1051. Healing from trauma

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3:06There are no right or wrong decisions. So that's what the faith is in. The faith is not in. I'm making this decision so I can have this specific outcome. It's like I'm making this decision because this is what feels good to me. This is what feels like I'm honoring myself. This is what feels true to me right now. And if that's the case, then the outcome doesn't matter because that's the lesson is learning to trust your heart. Learning to trust in that non-linear path. Learning to trust in God. Learning that we literally cannot see but we all a lot of us feel and know is there as nothing to do with the outcome or the ending or the expectation at all. I love that. Yeah, I always say like faith is greater than your feelings. You know, faith is like. And I think that's the thing with unconditional, conditional love and I've I'm only actually really learning what that is. You know, I really didn't know what that was until I got older and it's like I assumed

4:09for a long time that unconditional love was actually like toxic or like unconditional love was actually equal toxic for me because it was like a loyalty beyond my boundaries, loyalty beyond my best intentions, like loyalty beyond these things. And now like seeing and experiencing like unconditional love like with Lindsay and like with my partner and like with a few of our other friends and for the first time is like it's mind blowing. How different it is than conditional love and like even with your friends that you've you've parted ways from, you know, maybe for now, maybe forever, it's like when you first and experience unconditional love and you know what it is, it's like everything else. It's like so clear when it's not, it's crazy. Totally, totally, absolutely. You know, I feel that people who have experienced abuse and trauma like myself in relationship obviously like kind of get confused when it comes to unconditional love because our boundaries are so cross and we experienced a lot of pain and suffering in relationships, you know,

5:14and so like for example, I experienced a lot of abuse with some members of my family and for a while it was like I don't have to forgive you in order to heal like fuck you guys I've done and I'm at this place now where it's like oh I had to put that boundary up with them albeit like I did it in a very like unconscious like middle fingers up type of way that was necessary for me. But I had to do that in order to like rejuvenate and again like harmonize myself back to that unconditional love frequency because at the essence of all of us that's what we are. Like love is not again that's so cliche like love is not something that you give it's literally what we are it's a frequency that you tap into when you like live with non attachment and when you're living so with your heart so open that you cannot help but just admit that you know and so I had to put up that boundary with my family in order that I could go back into that unconditional love space and love them without expectation and so I have a relationship with my dad now because I

6:18don't expect anything from him I don't need anything from him I just love him if I can give that love without needing or expecting anything in return because I'm not coming from a place of scarcity or lack I'm coming from a place of I'm so vibrating with this love for myself and for God and for humanity in general that like I have no time to waste being mad at people like yes you abuse me and whatever and it was fucked up and at the same time like I'm creating myself more suffering by not forgiving you. Thank you so much for tuning into Morning Microdose by Almost 30. We hope you enjoyed waking up as always we encourage you to take what resonates and lead the rest. If you enjoyed this trip tune into the full episode on the Almost 30 podcast all episode information can be found in the shenan's make sure to subscribe and if this becomes a part of your morning routine be sure to share it with a friend we have new inspiring doses Monday through Friday follow us on Instagram at Morning Microdose and follow Almost 30 at Almost 30 podcast.

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