Black Label: Nothing but Sadness

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3:11And you will get hundreds if not thousands of hours of bonus content. I've been doing this for nearly a decade. Alright, let's get on with it. Remember, this is black label. Now for the faint heart. A parent's attention is built to face outward. It watches the road and the water and the stairs. The stranger at the edge of the yard. The thing the toddler has just put in its mouth. And when something feels wrong, the response runs the same every time. They bring the children in. They keep everybody together. It is left on their own that reflexes right almost every time it fires. And it is most the reason children survive childhood at all. Claremont County sits on the southwest corner of Ohio, East of Cincinnati, where the suburbs give out and the country starts. Farmground and woodbott, creeks running toward the Ohio River, two lane roads that wander. June out there is green to the point of excess. The corner past the knee and the lights staying until 9 at night.

4:14People moved to that county to raise children. And there was a particular hour in a house with small children in it. Early afternoon, when the meal is finished and the younger ones are running down. And somebody suggests everybody lie down for a while. It is the safest hour of the day. The house goes quiet and then it starts again. Why don't we do this?

5:23Why don't you just tell me what is going on with what happened today? I don't know. I don't know anything to say. I don't really know. And that is okay. Maybe we can work through this. Maybe we can help you remember. Right? I have no clue. All right. What am I doing in here? Well, that is what we are trying to figure out. All right. Was the last time you slept? Monday? Do you know what day it is today? Thursday. Friday. You know what day it is? Thursday. Do you know what the day it is? It is a Friday. I had to look myself. It is 15. Won't you take a drink of water? Maybe that will help you. Maybe you are just a little dehydrated. Should you have slept since Monday?

6:24Are you tired now? Mm-hmm. All right. A little bit. A little bit. Was the last time you ate any food? Breakfast, lunch? Mm-hmm. Do you remember what you ate? I ate. Did something make you upset? I was upset. What were you feeling? Be trade? No. Never. Happy? Mm-hmm. Was there a way down your back about something recently? What happened today? We were living in hell. Like the world. Hell. Santa Bible. You shoot. You shoot first, second.

7:24Third? Well, first you're right. You didn't get to finish your life. I don't know. Why is that? It's only going in. When you say that, do you mean you just kind of lost your way? I'll be poor at labor. I know everything you don't know. I can give you a couple days. I'm going to talk to a lawyer so that way I can get nice good answers. I don't think I've ever met you either. With Matt and I remember you. The nice guy that lives on Virginia Drive. There were three boys. Clayton Doorman was seven. Hunter Doorman was four. Chase Doorman was three. It is nearly all the public record preserves about them. The case ends in a guilty plea. So no witness ever stood up and described what any of those children were like. The rest hearing and sentence coverage has no room for a seven year old. Laura Doorman was 34. She had a daughter from before. Alexis, who was 14. And who the boys called their sister. Afterward, Laura wrote something for the public enough for the court.

8:27She asked people to remember and talk about Clayton, Hunter and Chase. For who they were before the 15th of June, 2023. And then she told them how. Remember them, she said. As the three little boys who loved fishing and go-carding and swimming. Remember them as the boys who are always at the baseball fields. Are running around outside. Remember them as boys who love to have fun and who are inseparable from one another. She said their wives are not only about what happened to them. Because they were so much more than that. Three children, described by the only person entitled to describe them. Three brothers, seven and four and three on a property with a field behind it. In the second week of June, those ages carried their own weight. Clayton at seven had finished first grade. Hunter at four was in the year before school. Chase at three was barely out of being a baby. And the stage where a child gets carried when he is tired. Alexis F-14 was old enough to be left watching television while the rest of the house napt.

9:29And still a child in that house herself. Five people in a bedroom and one in the family room with the television on. And the horrible thoughts. Thinking how's the living in the Bible? I'm not gonna keep going. Tell me about this thoughts you were having. The Bible is important to me. There's a place of what kind of things you were thinking. Hmm. Were you thinking about hurting yourself? No. Were you thinking about hurting? I was going to get a health. Let them go to heaven. Let them go to hell. Because that's how you were going to come to heaven. You shook your head no more than how? Is that what you deserve to be is in heaven? In a better place. Yes. And so your ideal was to make out there in a good way. In a kind way.

