. Man that I got a care for and I love and I like to see them with. Actually, man that I hook them up with and I bring them home. It's almost like a cuckled fetish that I have, but I actually didn't even know that I was a cuckled with a stay until not too long ago. I just felt like I was some type of just weird fetish that I had and I didn't understand why it all started back then when I had that first relationship that I was in for about six years.

8:14I was 22 years old at the time and I brought that one guy home and it was just this a broad scene that I had when I was watching my my boyfriend at the time getting fucked in sucking cock with his very dominant top. And after that, it just it all went from there. It started from there and I I've been kind of evolving into it and I've been kind of like it's growing and it's evolving into other things and I'm sometimes kind of scared because I don't want to I don't want to lose the guys that I'm into in a relationship with for this or to this, but it seems to not stop. Yeah, I get it. Let's go a little back. Did you always know you were gay? So I'm 34 years old now. I came out I came out to myself when I was 15 years old. I've never been I never have really been that type of gay guy. I was a lot of gay friends go I go gay clubbing bar not really that I was always into school and sports. I used to play a lot of softball and I was a runner and so I had a lot of straight friends and I had a big straight group.

9:26That I kept and I had two girlfriends in high school that were sort of like my high school sweethearts and when I was around 15 I ended up having an encounter with my 15 year old like friend from school. We're like kissing and stuff like that and I noticed that romantically and sexually I was into men more than women and I decided that that was probably who I was because I was confused at the time and I came out to myself as as gay. And some of my family and then I ended up mean someone that was a couple of years older than me when I was still in high school and he was also the same as me and I'm going to call him Tyler but he was actually my first boyfriend that I had romantic relationship. I started very young and I knew what I wanted this guy that I was dating at the time his name was Tyler and me and him decided to have like a romantic relationship and we did and we ended being together for about six years.

10:28I pretty much thought that me and him were going to last for a long time. I always say I like having relationships. I do romantic relationships. I like to have a good sex life but I don't I'm not I don't cheat I try not to lie and I would say after being together with Tyler for about six years it was just something that happened that it happened so quick and it happened so fast where I decided to open up my relationship with him with this this at the time I was 22 and he was two years old. He was two years older than me so he was around 24 we were young and I've always been kind of athletic and so I knew this man that was a softball coach where I used to play softball in a park. I used to think he's old he's older than me. He was around I would say he was in his early 40s and this man was married and he had children and I knew him from the park and the events and stuff like that. But it's kind of a relationship between me and that man evolved into a friendship and he started asking me out to like happy hour and go out with him and get to know each other and I remember asking him and question him one day like like wait a minute aren't you married and don't you have kids in our marriage what is your wife from say about this like you never fully asked me that you wanted to be with me but the way he would look at me and talk to me and walk to my car.

11:56I was kind of bizarre and I kind of got the hint and he said he told me one day when he was walking to me to my car walking with me to my car he said oh I got a divorce I'm separated my kids are older they live with her mom and I'm just I'm just going out and having fun and I said oh okay and I remember one weekend it was a Saturday I was sitting at home watching movies and drinking beer. And I ended up telling him about this man and he said who is he do I know him and I said I don't know I don't think so I said but this this man has been asking me sort of on days and has been telling me to go out with him and he said well what did you tell him I said no I told him that I was an interested and so this this kind of continued with this man and I'm going to name him Julio because he was a he was like an older Latino man that was that spoke very little English and mostly Spanish but I'm also Latino myself and I used to kind of was able to communicate with him in that aspect well but I ended up going through this for I would say a few weeks or so and then one day he just asked me straight out who you asked me straight out

13:17why it was an I accepting his proposal to go out and have a great time gets to know each other and I remember I looked at him and I said because I have a partner I said I have a boyfriend I'm with somebody when I've been with him for a long time and he looked at me and I remember he said it's okay he said bring him along and I looked at him and I said what and he said bring him to he said bring him to he said we'll all have fun together and I was confused I didn't know what he meant and I said does he just want to go out and have some drinks like boys like guys yeah yeah wasn't too sure and I remember I hopped in my car that night and I was just thinking about it it was just something that you started sparking my mind and I was like what do you mean by that is you want to go out like friends does he want to three three way and I was just like this is very intriguing it's very interesting. Okay guys let me ask you a question if there was something you could use for just a few minutes a day that could give you bigger harder longer