10:31Shit, I'm gonna ask you something that I don't want to offend you, all right? But I need to ask this. Have you been using drugs? Street drugs? No drugs ever. And that? No. I've joked around about it, but never did anything. Never did any type of speed, never did anything. All right. No ice. Nope, nope, nope, nope, nope, nope, no fat and all. Nope, nope, nope, nope, just drink alcohol. Yep. Love beer. Having had a beer in a while. Actually, I drink. No. What's the wild here? What's the wild here? Like, two days. All right. Easily I got up. These drink three, four, six, and nine. You know? You guys. And I, again, I don't have a drink. You guys. And again, I don't have to. But like, that's what I do. You know, I go on my grass drink, cup beers. And there is nothing wrong with that. Again, I don't. I don't want to offend you, but do you have a drinking problem? I mean, I'm a grass and drink, but I'm just asking. I don't think so.

11:32I think, like, by the weekends, I mean, yeah, you might drink seven, eight, you know, but in weekdays, you know, a drink two or three, you go work. And you've never had a DUI, so I don't think that you have a drinking problem. I don't know DUI. All right, so, yeah, I'm out of drink too. I get it. But you've never, you know, dabbled in any street drugs or anything like that. You said, do you take any prescription medications? Nope. Can you tell us a little bit about why you want to go to the little clinic? It was poison to me for a while. When? Um, months ago, he's putting shit in my food. It was about I can't even eat because I would taste it. He's bad. Do you did that today because you seem like you're, you're in and out of it like last night. I kept sleeping. I can sleep.

12:32I ain't drinking a beer. His own statements in the bill of particulars, the prosecution filed, but the same date on it. He had been thinking about it since October, eight months inside them set Halloween and Thanksgiving, a Christmas morning, New Year, Clayton's seventh birthday, Easter, and the end of a school year. From the previous autumn through the winter and the spring into June, a man went to work and came home and sat at his table with his wife and children. And all that time, he was turning over the question of killing his three sons. Come on, everybody. I know. My whole family now helped me. Nobody would help me. What's nobody help me at all? Just take me somewhere. We're gonna get you some help, Chad. That's why we're here. No, it's, it's why we're here. The best, the best, the best. I can't do everything.

13:32Oh, you can't. You can't do it all. You can't do it all. Do you make the money? So you're working hard every day. You're making the money to pay the bills. And you're just asking for some help and then you're not getting it. Who? Don't make me mad. I do it all. I just do it. I'm here. How you doing? I'm here. It's just these stuff. Oh, finished. Let's go. Is that why you were mad today? Who was it, man? Because you couldn't get help. Who's not mad? Who's not mad at all? Do either of those 22's have like a wooden stock? All of those are wooden stocks. Well, I have one that's a black stock. It's all black. And it's more for defense. It's not for hunting. It's not like a nice, it's not like a nice right? No.

14:33Yours are all nice though, right? Like wooden, nice collector style. Yep. What's the Bible say about women going to heaven? It's good. Well, did deserve to go to heaven because they didn't go. Why didn't they get to go? Because they didn't move. Well, you got to help me understand it. How did I get to get it? You said that you were going, that you wanted to go to hell. I don't want to get help. I'm going to help. OK. I'm sorry. I misunderstood you. I wasn't there. You got to help me, Chad. I wasn't there. You were there. You were definitely there, Chad. The record on him before that June is thin. And it's not nothing. Court records show one prior criminal offense, a domestic violence charge. The alleged victim was his own father.

15:35And the case was dropped when the older man failed to appear as a witness. Beyond that, there were traffic matters and nothing else. A neighbor said afterward that they had seen him treat his family poorly, and that he was angry. When did you come up with this plan? Or did I come up with it? When did it come upon you that this is what you were going to do? Probably last night, because you were telling me about last night. Well, then why were you acting differently? Yeah, it was kind of. It's kind of right there. I mean, what that means? Oh, no. It was the last night. It knows you well. Last night, something was going to happen. What had been passed is this why you can't sleep, because you knew you had to do it. Yeah. It was sick to my stomach. Sick to my stomach forever. She said, now I believe that. Now we're talking. Now we're having a conversation. You're letting us understand what you were thinking.

16:37It's all due to that bio. And I chose to go. Where's that bio now? I didn't read the bio. Well, I never read the bio. I got told the story. It was a church. It was a church. I don't know what church I went to. How long ago was it? Three years. But I think that that also told me the story. Did you take any notes anywhere? No. Have you wrote any of this down anywhere? No. What a place there. Just keep it inside of you thinking about it. Yeah. There's not a whole other signs all over the place. People are walking like zombies. It's going to be a nightmare down to you. That's going to be a pass. And I'm not going to have my family anywhere near home. Did you ever tell me that this was going to happen?

17:40I don't know. Or that you're about your feelings about it. No. I don't think so. Because you should never put that in. Never. There's a heavy burden, Chad. It's a heavy burden. The category has a name. Philicide is the killing of a child by a parent. And several hundred American children die that way every year. It happens most days somewhere in the country. And almost none of it travels beyond the local news. The research goes back to a 1969 paper by the psychiatrist Philip Resnick, who sorted the cases into types. Some parents kill in the course of abuse that went too far. Some kill an unwanted infant. Some kill to punish a spouse. And some kill out of what Resnick called an altruistic motive. Having come to believe through psychosis or depression that the child is better off dead.

18:41Fathers who kill their children are more likely than mothers to kill more than one in a single event. More likely to use a weapon and more likely to attack the mother as well. None of that predicts an individual man and it did not predict this one. It establishes only that a father sitting at a table for eight months with a plan in his head has precedent. And no morning signs anybody has found a way to read in advance. By the time it got to June, they had cost him sleep. The prosecutor told the court he had not slept in days. There was a gun safe in the master bedroom on the floor beside the bed and in it was a Marlin model 70 H.C. A 22 caliber semi automatic rifle. A 22 is the smallest to most common cartridge in American civilian hands. It is what people learn to shoot with a rifle for squirrels and tin cans and target practice off a back porch. And there are tens of millions of them in the country. Two things about that matter here. A 22 does not reliably kill a person with one round.

19:44It is small and slow and a man using one on a human being will often have to fire more than once. And a semi automatic of that type feeds from a detachable magazine. So when it runs empty, the shooting stops until it's changed. That pause is measured in seconds and in this house it was long enough for something to happen in it. He came home early and he came in with a Bible in his hand. He walked around the house with it. According to the amended bill of particulars filed by chief assistant prosecutor, Lara Baron Allen, he was mumbling as he went. He was saying that Chad knows what's right. Then he started getting into the gun safe in the master bedroom and Laura told him he was scaring her. He told her he was just kidding. He was playing around, he said. And he was going to go lie down. She did not want him to be alone. So she went into the bedroom with him and her son's way in with her. So three small boys came to be on that bed. Alexa stayed in the family room watching television from where she was sitting.

20:45She could not see in the bedroom. At some point Chad Durman got off the bed, opened the gun safe on the floor beside it, took out the Marlin and put a loaded magazine into it. Laura got to a phone. She told him he was loved and she started trying to call 911. He took the phone out of her hands. He told her it was too late. And he shot Hunter twice. Hunter was four years old and he was on his parents bed and his mother was next to him. Laura went to her son and started trying to help him. And while she was doing that, she told the other two boys to run. Alexa's heard the shots from the family room and came into the bedroom and saw it. Clayton ran. He was seven and he went out of the house and into the yard and then toward the field. And his 14 year old step sister ran after him, telling him to keep going. His father followed behind him quick into the field and shot him from behind. Clayton went down in the grass. Durman walked up to where his son was lying and shot him again in the head at close range.