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16:37Like, what does he mean? But it caught my attention and I would say some days passed again and as me and Tyler would sit at home and watch movies and drink. I spoke to him about it again and he said, well, then he get the point that you're with somebody and I said, apparently not. He said, well, what did he say? I told Tyler, he asked me to bring you along and he said, what? And I said, yeah, he looked at me at my face and he said to bring you along with me and you go out with him and get to know each other. And he looked at me and he said, what does he mean? Like a, like a threesome and I said, I'm not sure. I said, all I know is that I've known him for a couple of years. He's a softball coach where I play softball and baseball as well. And I thought he was married and had children, but apparently he says he's not. And he was like, he was kind of perplexed and just looking at me and we had never spoken about anything like this, outside of this realm.

17:39It was just all that kind of new to me and it was new to hand to have this conversation. Me and Tyler had watched Corn together and we had fantasized about porn scenes and spoke to each other about these hot guys and porn, but it was just that when our sexual life was just normal, he was the top. I was the bottom. He, Tyler was very masculine and I would say I'm, I am pretty much, but I have always dominant and masculine man tops. And I always seem to be the bottom. It's just the way it's always been with me. It's kind of weird. Even though I want it or not, it's just the way it's been. And I remember I'm asking Tyler, what do you think? What do you think about me and you get together and we go out on a date with him? And he looked at me and he said, what does he look like? And I said, oh, it wasn't a no.

18:39It was in like a no way. It was just like, what does he look like? I said, okay, he might be interested. And so then I explained to him. I said, I have to explain to him well what he looks like because this is not your typical gay guy or guy that we think is hot from the porn. So I said, well, it's, he's an older man. He's like, older man. I don't know. I think he's like in his 40s. He's very attractive. He's masculine. He's very athletic. So he's fit when he speaks a lot of Spanish, a little bit of English, I said, but that's what he looks like. I said when he was just looking at me like, like he was kind of intrigued about what I was telling him. And I said, do you think that it's something that you would want to do? Like, can set it up? I can talk to Hulu about it. I just started telling him the details because it was taking weeks that going back and forth. It was like, it wasn't something that was happening. Like I can make happen fast because it was new to me. And I didn't know how to go about it.

19:39And then I went back to the park. I ended up telling Hulu that Tyler, my boyfriend, has said, yes, we decided to meet at, I wanted to meet at Hulu's house because that was insure it was going to happen. And Hulu said, no, we're going, I'm going to go to your house and I said, okay, so we, it was a Saturday night. And we decided, gave Hulu my address, my telephone number, everything. Me and Tyler were waiting for him. I remember in the dining room drinking and he walks in and he sits in the table with us, right? I pop out of beer and it's very quiet. We're watching TV and I didn't know if it was a language barrier thing or if it was just, we're kind of trillion off quarter what, but he gets up and he says he wants to use the restroom. So he goes and he uses the restroom, my guy into the restroom. I come back and I asked Tyler, what do you think of him? Do you like him? And he said, yes. So that was like a green light for me.

20:40I said, okay, well, I guess we're going to do this like a three-some was going to happen. So when Hulu gets out of the bathroom, I get up from the table and I said, let's go inside the bedroom. I mean, when straight to the hall, we went into my bedroom. And the first thing that he does is he's laying on the bed, right in the middle of the bed with his head on the pillows. He opens up his legs, just like a very masculine, very, very confident man. And that was very attractive to me. I was like, wow, this is hot. And I hope it, I was always thinking in my head because I was thinking about Tyler. I hope it's hot for him too. So Tyler sits on the right side of him. I sit on the left and we're just kind of sitting there. I turned the TV on and the TV is just on regular TV, no porn or nothing. I turned the volume down and a few minutes have passed and I said, well, what do we do now? So in my head, I was thinking I have to initiate this because I don't think Tyler will.

21:41Or more like the one that suggested it is, the one that talked to him about it, I'm going to do it. So I reach over and I start grabbing Hulu's crotch. I was massaging there, groping it. And then Tyler follows me right up to that. So we're both doing that when we're both getting a feel of his balls and his crotch. And I was like, this is nice. I'm starting to feel comfortable. I really like it. And then next thing you know Hulu, when Buck was his belt, he pulls down his pants all the way down. And there he is with these flannel boxers. And I still remember the boxers because they felt like they were like old man boxers to me. But I was tripping out on them. But as soon as he did that, I looked at Tyler and I went inside his crotch and I was feeling his cock. And I was feeling his balls. And I remember he had his cock was really uncut.

22:42And I said, oh, this is an uncut cock. He's got a lot of foreskin. And we were just, Tyler, follow me right after that too. And both of us started stroking him under his underwear and feeling him stuff like that. He pulled down his underwear and we see this nice looking cock. It was pretty thick and he had a lot of foreskin. And he had these big balls and I look at Tyler and I said, yeah, this is nice. And he said, yes. The next thing I know we're getting into it, just stroking him. Hulu, he's like he did. He's loving it. Well, you didn't say nothing. He wouldn't even, he'd mention a word, nothing. He hadn't touched me. He hadn't even mentioned anything to me. And I said, I have to try to initiate something here bigger because I want to Tyler to feel comfortable. So the next thing I know is Hulu goes and he grabs my boyfriend's butt. Like he pulls down his shorts.

23:42He pulls down his underwear and he starts cropping Tyler like in the butt. Pulling him back more towards him. And he said, okay, okay, this is getting good. Like we're there. But in reality, I was sitting there and I was thinking, why hasn't he touched me? I thought he wanted me. No, so he was having fun with Tyler's behind. He was enjoying him and the entire were stroking him. And we were grabbing his balls, pulling his foreskin down. And I was looking at that cock and I said, I really want to suck this guy. I really want to suck this cock. I haven't sucked any other cock but Tyler's cock. You know why? Like I really want this and I really want to do it. And as I started almost to do that, I almost like almost bending my head down. And I was like, I'm going to initiate this. I hope Tyler starts sucking this cock with me and we both are going to like it. And we'll go from there. I start hearing like kissing noises.

24:42And I look back and there they are kissing each other like French kissing passionately, like tongues out and everything. And I had spoken to Tyler about this when we talked about what was going to happen before I invited Julio in. I said, he said, what's going to happen when all that. And I said, I don't know when we cross the Aboriginal getter. But one thing, let's try to do no kissing on the mouth area. And he said, okay. So when I look back and here they are kissing, French kissing tongues out. And I'm over here getting ready to suck this cock. I look back and the sense of jealousy and anger just came upon me because that was that was kind of like the boyfriend that I was at the time. I was a jealous boyfriend. I was possessive. I was kind of insecure. And I had spoken to him about the mouth kissing and it was happening right in front of me.

25:46And I got all these weird feelings that just came upon me. It was in, they were not good feelings. So I sat up on the bed. I moved a little bit away. Obviously I was upset and Tyler stopped kissing Julio. And Julio hasn't said anything. hadn't touched me. I think he was really into my boyfriend. I mean, the chemistry was there between them. And Tyler said, look at me. And he says, what happened? And I look back and I said, I thought we had came to this rule. There was going to be no kissing in the mouth. And he looked at me and he said, we're just having fun. And I said, whoa, okay. But it didn't seem like there was no chemistry there with me with them. It was like it was just them. Or maybe it was just me. I had no, like all these feelings just overtook me at that moment.