21:49Alexa's turn and ran back to the house. She got inside and found Chase who was three and she picked him up and tried to carry him out toward the main road. Her stepfather came after her and aimed the rifle at her and told her to put the boy down. She begged him not to shoot her until that chase go. Then she put her brother down because he had a rifle and she was 14 and she had just watched him shoot Clayton in a field. He turned the rifle on the three rolled and pulled the trigger and the weapon misfired. And those seconds Chase ran crying. He went to his mother who was by then in the side yard trying to save Clayton with a bullet wound through her own hand from the struggle over the gun. The struggle is in the prosecutor's statement of facts. Lord Durman got a hand on the barrel of the husband's rifle and pressed her thumb into the muzzle. It is the last thing available to a person trying to stop a gun with her body. He fired and shot her through the thumb and she could not keep a grip on her son and

22:49on the weapon at the same time. Alexis got away. She ran for the Monroe Township Fire Department and on the road a passerby stopped her. What she told them was that her father was killing everyone. Durman went back to where his youngest son was and shot him in the head. Then he carried the bodies. He brought Clayton in from the field and hung her out of the house and he laid his three sons down next to each other. Her Durman performed CPR on her children until the police came. I can't tell what's happening, ma'am. I need you. Calm down and tell me what's happening. Help me. God help me. Damn. This hurt. This hurt. God. This hurt. Why is it there? What is happening?

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28:03Can you hear me? Hey. Hi, Daddy. Hi. Where the fuck is that one wrong? Hi, Daddy. Hi. Hi, Daddy. Hi, Daddy. Hi, Daddy. Yes, I'm mad. Can you hear me? Hi. Hi, Daddy. Hi. Hi. Can you hear me? Hello? Hello?

29:06Hello? Hi. Hello? Hi, Daddy. Hello? Hi. Hi. Hi. Man, can you hear me? Hi. Hi. Hi, Daddy. Hello, Daddy. Hi. Hi. Oh my god. It's so cold. I'm a... 9-1, where's your mercy? I... I can't believe I'm in the woods. I'm so... I'm so... I can't... Can you hear me? My children are so... My children are not breathing. Okay, what is this? Help me! How many people are so... I think three... What three children? Three children. We are! We are! Okay, what's your name?

30:07What is this? I have help on the way to the... I call and nobody came! They're driving there. They're on their way. They're on our way to the... I don't know. I don't know. Who is the hinder? What is the border? The border is too... What's his name? The border is... I don't know what you're doing. What's your name? Oh! He killed my children! Are you with your children now? I'm waiting till they're all over the yard. I need help, I'm looking over to him. Thank you, I can help my kids. Ma'am, they're not me. I'm fine. Let me help you. Take a deep breath so that I can help you. They will stop breathing anymore. Okay, do you want to see me? Be pure. Okay, but I think you're not breathing. I can have this baby. Do you want to do CPR?

31:08Do you want to do CPR? I can help. I think you need somebody to get your head back. They're on their way to the driving. We can help them while they're on the way. They're on their way to the driving. Don't let them help. They're driving there. They're driving there. They're right across the street. They're on their way to the driving. They're on their way to the driving. Oh, these are good. These pastures are gone and sparse. If you want to do CPR, I think if you want to drive. I don't even think they're breathing. They're not even having fun. We need to stop them. They're gone. We can check, Ma'am. We can check up their breathing and do CPR. Okay, let's do it. Please hurry up. Three of them. Okay, pick one and go. Okay. What? Pick the closest kid to you. Check their breathing. Let me know we'll start CPR. They're not breathing. They have no closest. My children are dead. Okay, we're still putting it in here to help you.

32:12On their way to the driving. Where is the shooter now? They're standing here. They're standing here. Like, aren't they all my kids? I want to help them. I'm not home. My baby. I'm here to help them. I understand. Okay, I understand. I know you don't understand. I have to start getting scared. I'm scared. You don't understand. I understand that you need help and I have help on the way. Okay, they're driving their ma'am. They're getting there quickly as they can. I'm trying to go away. I'm going to help you. What? Why are you there? Where is the shooter? This is the living of God. Where is the shooter? Is he so nice? I don't know. What's his name? His name is Sean Dorman. Chad Dorman is the shooter. Okay.