26:47And Julio had no idea what was going on. He was just like, what happened? When he said that to me when Tyler said, well, we're just having fun. Very casually. I said, I got to go to the restroom. I said, I'll be back. So I got out from the bed. I went straight into the hall into the restroom. And I sat there. And all these jealousy feelings overcame me. Possessive feelings that all these anger feelings was like the 22-year-old guy that I was at the time. I was scared of losing my boyfriend. And watching this was like, whoa, did I do the right thing to bring Julio into my house? And there's three of them, the right thing. And so a couple of minutes passed and Tyler walks into the bathroom and he says, what happened? I thought this is what we both wanted. And I said, I thought that we had came to the rule that there was no kissing in the mouth. And I just looked at me blank like he didn't say anything.

27:48And I said, you just broke that rule. I said, so I don't know what I should. I don't know what I want. And he kind of just stared at me like, he didn't say anything. He didn't say, okay, let's call it off. We'll do it another time. Nothing. He just looked at me and he said, come out when you're ready. So he walked out of the bathroom. And he went back into the room and I stood, I was sitting in the bathroom and I was just thinking, wow, he really wants his bed. He's, he wants it. And now I don't know what to do. So what I did is I was just thinking and thinking, it's I have to stop thinking. So I got myself back up when straight into the hall. And I said, I'm going to go in there and I'm going to try to enjoy this. It doesn't matter what happens. I'll try to enjoy it. Because I was walking back towards the room. I would say five minutes have passed maybe. I start hearing noises as I'm walking towards the room. And I, the door was slightly open, slightly closed.

28:51I walk in and pushed the door open and they were, they were on top of my bed. And there was sort of like in a 69 position. And my boyfriend was sucking the shit out of who he was cock. He was just sucking it and enjoying it. He had no one to wear on. He had just a shirt on and who knew it was just kind of rubbing and fingering him in the butt. And I walk in and I'm standing there and I said, whoa, it was just overwhelming for me. Like I wanted it bad, but it was not what I thought it was always going to have. I mean, I honestly thought I was going to be like the star of the night between them, like the one in the middle, the one in the sandwich. Like I wasn't. Like who was really into my boyfriend? And he forgot about me. And my boyfriend was really liking being the submissive bottom. Something that I had never seen because he was my top.

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31:52I was angry at the same time and then at the same time I started getting aroused. I started getting horny and then angry and jealous and then horny. And I was all these feelings one after another and I said, I was standing there looking at them. It was just, I would say it was just like 30 seconds of meaning. And Tyler gestured to me to join them. He was sucking that cock and he wanted to let it go. And who was it was just enjoying it. And he gestured to me to come into the bed and enjoy it. And I couldn't. Like I didn't want to join. At this time I just didn't want to join. And I didn't know where to say. I didn't know what to do. I was like, what do I do? What do I say? I want to watch this but I don't want to join anymore. Like I'm getting aroused. I'm getting horny. But I was jealous at the same time and I was like, so I was still standing there by the bed and I said, I'm going to be right outside. And I walked outside out of the room into the living room.

32:53And I sat in the living room again, just totally just jealous and then horny and jealous and horny. And I sat there for about 10 minutes and I said, what do I do? I can't undo this anymore. What do I do? So I decided to go back into the room and I got up because I could hear them from the living room makes sex noises. So I was getting more and more and more aroused. More horny. I was wet. I was rock hard. And I was like, I really want this. But then I just, I don't want to join. I don't want to join in. I don't want to be a cuckold. I don't want to ruin it. What do I do? I want to watch it. So I decided to walk back into the room. And as I walked back into the room, the door was again slightly open, slightly closed. And I just stood there by the door and I just started watching. And they were just going at it. They were like having oral sex, doing the full play.

33:54And I stood there and I was just the fact that I was watching the person that I was with for six years. This, this guy that I knew that was my top, a masculine guy, just get completely completely dominated by this straight Latino man that came in. And just took him and was just making him his submissive. It was just so hot for me at the moment. Like I was, I was so aroused. I was excited at the same time that my feelings of jealousy started going away. I didn't want to be like that creep on the standing at the door, jacking off. So I was like, what do I do? But I was like, bull gene, like I was like, I want to see this. I want to stay here and see this and see where it goes. So I stood there by the door. They never once looked back at me. It was like they were just in a euphoria themselves. And they were going at it with four play and they were my boyfriend was sucking the shit out of that cock.