33:12You guys. Do you know what kind of... Okay. I don't know, but my babies are dead. My babies are dead. All of these three of my babies are dead. Okay. Is there anyone that can help you to see PR on your children? Is nobody helping to see PR? Where is someone coming out me? I can help you give instruction. I don't even know. I can't feel their voices. Okay, your dogs movies are not breathing. They are dead. Do you feel any air coming out of their mouth or noses? They are standing outside. None of them have any air coming out. They have blood in their ears. They are dead. Okay. I just don't believe my world is in this. These are my babies. They killed all of them. They killed all of my sweet children. I can't take it so much. You can see PR if you want to try to do it. Okay, fine.

34:13But I don't think they're alive. What do I gotta do? Okay, next one. Feel it and see if you feel any breathing. No. Okay, put your hand and the center of the chest right between the nipples. Okay. And then you're going to pump the chest hard and fast, at least twice per second, two inches deep. Hard and fast. That's hard and fast, twice per second, two inches deep. Do this. I just hear bubbles. What is it? I just hear bubbles. You hear bubbles? Okay, keep pumping in their chest hard and fast, twice per second. I just... Show them. Show them. You're going to get your instruments in one hour. You're going to get your instruments in one hour. We can't spell it all by the way. You want to get them to your mouth and mouth. You're going to get them to your mouth. I'm going to flip you over and try to help you.

35:14Thank you so much. I'm going to try to help you, okay? Wait, now we got three systems. Okay, so it's the upper side. You can do what you want. Maybe we'll just follow over here. What do I do? You think they're getting your eyes? They're going to help you, okay? They're going to help you. What do I do? Hey, you're up, people! They're hurrying. Okay, they had to get the shooter down first. And they're going to help you. You're too good. I hate them. I hate them. No. They took my wife from me. My wife. I am so sorry. That is not going to be okay. Oh, yeah. Oh, you're going to be okay? I'm going to flip you over. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah.

36:15Oh, I did change it. I'm down and there's the little. There's so little. I still got down out of here. I still got a mouth. They're dead on the day. They're dead on the day. They're still going on the day. Where's the worst of guys? He's over there. They're dead on the day. This is bad. Sorry. You want me to get there. You can get out of here and get the shooting. Please tell me you can stay with my baby. I'm very old. What's your secret? I'm just letting her hug you. Coming home. I'm gesting it right here. I dare say this to you.

37:16Just please give me a hug. Okay? No baby? Yeah, nothing to say. after the pay. I can't even believe this is my life. The 911 call reporting a shooting on Laura Lindell Road reached County dispatchers at about a quarter past four in the afternoon. The timeline runs from there. He had come home around the middle of the day by a quarter past four. It was over. Claire Mott County deputies came up Laura Lindell Road to a house with a field behind it and a man sitting outside on the stoop. The rifle was on the ground next to him. Body camera footage shows what they found. He was not hiding and he did not run as deputies came up on him. He told them he was not going to hurt them that he was not going to hurt anybody out in the yard. His wife was on the ground with one of their sons still trying to save him with a gunshot wound through her own hand. According to the court documents, he was watching her do it. He was taken into custody

38:18without any struggle at all going in and afterward. He said things that any officer would write down that he did it that they should take him to jail that he should not have done it and should not have shot them. He was charged with 21 counts. Nine of aggravated murder, eight of kidnapping for a felonious assault. The kidnapping counts covered the ordering and the confinement of the children and of Alexis during those minutes. On the 23rd of June 2023, he pleaded not guilty. The funeral of Clayton, Hunter and Chase took place at first Baptist Church in Batavia. Three caskets in a county of about 200,000 people where everybody had read the same headline. Prosecutors said they would seek the death penalty. Doorman's lawyers moved to suppress his statements to detectives. The interrogation had been recorded and in it he talked. He had told investigators the plan went back to October 45 minutes into that interview. Doorman asked a question. He asked where a lawyer was

39:20the detectives response as set out in the defense motion was to say a single word back to him, which was the name Laura. The interview continued. The doctor and the question triggers is more than 40 years old and it's not ambiguous. Under Miranda, suspect and custody must be told he has a right to a lawyer under a 1981 Supreme Court decision called Edwards against Arizona. The moment he asked for one questioning stops not pauses. It is not start again until consul is present or the suspect reopens it himself. The rule exists because the alternative is a room where a man can ask for a lawyer and be talked past in March of 2024. The judge ruled on it and the ruling went against the state. You found that doorman's Miranda rights had been violated detectives had failed to properly and fully advise of them before beginning a custodial and hergation. The questioning had carried on after he unequivocally and unambiguously invoked his right to counsel. Every statement from that