34:54He was getting, he was doing the deep throw. He was liking his blood getting played with. I could see why Julio liked it. I mean, we both were pretty athletic. Tyler had like the slim athletic tone looked to him with a nice bubble. But I could see why he was so attracted to him. And he probably completely forgot about me. I could see that. And just watching it unfolded on my bed, it was the best thing for me as I stood there. And I was just kind of like touching myself. I was getting so wet. And I was like, what is going on? And one thing led to another and they started changing positions. And I noticed they were getting up from the bed and I said, whoa, because I thought they were just going to jack off and come. Like Julio was just dominating him, like moving him from position to position. He was face fucking him. He was playing with his butt.

35:54And I said, he really wants him. Like he really wants him back. And I said, they kind of got into a doggy style position. And I kind of moved back out of the door a little bit. I was embarrassed in a way. They saw me watching. It was like, it was a weird feeling that I got at the moment. I was like, I'm embarrassed that I'm watching it. I don't want to see them face to face watching me watch them. They're kind of like scooted back a little bit into the hallway. And then I went back in on the doorway watching them. And Julio was trying to position him into a doggy style position, like to fuck him. And I was thinking in my head, now a Tyler won't let him do that because Tyler is a top. I was like, he's my top. He supposedly doesn't like to bottom. And started rimming him. He started rimming him. And my boyfriend was loving it. He was just in heaven. Face down on the bed. And Julio was just taking control of that butt.

36:55He was done with the oil sex and really wanted to penetrate my boyfriend, you can tell. Something that I didn't think was going to happen, especially bear back. We had no condoms. We had some glue that I had brought out on the side of the bed to masturbate or jack off, stuff like that. But I never even thought it was going to come down to penetration. So here was my boyfriend butt up in the air. A doggy style on the side of the bed and Julio got up. He was standing and he was just getting ready to fuck him. And he was controlling the whole thing. And he ended up penetrating him. And I was like, the whole way, no way. I couldn't believe that this was going on at that time. I was like, no way. But I was getting so roused by it that I just stood there and I watched him just pound my boyfriend. This man that I knew for about two years that was a softball coach, very athletic, very handsome.

37:58Never even thought it would have bisexual tendency or biolos, but curious. Here he was in my house all of a sudden and he was dominating my boyfriend. Just made him a complete bottom, complete submissive. And I was standing on the door just and joined and loving it. I was like, whoa, what is this feeling? I'm loving watching Tyler get fucked in the ass. It was just like a euphoria for me already at that time, but that moment I was like, whoa. So he was pounding him, pounding him. And it was all bear back. And I was like, whoa, this is crazy. Next thing I know this happened for about ten minutes. And I heard Julio said something in Spanish to Tyler. And I was like, Tyler doesn't know what he's saying, but he was telling him in Spanish. I'm going to fuck you hard. I'm going to come in your ass. And I was like, at that moment I was like, no way. Some guys are going to come in my boyfriend's ass, no way.

39:00No way. Then he did. He was fucking him, fucking him, fucking him. And they were both in heaven making noises. They were like on cloud nine. And I was just standing there watching everything from the doorway. And I still have all those pictures in my head from that one time. And it happened so fast, so quick. And he ended up just giving Tyler, I think, what Tyler probably wanted for a long time. But he never showed me that side. I felt like I never knew what Tyler really wanted in bed, because he was just always my top, the dominant person in the relationship. Here I was the bottom of the submissive. And I was thinking, this is someone that I don't know in reality who he really is. He's either versatile or he's a bottom or he's just in the moment and he wants to really get fucked.

40:01So that ended like that. I went back into the bathroom because I couldn't see who you in the face. I was embarrassed. I didn't know what to tell him, what he was going to tell me. So I waited in the bathroom and I sat there and I heard the doors open. And I heard them talk. They were like trying to talk or say something. And who you ended up leaving? I heard the front door open closed and then five minutes later Tyler comes into the bathroom and says he's gone. He had to go make some calls and I said, okay. And I never spoke to him about this situation or anything. We never really talked about it. What happened was that three months later me and Tyler broke up because I found out that they were texting and calling each other to me in places behind my back. So that relationship didn't end well for me. It ended right there when I knew he was lying to me.

41:01And that's when my fetish of being a cuckold and bringing men home that are straight and masculine and bikerious to bring them home to my partner started. Like I started evolving into it. And now I'm kind of like feeling like my fetish is growing and evolving to a point where it's changing and I'm like, like, becoming kind of scared at the same time, but then at the same time, I wanted it to happen again. Like I would say I would think about it a lot every day. I couldn't get the pictures out of my head what I saw and what I heard that noises, Tyler and him. And I wanted to happen again. And I remember I would say a few weeks that passed and I had reached out to Julio again and he brushed me off.

42:01He kind of said, oh, no, no, I don't want to do that again, whatever. And I knew something was odd and was different. And so that's when I started kind of snooping around and trying to see what was going on. And I did find out that they were texting and meeting each other behind my back. So obviously the sparks were there between them and they really liked each other. And I ended up using my six year relationship to that. And wondering, does that factor into your scenarios now? Do you like to be denied? Do you like to be not in on it? Or is there some sort of cheating component now or not at all? Yeah, I still like to watch. Yeah, I have brought my new relationships. I have brought more men home. I like arranging the whole thing, even just arranging the whole thing and hooking up my partners with these guys that I know all that to me is. It's a thrill and it's a rousing to me. So I like to watch. I don't join. I never have joined.

43:02I just like to sit and watch. There's been a couple of times where the guy was kind of has been uncomfortable with me in the room twice. And I had walked out of the room and they had fucked the shed and my boyfriend when I could hear it. Or just imagine what's going on in the next room. And even that has been a rousing. So that makes me believe that my fetish is evolving and it's growing. And sometimes I'm like, okay, should it stop? Should I control it or what? But I would say that encounter completely made me not jealous anymore of my partners. I'm not jealous anymore. I don't want to have those feelings of jealousy when I see my boyfriend's and my partners look at me and the guy, I kind of say, am he's hot, right? It would be nice to have him in bed, right? Like I'll bring conversations up like that before that that wasn't who I was. So yeah, I would say that first cuckold scenario, something good came out of it because I was that Ben jealous,

44:04meaty boyfriend and possessive and after that, I wasn't anymore. And I'm not with my partners anymore. And I have opened up, I would say, two relationships after that. I have brought men home and it's always like men that are close to me that I know I don't bring gay guys home from bars or from clubs. It's always that one guy that I like, a masculine guy that is curious by curious or bisexual that says they're straight and they start opening to me up about fantasies. I go from there. So like arranging the whole thing for my partners is also for me like arousing and exciting and I get something out of it too. Do you ever have a fear of them leaving you for the person or going behind your back like that first guy did? Yes, I do. I always think about what I did to that first relationship and I said I opened it up and as I'm 34 now, but as I get older, I open up my relationships, the two that I've had and then this one that I'm in now.

45:17And I try to be really open with my partners and say this is just fun, no feelings involved and that's why I kind of look and I seek out men that I know are not going to get emotionally attached to my partner or to my boyfriend or them to them. So I have a big group of straight friends. I've always more than gay and so I if they open up to me and I say this guy is hot like this guy is good looking. I would love to see him in bed with my partner and I kind of start opening up to them. I had I knew this guy that was a car mechanic he's to work on sports cars and he opened up to me about keys to fantasize about being with transsexual woman. And that's how it started with him and then I opened up to him about having an open relationship. My partner was really odd. He had a nice ass and gave it this blow jobs and I ended up bringing him home and so I kind of feel like that's why I seek these guys that are kind of like really, you know, masculine and on the DL and dominant cops and or by curious or they're very, very like on this secret.