40:22interrogation was suppressed. The state could not put any other in front of a jury. A great deal came off the table in that room. He had told detectives he had been thinking about killing a son since October, which is the difference between a man who was broken, a man who planned aggravated murder in Ohio turns on a prior calculation and design. The state still had Laura doorman and Alexis doorman had the physical scene, the rifle, the room through a woman's thumb and a man on his own stooped telling deputies he did it and to take him to jail. With the recorded statement of his own intent in his own voice was gone over a single exchange in an interview room. The defense filed a notion of an insanity plea. Ohio sets a high bar. A defendant has to prove that at the time of the act, a severe mental disease or defect left him unable to know the wrongfulness of what he was doing, not that he was ill or disturbed or hearing things that he did not know it was wrong. It is one of the least

41:23successful defenses in American law erasing it changes a trial completely. It puts psychiatrists on the stand for both sides and the defendants in her life in front of a jury for weeks. And in a capital case, it carries into the penalty phase as mitigation, even after a jury rejects it. Trial was set to begin on the 8th of July, 2024 and a run to the second of August on Friday, the second of August, 2024, Chad Durman walked into a courtroom in Batavia and a pale blue button down shirt and pleaded guilty three counts of aggravated murder for Clayton and Hunter and Chase two counts of philonious assault for Laura and for Alexis. The terms were exact. He would drop the insanity plea. He would never be eligible for parole. He would not appeal in exchange the state would drop the aggravating factors that made him eligible for execution. He was given three consecutive life sentences on behalf of Laura, Department of the Army. On

42:26June 15, 2023, my life was changed forever. My life was ripped away from me and destroyed. Since that day, I spent every day grieving the loss of my three sweet, so very little sons. I grieved the loss of Clayton, Hunter and Chase every single day. And I grieved the life that they did not get to live. I no longer get to raise them and watch them grow. I miss each one of them so very much. I miss their laughter. Silliness, love, and joy for life. Where there used to be so much laughter, happiness, noise of rowdy little boys, there is now silence and emptiness. I would do anything to push them on the swing.

43:28Cover them up one more time. And here there are little ways of saying, I love you. All of it gone when I should have had so much more life left to live with them. I asked myself how a mother is supposed to carry on a life as a mom with one child left here on earth and three on forever. I struggle every day with the will to get up or give up. Life for me is the true pain and suffering. I will never agree to think that any form of punishment could amount to the form of torture and suffering I have to endure each day. Such as seeing children and seeing siblings together as I watch Alexis be without for brothers and seeing families together as I no longer have mine.

44:32Having to live a life where I'm visiting the same places I once was with Clayton, Hunter and Chase all together. Traveling in the car and no longer seeing them in the rear view mirror. This also includes our family home that holds so many memories that I cannot let go of. But now it's just a devastating to faith. Again, so empty and quiet. I was injured that day, fighting with every ounce of my body to just make it stop. I struggle every day, knowing I was not successful in doing so. And now I have to live with this and wonder what more I could have done to save them. This tragedy has affected me mentally and physically. I replay the events of that day over

45:32and over. I get sick at the thought. Every day I have to learn how to cope and live with the trauma I now have. I have anger, frustration, and so much sadness. I had plans and dreams to watch my small boys grow up and become young men and to always be there for them as their mom and to be the best grandma I could be. My husband I trusted with everything made a decision that has left my life forever changed. I lost my husband and my children to this horrible crime. The law will never replace my life and give me back what I have lost. I will fold the life I had and live so close to my heart forever. Grief will never go away as it is all the love that is left

46:35with no place to go. And my love for Clayton Hunter and Chase will never go away. And I will never let them be forgotten. I quote when I get to where I'm going I'll only have happy tears. Until then I will live my days with nothing but sadness.

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