46:31On the secret side, they're just fantasies that they have because it makes me feel secure and make reassuring that there's not going to be anything going on behind my back and so. Of course, of course you don't want what happened before and now you've been with the guy that you're with now for one year. How many times have you done this with him? I only have brought home two guys. So I had a relationship after Tyler for about four years and I brought men home with that relationship and then I brought and then I had another relationship after that of two years and I brought men home. And this relationship that I'm in now is kind of new and I just started but I feel that at times I have to kind of take it slow because I feel like I'm not becoming a pro at it but I feel like my fetish is evolving more and I'm not becoming a pro at it. I'm evolving more and more and so to the point where I don't want it to get it. I don't want to go out of control but because I've had situations where the guy has the person that bring home tells me he's uncomfortable with with me in the room.

47:41He can't get it up or something like that and I say no problem like I'll just step out and then I step out and I just tell my boyfriend if he's okay with it and then I just let them be and even that alone just hearing my boyfriend get fucked or sucking cock in the next room and hearing everything that's going on. Even that just gets me rock hard gets me way I'm a rouse by it and I could just I could just jerk off just listening to that and so it's gotten to be like a cuckold thing but at the same time it's I have had some situations where I don't even I'm not even in the room and I can still have a good time and enjoy just listening to hearing where I've gotten to the point where I've seen it on camera and I love it too. Let me ask you this what happens when that person leaves is there a lot of together time between you and your guy to make sure to reclaim. No, no, it's not there's no reclaiming sex here we just kind of go about our lives we I mean I try to have good sex life but I think the throw out of this too is that I'm always the bottom in most relationships. I don't know why I always seem to have these really masculine dominant sex.

49:00I mean in tops as boyfriends or they never kind of want to bottom or kind of be versatile and so when I look at these guys that I bring home that are completely tops when they're bisexual, bicurious and just completely dominant my boyfriends that's what I want to see that's that's what really excites me. When I've seen these situations go bad is when you people are allowing other people into their relationships and that cuckstarts being denied and staying off to the side too much and doesn't do the reclaiming that's where you start to get in the little bit of the danger zone because if you stop doing that with him eventually what can happen is someone comes in and is there's some sort of weird chemistry that maybe is different than anybody else. And if you're not reclaiming and you're not going back and reminding him who he really is with he could get attached to somebody else and that happens in the regular couples that when it's gone wrong when it goes right there's always reclaiming when you're always going back when you're always remembering and reminding each other who you're with and when it's always about you two together not just separate you just watching him with somebody so that's what you want to be careful about.

50:19I try to keep a good sex life always with my partners but like I say most of the time on the bottom I'm dismissive they're my tops and that's the way my sex life is. Can you ever be the person that you see these guys come in and be for him? Oh I can. I would consider myself to be versatile like I say most of the time I always end up being like a bottom I'm not sure why. Most guys in that in the in the gay community like they roll one way or the other there's not so many versatile right I mean it's mostly more bottoms right. Yep I would think so yeah and so the relationships that I've had I've always been these you know I'm with top with. They're being top by other guys that you bring home exactly your first why don't you ever know and then be the top. I don't know I it's never really happened and even though sometimes I tried it doesn't happen and so when I see these guys that I bring home. I have brought in a college friend a barber that I knew a car mechanic I brought in all these different type of guys that I know personally well enough for acquaintances that I know that are these butch masculine guys that are trying to explore experiment and they dominate.

51:35My boyfriends and make him to submissive bottoms it's it's so rousing to me and I don't know if it falls back to that first time with Tyler and who you but. This is this is what really gets me going like it wouldn't get me going if I bring another bottom home another gay guy from the bar another bottom home or versatile guy and I see my boyfriend and bad with them. Listen I don't think there's anything wrong with it if this is your king and your guys into it and it's what you're into I just think the what you want to make sure of is that you always keep that connection and that sex life and everything really secure with you and your guy and I would make sure you reclaim. Yeah that could be true I never thought about it that way but it could be true but I would say that's that's probably one of my kings and my fetishes like bringing these men that are completely tops and completely masculine dominate my boyfriends like I say it wouldn't be the same if I would bring a bottom home there's times where I want to stop because my fetish and my my king is growing more and more to the point where.

52:44I don't have to be in the room anymore or I've seen it on video happen and. But what are you afraid of by that what is what's the fear well that that I that the king and the fetishes keeps growing growing so much where I'm just getting out of hand and forget about my relationship right that's what I'm afraid of yeah same thing that's why it has to but that's and I have to wrap it up in five minutes but that's that's the whole that's the whole thing that's what you should be afraid of. And listen I think that you're smart to be thinking that way because that can happen when you become so into it but what also happens at the same time a lot of times when you you do have a fetish it's just it's so powerful and the urge becomes so strong it could really cause a problem so you just want to make sure you. You get you try to be as moderate as possible and continue to make sure you're doing stuff together with your guy in every aspect of your relationship especially being intimate with him.

53:46So that there doesn't be a thing where he's so separate from you in that part is separate because what's going to happen then is it's just a matter of time that you're going to meet somebody that he's going to maybe click with and then you're wind up in the Tyler situation again that's what you don't want when that's what I've heard can happen so. You have to make sure that your relationship with him is is stronger and better and you are smart to be worried about your fetish because you don't want to be over taken by it you know any mean yeah I agree yeah it's just a kink and fetish that sometimes just grows and grows I've never had a no from my my partners when I tell them let's hook up with this guy or let me bring this guy home what do you think about him so I feel like they also want it when I see him. Of course and that and bear get dominated and they're just enjoying it so much and loving it I'm like this is hot and this is what they want when I'm like okay yeah there's nothing wrong with that I only started asking questions so since because I know that you had some fear and trepidation I'm like oh maybe you need a little advice but you're a really good storyteller okay like seriously you made my job really easy I love this story it's super interesting because I never had like I said it from the game.

55:01I said it from the game and perspective but I think what's interesting about this and is that it can read it like even a straight couple could relate to what's going on here in a way because it's kind of like the same dynamic it doesn't really matter if you're gay or straight what's kind of like you're living out the same thing as like when the straight couple calls in and talks about this kind of a thing so but the fact that you are a game and doing it is interesting because I've never heard from one so thank you so much for calling it and sharing your story. Thanks for having me Kathy I appreciate it. Yeah it was great now listen if you want to send me an anonymous pick for my patreon I don't know if you're into that but you know guys send in picks now too nothing or rate like no dick picks or anything like that but also just if you want to send a pick to show off yourself that's cool and also now I have a discord channel that I give anyone who calls into my show gets free access to it so you could go on there and do whatever you want and like when your episode airs you could introduce yourself you could post whatever you want over there and I'll send you a link to the video. And I'll send you that link when your episode is up but if you want to send me in picks for my patreon send them to me now and I'll post them but I'll also send you like I said the discord channel you get in for free but everyone else pays okay all right sounds good thank you all right thanks Mark thanks so much for calling and I'm glad you found my show and I'm glad that you called into tell your story because I it's unique and I like I said I'm a dream I show for nine years so it's very rare that I get on something that's unique you don't even mean at this point thank you so much.

56:27Thanks for sharing and thanks for being such a good storyteller you drag the whole thing out and made it great I'm sure great. Thanks bye. Okay I just want to tell you before you go that my book it's called Strickly and Automus Confession Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers is now available not only in paperback in ebook but you can pre-order the audio book it's still not going to be out to August 25th but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show I kind of picked one story from each category that I talk about on my show like there's a hot wife story there's a cuck queen story there's a cuck story there's a gang being girl story like I said 17 stories and they're all told in the third person and they're all true I took the interview and rewrote it in the third person and I wouldn't really call it like a total erotic a book think like that. Erotic a book think like penthouse letters it's more direct it's not so over the top like erotic I don't really like that kind of vibe right but these are true stories 17 of them they're really short chapters easy read you could read you know one or two and then skip around you could read the whole book it's available in eback format paperback format and finally the audio book is available.

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